Chapter 5.
CHAPTER 5.
~Maya~
"Come out little May" an ear piercing voice, that was the source of my doom called out. "You know how daddy gets if he doesn't get to play with his favorite doll." He drawled.
It was happening again, I dont know how he found me. Please God, help me!
I covered my mouth with both my hands, trying my hardest to not make a peep. But it never helped. He always knew where I was. This was just his way of making this more traumatizing for me.
Suddenly the doors of my closet snapped open and I was pulled by a sharp hand, making me screech out in pain.
A hard smack echoed my room when he slapped me "Whats rule number one little May?"
"N-never m-aake a... a sound" I stuttered, trying hard to control my ten year old self to not cry and break another one of his hideous rules. He reeked of alcohol as always. Every night he came into my room, smelling like he almost drowned in alcohol, making sure there wasnt a part left of me that wasnt broken.
"Now get on the bed and do what you do every night" He towered over me and I knew there was no one who could save me from him.
Getting on the bed, I lifted my nightgown over my hips as I did every night for the past six months.
Looking at me with those disgusting hooded eyes he walked and sat down beside me, moving his hands up my legs, moving his fingers towards the place I knew would hurt.
Keeping my eyes on the ceiling, I tried hard not to move a single muscle or make a sound.
When his fingers reached his target I shut myself down, thinking about anything to not feel his fingers. Distantly hearing grunts, I heard him saying all the nasty thing no ten year old could comprehend.
Snapping my eyes open, I didnt register anything other than what I just felt wasnt a dream but it was actually happening. Only it wasnt HIM. It was Jacob.
My nightmare was becoming a reality and even after fourteen years, I couldnt move a muscle to save myself but I couldnt stop the tears.
All I could feel his fingers moving up and down my thighs, his face between my neck and shoulder, kissing softly asking me to wake up. I would've made a sound, that immediately made him snap his face away from my neck and look at me but I still didnt look at him. My mind still on my nightmare, or should I call it a memory?
Hearing his voice for far ahead calling my name again and again, he lifted himself off me and only then could I breathe. Gasping, I sat up trying to get my breathing in order, blinking to clear my blurry vision. When I finally looked up and connected my emotionless gaze his horrored ones, I knew I had to leave. What was I thinking? I could never have a normal life, let alone a night. I saw his hand tentatively move forward, probably to reach towards me. I flinched so hard my head hit the headboard behind me. Not registering the pain one bit, I jumped off the bed my only mission was to get back to my safe haven. Kyle.
Only he could help me get through this.
Running down the stairs, I didnt register anything and dashed towards the clothes that littered all over the floor. Hearing his footsteps behind me. I grabbed my clothes, not bothering with my phone that Kyle returned me back last night, and rushed outside his apartment, not wanting to face the consequences of my stupidity.
Thanking all the Gods, The elevator opened instantly. Just as the door started to close I saw Jacob rushing towards me with a look that can only be described as guilt and utter horror. He probably thought I wont get him in trouble, why else would he run like a maniac after a girl he picked up last night at the bar to fuck?. I wanted to do nothing more than placate him. Tell him I won't cost him any trouble, but I just couldnt. Not at all caring about my state, which was apparently Jacobs shirt and his boxers I ran outside the building barefeet, ignoring all the gawking eyes. I jumped into the first cab I saw and gave him my address in a trace. Giving me troubled eyes, he navigated towards my street and only then did I relax slightly.
It wasnt Jacobs fault at all. All he wanted was what I was offering willingly. And he didnt know how shitty my past was. How broken I was. I should've known this would happen. I never should have tried to do what I knew would ruin every hope I once had of forgetting everything.
As the cab driver stopped outside of my building, I saw Kyle standing there with a worried look on his face, fidgeting. As soon as our eyes connected, I burst into tears. I heard my door being opened and Kyle picking me up in his arms. I distantly heard Kyle pay the driver. Walking towards the elevator, I heard Kyle saying sweet words in my ear but I couldt register a word. When we entered our apartment. Kyle took me straight to my room, laying me down on the bed with so much care. I turned to my side, trying to calm my pounding heart and my useless tears. I knew I had nightmares before but this was like never before. Actually feeling what I did in my dream. The fingers and the touches I couldnt bare it.
Kyle came to me and lifted me up, I opened my eyes and saw him taking me to my bathroom.
Carefully placing me on the floor he looked at me then, holding my face in both his hands "Take off your clothes and get in the tub. It's going to be alright." Kyle said in a hoarse voice. I knew how all this affected him as well
"I'm sorry" I said, utterly ashamed. I never liked to disappoint Kyle. As confident as I was last night. I knew this was a major step back. And so did he.
