Chapter 8
Eclipse
I was surprised, and she looked at me with gentle eyes. She looked so kind compared to the Alpha’s intense gaze, “Beta Connor is our littlest brother.” she laughed at my even more dumbfounded look. “Oh calm down worry wart, you make the same face he makes when I tease him.” her laughed slowed. “He isn’t ‘glaring at you’ he is just as intense as I was when I first got a mate. I can assure you that he wants you more than anything. The stories of what he does may be true, but he has never hurt a pack member for no reason.”
I was still unsure, but it would have to wait. My refusal to allow my body to rest after its first shift finally caught up to me. I felt dizzy like the world was spinning, and I lost my balance.
I didn’t feel the impact of the ground, but instead, she held me like a baby back to the packhouse.
“Thanks.” I said sheepishly, wanting to be let down but she wouldn’t. She must have thought I would fall again, and she got closer to the packhouse, not that we were that far.
“No problem.” She said with a smile.
I protested by squirming, but it was a mistake. She held tighter, not enough to hurt, but enough to tell me without saying anything that she wasn’t letting go. I didn’t want to go back to that room. I wanted to go ….? Where could I go? My parents definitely wouldn’t want me back. and no friend would be foolish enough to house the Alpha’s mate without his consent and try to hide her from him.
“Gamma. Shelly. Branson. Unhand what is mine.” oh no. Alpha Kaiden’s wolf growled, sending me into a state of panic again, after I’d just started to calm down.
“No.” She said flatly to my surprise. Why was she purposefully going to make his wolf upset?! Did she Want to start a fight?!
“I will not repeat myself.” He snarled, taking two steps forward, but Gamma Branson held her ground.
“Nor will I. Stand down horny dog, can’t you see she’s absolutely terrified of you?” She sounded more annoyed than intimidated.
“Stand down! Now, or I will Rip her from you if you do not return my mate.” He growled in his Alpha-voice. If I have to go back, I would. I bestowed myself to this fate when I shifted.
“If you do that, do you think that you could live knowing she would be crushed by you? Would you be happy with her in your arms as a puddle of broken bone, meat and blood little brother?” She emphasized the ‘little’ like she was mocking him.
“That is besides the point.” He growled with crossed arms. “You know I would never hurt her, now put her down.” He commanded pointing to the ground with a sharp clawed finger.
“Besides What Point? Even if on accident, as you are, your grip would break her bones with your possessive stance.” She snarled. “That you put so much pressure on her her first night?” She growled. “You expect a wolf barely stronger than an Omega Not to cower in fear from you, when it is her instinct? You are unrealistic. She needs time to cope with such a great series of change.” She growled a little louder, linking him something, and he paused before he said anything.
He was too much for both Shimmer and me right now, as we were still out of sync. The only way I could describe it would be the feeling one gets when they aren’t sick yet… but knew they would be soon. It was that general off feeling that was making me dizzy, weak, and made my nervousness worse.
His eyes became slowly less red until they were amber-yellow….and he let out an annoyed sigh.
“Shells, she’s my world…. baby come back to bed with me.” He said soothingly, having stopped growling, and it sounded like Kaiden took over. I could hear him walking to us, and I turned to see him stop so close, that I could feel the heat off his body. I turned back around, hiding my face in his sister’s shirt. My heart was racing, but Shimmer begged me to listen, as she was calmer.
“Then act like it, she isn’t going to just jump into your arms if she thinks you’re going to snap her neck.” she said scoldingly, like she would a misbehaving child. That wasn’t on my mind, but she wasn’t far off.
“If you want, I can sleep in the guest room if I’m too much.” he said low. Honestly, I would like that, because this was too fast….
I looked at him and nodded. I was passed to Alpha, who said nothing as he carried me back to our room. I could tell the way the sheets were flung to the floor that he must have bolted out the moment he realized that I was gone… I was placed on the bed, and kissed gently on the forehead. There were tingles left where his lips were, though his eyes held a melancholy gaze.
“Goodnight my small Luna.” He said walking out, taking one last look at me, holding the border of the door, before closing it, and leaving me be.
