Dear Father

Aileen POV

I looked around left and right. I couldn't believe that all this was mine. That I had earned this on my own, not because of who my parents were. Making it on my own! My thoughts swirled about how nice it would be to show them what I can do.

Ever since I was little I wanted to prove to my Father that he wasn't the only member of the Lutz house who could leave everything behind and pop up on top! If only he knew what all I accomplished. He would see I truly am his daughter.

One day I will make my way back there; one day I can show him how much I have grown. Maybe he will even see that I am fit to rule! That last one is probably a stretch sadly. Either way, I had to get home before that evil demon could mess with me any further.

Grabbing a piece of paper and my favorite purple pen, I sat down to write to him once again. There have been some troubles coming my way lately especially after joining with the Demon Slayers Society. Writing to my Father had been therapeutic to me ever since I first ended up here. Not that he would ever read them. In fact some of the letters, I would NOT want him to read. They were childish at times. I could only imagine his face with that disapproving look, or worse his cold eyes.

The world I came from, people feared my Father's eyes. Father would rarely let anyone see the real him. An ice storm was all the outside world was aloud to see. No one besides a select few of us were allowed to see his weakness. Only a handful of us; his close advisor, Kalum, a thug that has been with him from the beginning, and myself were permitted through his defences. I was thankful that I could see the real him in private. For the briefest of moments his gaze would hold warmth and affection. He would show me his own hurt, his own dreams, and how he feels.

That being said, if I did something wrong to be at the receiving end of that unforgiving stare, I would be unable to speak. I would have to bite my lip and hold my head high, as if unaffected until I got to my chamber. That's where I was allowed to ball my eyes out.

Bzzzz....Bzzzzz my phone vibrated in my pocket. I glanced down and scowled. On the other end was my adoptive brother. Part of me wondered if I should answer the call. Chances were he just wanted to harass me. "What?!"

"Jeezz you don't have to be so irritated already. I thought you might want something to do since you aren't exactly swimming in friends." so he was just trying to tease me.

"I'm hanging up now," I didn't try to hide the angry tone in my voice.

He laughed, "someone is having a bad day huh? Figured you'd be happy I helped you move all your junk yesterday. To think all I asked for was a pizza, wings, and a beer! Try to be nicer, or I may sneak in and move it all back to Mom and Dad's! Maybe I'll even leave that special egg like toy out for em to see!"

My face flushed as heat filled my cheeks, "what do you want? I'm busy."

"Oh... so you were lost in memories? Sorry to disturb you princess. But I thought I would invite you to do something fun, but if you would rather waste your time writing pointless letters don't let me stop you." Trevor could be annoyingly persistent when he wanted to be. If it wasn't for him though, I doubt I would have made it out of some of the situations our adventures put us in. He is without a doubt obnoxious, but reliable. In the deep depths of my heart, I did love him. We may not be blood, but he is my brother.

I groaned, "and what is it that you want to do? I really don't feel like going to a bar or something. As fun as it is seeing you hit on anything with boobs, I think I'll pass this time. Besides I want to do some more research and talk to Kaibec. I think we might be getting close."

"Is that what you want?" His voice had a pinched tone to it. That was unusual for him. Trevor was normally carefree for the most part; even in life/death situations.

Placing my pen back down since no words were coming to me now, I leaned back in my spinny chair. I thought for a moment before answering him. Did I want to go back? Life was a lot different there. "I have to," was all I could think to say.

"Aileen," he paused, "Never mind, let's just go get some grub. Longhorn sound good?"

I smiled, "free fresh bread? Always! How about we meet in an hour? I think I want to walk there. It's really nice out today and yesterday your driving scared me quite a bit." I was laughing a bit awkwardly. I wasn't really scared of his driving as much as driving in cars is still something I rather avoid if possible. No machine should be able to go that fast or have so many fatalities recorded.

He finished the conversation with a snarky comment about how much I eat. As long as I run, and train I'll stay in shape. I don't sit on my butt all day during time off the way he tends to. Eventually that will catch up with him. I feel bad for his body if he ever leaves the DSS. His ass won't leave the couch if he finds a new show to watch!

I looked down at the empty letter and began to write,

Dear Father,

That annoying brother of mind called today. Wonder if he has any new information regarding the Gate. If not this is a waste of my time. I really need to get some groceries. I'm getting sick of cheap raviolis.

A very good thing Father will never read these. Sure would be funny though to waste his precious time reading me being tired of ravioli! I snatched up the pen again and added,

I'm very confused right now, not because of the food; I'm actually going out with Trevor soon to get Longhorn. And they give you unlimited bread! Can you believe that! You and I would probably still fight over the last slice until they brought more though. I know I should want to come back, but I'm enjoying my life here. I wish you were here to guide me, but then I guess I wouldn't be independent huh? Which is something that I do like. I just don't know.

I feel like I'm going crazy. Those words my kidnappers said to me keep replaying in my mind. I thought they couldn't hurt me anymore, but ever since some bad dreams created for me, I don't know. Maybe they were right. I can't even tell my brother, or squad leader about them. They would think I work for him... I would be executed if they found out.

Do you have a new wife now? Maybe I even have a sibling now! I might have your attitude and hair, but I don't have a dick to rule. Anyway I'm kinda rambling and you won't ever read this anyway, so.... I love and miss you.

Sincerely,

Aileen Lutz

I stretched out both my arms and legs preparing for my run. That sounded perfect about now. So I went into the bathroom to finish getting ready. No time to put on makeup or anything special for this occasion. My run would take me close to time as it was. So, I just pulled my long black hair back into a ponytail, reapplied some deodorant, and gave a bright smile to the mirror.

Running was a great escape and it gave me time to imagine being home again. I could talk to everyone I used to know in my mind at least. The few people who I trusted to be honest with me that is.

Alright let's do this and see what that pest of a brother wants!

Before I could leave, a sadistic voice I recognized all too well spoke in my mind. "You're still the same scared child from back then. Yet still able to show a strong face to the world. Don't worry, you'll be in my bed soon enough. There will be nothing for you to worry about except being my little one and submitting under me. I assure you it'll be very pleasurable for both us while I ravage your sexy little body...my love." His voice was low and seductive. I hated how his very voice could give me weak knees.

A chill crawled up my sending my neck hair raising. There was no doubting that sinister voice. Demon Lord Shiuku.

Being in my dreams was bad enough, now he was talking directly to my mind! Shiuku was starting to get more determined. Soon he would come for me.

NO!