"Never apologize Maya, God." he said sternly "Nothing that is happening is your fault. Now get inside the tub and I'll be right back. I didnt close the door, in a hurry." I nodded and he turned around to leave me to get undressed. I removed Jacobs clothes slowly from my body and slid inside the tub filled with warm water. Kyle came back and sat beside the tub looking at me, waiting.
Waiting for me to speak up, tell him everything. That was all I wanted when I left Jacobs apartment. But now, I just wanted to forget. Clear my mind of anything that will make me forget what I endured in the past hour.
Seeming to know what I want, Kyle moved behind my back and started shampooing my scalp. When I was totally relaxed, my tears subsided. Only then my mind wandered to the real situation at hand. My eyes snapped opened and I moved forward to get up as fast as I could. ”Oh my God. How could I forget this?” God there wasn't any time to waste. I got up and dashed towards the towel.
"What's the matter Maya? Where are you going?" I heard Kyle call from behind me but I was on a mission. I looked at the time and took a deep breath. I still had an hour. I could make it. Rushing towards my closet I opened and pulled out the dress I specifically picked out for today. A half sleeved burgundy knee length dress paired with mustard yellow belt. I turned in time to see Jacob rush out the bathroom with a troubled look. But when he took one look at the dress he helped me picked he relaxed slightly.
"I forgot about my job Kyle. Today is my first day. I need to hurry up." My voice still hoarse from all the crying but I snapped into action. Momentarily forgetting about the nightmare that almost cost me my dream.
I rushed into the bathroom and shut the door. Taking the fastest shower in history. After brushing my teeth and taking care of everything I hurriedly applied my makeup and got dressed. Walking out I saw Kyle sitting on my bed with a confused look on his face.
"Maya, I dont think you should go today. Just call them and reschedule. I know they would understand." He said softly.
I turned towards him experated "I'm finally getting something I wanted Kyle. I'm not gonna let him take this away for me as well. He already ruined everything else." I knew I was close to a breakdown so I turned and continued to get ready. Changing the subject. "Why were you downstairs when I arrived?" I asked putting my feet inside my black three inches coat shoes.
"Jacob called me." He shrugged and I looked at him wide eyed. How on earth? Seeing my bewildered face he explained "He called me when you ran off. He sounded scared shitless and by the looks of that man. He doesnt scare easy."
I looked away embarrassed "Can you message him now that everythings okay? I would apologize myself but I just cant do it"
"Already done baby girl. He didnt stop messaging until I told him that"
I smiled thankfully. Leave it to Kyle to think of everything.
"I made you coffee while you got ready. I believe breakfast isn't a good idea?" He asked teasingly.
"Unless you want to clean my sickness after I left, then sure. Breakfasts a good idea" I said lightly, playing along, hoping to defuse some tension I caused.
He gave a soft smile and got up from the bed, walking towards me. He pulled me in a tight huge which I returned full heartedly.
I knew I had to get my shit together, because I couldnt take down this selfless man with me every time I have a bad thought.
Walking inside the EJF building again was just as nerve wracking as it was the first time. But this time I was even more nervous. This time I would be meeting Mr. Frost.
With my chin up and shoulders straight, I walked towards the receptionist who I didnt see the last time I was here.
"Good morning Ma'am, My name is Maya." I spoke in the most professional tone there was. "Today is my first day as Mr. Frost personal assistant. Can you please help through Miss Evans?"
She looked me up and down with raised eyebrows and a bored look. Picking up the phone she called someone. I took a look around trying to seem nonchalant but was extremely nervous. Please just get through this day without any problems Maya.
A cough came from the receptionist, "Go to the twentieth floor. Miss Evans would help you with everything. Good luck" she said in an unwelcome tone and a smile that seemed mocking.
"Thank you" I said politely, not caring the least bit about her rudeness and walking towards the elevator.
I tried to give myself another pep talk in an elevator full of people. I needed every mental strength there was.
Stepping out of the elevator, I saw a desk on my left, hoping to find Maria Evans. I met her last time I was here and she was the sweetest girl I knew. She answered every question professionally but had the softest voice that could put anyone at ease.
Feeling a tap on my shoulder, I turned coming face to face with Maria. She smiled huge when seeing me and returned her with my very big grin. She and I were almost the same age so that helped us bond in no time.
"I'm so happy to see you Maya. How are you?" I smiled at her politely voice. Instantly losing some of the nerves I had when I entered the building.
"Really nervous but excited at the same time."
"I can feel you. My first day was so bad I literally cried when I got back home" She laughed probably hoping to calm my nerves but that didn't help me at all. Before I could ask her anything else. She was ushering me towards a door that said Elijah J. Frost, C.E.O.
God please let this go smoothly. I prayed.
But I should have known. Today God wasnt paying attention to me at all.
How did i not see this coming? How could I let this happen?