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III

"It's been a week and he still won't eat anything or drink anything. He won't even look at us." My mom cried outside the room as I heard banging and kicking in anger.

After waking up, I was home and treated. I was given birth control pills in case but when everyone was gone, I ended up puking it out without it digesting. My body was rejecting it because it wouldn't do anything except mess with my heat cycle.

I tried sitting up but I felt the excruciating pain from that night that had given me nightmares before I laid back and just stared outside the window.

Maybe if I wasn't born then life would have been better. Mom wouldn't be crying, Shino probably wouldn't be breaking everything in the house and dad wouldn't be blaming himself for failing me as a father when I failed him as a son. Even Hinata wouldn't be putting on this fake enthusiasm when she actually was disgusted with me. They all were.

I sat up, ignoring the pain before I stood up and then looked for anything in this room to make their lives easier and me to just go away.

I searched the drawers in my room before I saw a knife that I had left there weeks ago to cut fruits.

"I have to do this. I'm so scared." I whispered as I sobbed silently not wanting to take the attention from my weeping family to my broken, used self.

I was about cutting myself, when the door opened and Shino saw me. He ran quickly, hitting the knife off my hand and then immediately locking me in his arms so that I wouldn't pick up the knife.

I saw as my family rushed in as I cried and begged Shino to let me die.

"Dad get the knife!" Shino instructed before my dad grabbed the knife and my mom started crying silently as she dialed a number.

"I have to die! Just let me die! Please that's all I asked for." I said softly as I fell on my knees and cried more.

"Just leave me to die. I'm so dirty and I don't deserve to be here." I begged before my mom rushed and placed my head on her boobs and patted my back even though I repulsed her touch.

"It's okay, sweetie. Mommy is here to protect you. You'll let mommy protect you from the bad thoughts okay." my mom said as she slowly started to calm me with her pheromones that bonded a mother to its child.

"His suffering from post traumatic stress disorder, PTSD and his anxiety level is high. He still feels insecure and scared that's why he wants to end his life. Apart from the drugs I've prescribed, give him as much love and assurance than you have ever given to him. It's never really easy being an omega." Doctor Megumi said as she closed her briefcase.

"Will he be okay? His not responding to us." Hinata said before the doctor sighed.

"He needs a psychologist for that but I can tell you it's symptoms of hypervigilance. A case where the victims is insensitive to environment, I think it's a kind of coping mechanism for him. It would be advisable if you got someone he responds to." She explained before she bowed and left the room.

I felt Hinata's hand on my hair but I couldn't move. I didn't want her touching me, I didn't want anyone. All I just wanted to do was to be left alone to drown in my mind.

"Can I see Yuki, he hasn't been in school for a while." I heard a familiar feminine voice as I scrubbed my skin harshly to wash away my filth. A habit I had made a ritual since that day.

I heard my room door opened as I scrubbed harder before I heard a knock on the door.

"If you keep on scrubbing like that, your gonna hurt yourself." Rin said but I could tell she had been crying. They told her. She knew.

I switched off the shower and then dried myself before changing and coming out of the bathroom avoiding body contact.

"Yuki I'm so sorry. I lost my phone for weeks and I tried contacting your house but everyone kept on saying you weren't around or feeling well. I got tired and then decided to come." Run explained before I gave her a confused expression.

"What are you sorry for?" I asked calmly before she broke down and started crying.

"I heard what happened. Why won't you talk to me or anyone? Yuki I know your not okay, just talk to me." Rin begged as she cried more before she ran and hugged me, catching me off guard.

I was scared to move or do anything but surprisingly I wasn't that scared of Rin. Slowly my body started to relax before I started crying along with her.

"Do you know the person who did it to you?" Rin asked before I bit on my lips, I started to feel the pressure as I slowly recalled what happened.

"No." I lied but Rin knew me too well and held my hands.

"You don't have to lie to me. Just tell me and my mom and your parents could do something to lock him up." Rin convinced me but I knew nothing good came out from situations like this.

"No one did it just let it go!" I shouted before I buried myself in the sheets and Rin sighed.

"I'll protect you. I promise you I'm gonna find out the person." Rin said before she stood up and patiently left the room.

I felt my heart beating fast. What if Rin does find out the truth? What if everybody hated me because of who it was? What if... What if?

"Yuki breathe." Shino said as he started doing a weird breathing pattern.

I copied him unaware that I was having a panic attack until I finally calmed down and then he heaved in relief.

"Don't ever scare me like that again." Shino said as he buried his face on the sheets while squatting.

"I, I was..."

"It's okay little buddy. It's okay. Big brother is here." Shino said making my eyes water but no tears could fall.

I was worried but having my brother close to me made me feel slightly safer even though he was an alpha.

I was reading a novel when Rin barged inside the room. She was pissed off and then she hit the book off my hand.

"It was Haru Aizawa wasn't it?" She asked slightly raising her voice.

My whole face paled when I heard that name. My body started to tremble on its own as I tried to will it to be calm, there was no danger but yet I felt like I was in danger.

"See your trembling, that is all the proof I need." Rin said before she turned her back but I grabbed her hand quickly.

"Please no, don't tell anyone." I begged her with tears in my eyes before she sighed and then sat down close to my bed.

"Why are you protecting him?" She asked as her face softened.

"I'm scared. Anyone who challenges Haru suffers, I don't want my family to suffer. I don't want anyone to be hurt because of dirt like me. I'm not worth the trouble." I responded as I tried to get my feelings under control but Rin winced in pain after hearing the last part.

"Yuki your family are suffering already. Your not yourself anymore, your scared and withdrawn. You panic a lot and you don't feel safe, your self-esteem is down the drain." Rin explained as I bit my teeth hard.

"Tell them what happened or I will. I might not tell them who did it but they have to know so that they can help you." Rin persuaded but I shook my head.

"Don't do it!" I shouted feeling angry that she was trying to force me before she sighed.

"I'm sorry but I'm doing this for you." Rin said and then she stood before I grabbed her.

"I'll talk. I'll tell them please. Yes it's true, it was Haru but it was all my fault." I said making Rin to pause.

"I got a text from you but I should have known it wasn't you, I should have. I got drugged and the next thing I remember, I was in a room before my heat started. Haru was there too so my heat did that to him, I'm to blame for not carrying suppressants around."

"But it doesn't give him any excuse to hurt you."

"No it does because I threw myself at him. I didn't tell anyone I was leaving, I just sneaked out and it was my fault." I confessed as I blamed myself before the door opened and I saw all my family looking at me.

"Is everything you said true?" Mom asked me before I cried bitterly and nodded.

She ran to my side and hugged me before she started crying too while I cried into her arms.

I did it. I finally said the truth, I was waiting for her to hit me or curse me but she kept on saying nice things about me making me cry more.

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