In the room by myself, in a new place made me feel lonely. There was also a silent guilt that resided on my heart, because I didn’t give him a chance, but I was told my entire life not to go anywhere near him. … also, the way he acted when we met was too much as well…. And he lived up to his reputation too … He was by far the largest wolf I’d ever heard or seen, but with me he was at least trying to be gentle… Nobody knew I would be his mate… or a werewolf that could shift... I yawned again, but this time it was long and drawn out with a stretch.
My body was too tired to fight sleep anymore. I was too drained. Maybe tomorrow I can conquer a lifelong fear.
I woke up sore and stiff. “Ugh” I audibly moaned.
I rolled out of bed, and walked to the shower; the hot water made me feel so much better. I got dressed into some old blue jeans and a T-shirt with a panda on it. I also found my spare glasses. I was relieved. My eyes aren’t really that bad. I’m just a little farsighted, but I expected my vision to be corrected when I shifted. I got dressed, a little disappointed at that, choosing to put on a t shirt and some leggings. I walked around the room. I noticed the smell of power, it made Shimmer melt. I noticed I could hear and almost pick out the birds chirping outside.
I decided to give it a try and follow this power. I already knew who it would belong to. The only one it could. I went down the hall and saw that the guest room was open, but he was already gone. Shimmer let out a grunt of frustration, but I was wondering why the room looked so messy. And on the bed, there was a whip! It was brown with a weird series of tips that looked like tails… and I internally screamed. I was wrong, he came out the bathroom and walked to the bed.
I saw him shirtless, in black pants and boots, wrap the whip in a big circle, and clipped it to his leather belt on some kind of special made holster. I didn’t notice yesterday, but he was incredibly fit. He was also covered in various scars, though none were very large. As wolves, we heal fast, but with someone like Alpha, he would heal even faster since he got hurt so often.
He noticed me peeping and I bolted to his room and locked the door. He laughed so hard at me, chasing me. It gave me chills, curiosity, I wanted to know more about this good mood. “Oh, I see we have a peeper.” he laughed louder, jingling keys. “I think you need to be punished.” he said menacingly yet mockingly.
He unlocked the door and I squealed; I didn’t even get a chance to run. He picked me up and kissed me on the lips. It was calm and soft. it melted me. It was what made me feel complete and it was so entirely different from yesterday. At this moment I felt like his Luna…but I didn’t know where this drastic change was coming from.
Maybe it was my wolf and me reaching harmony again, and my heightened senses, maybe it was his touch sending waves of fire up and down my body. He looked me in my eyes lovingly, for once, his hungry gaze felt more. I understood it. I desired it. It took the breath out my body.
“The whip is for work” He grinned.
Shimmer pouted. I was surprised… /I didn’t know you had a kink Shimmer/, I thought to her.
“The other one is in the closet.” He whispered in my ear, sending shivers down my spine. He put me down, and left the room, leaving both of us a mess, and me with a million more questions I wasn’t expecting to have to ask.
I followed him downstairs, looking at the clock, seeing it was already noon. Everyone bowed and he stopped me. “Do you want to come along, my little Luna?” his eyes glinted. I nodded, I was curious, what does he do. I know he does so much more throughout the day than just hurting people, right?
He walked down the hill, about a mile to the pack’s village with me, holding my hand. He was so charming, but dangerous. He was just as handsome as he was a killer, and I was just a tiny wolf. He looked at me, that same hungry look, but it had a curiousness to it. “Do you like coffee?” he asked, seeing a small shop at the bottom of the hill. I had been to that shop a thousand times before, but I was always alone. Today I could share it with someone special.
“I love coffee, I’ve been going to Zeke’s since I was a pup!” I said excitedly. It felt good to fight this fear, I will always probably have it, but I will not let it rule me as I did yesterday. If he really is my mate, it should never cross his mind, but it could…. When it does-
“It won’t, because I would be alone again. I would die before I allow myself to hurt you my Luna, please understand this.” A strong shiver of fear ripped through me for a moment. It slipped my mind that he hears my inner monologue. But it was comforting to know that he was genuinely concerned.
I figured I was going to make it my personal note to shake this off as best as I could. Being scared all the time is hard, having someone trying to bond with you, only to push them away has to be frustrating.
I Got to the door.
My first date with Alpha.