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IT'S TIME TO GO BACK

Violet’s P.O.V.

“Are you serious? Are you really coming back?” I rolled my eyes at the excitement of my best friend who was almost yelling at me from the other side of the phone in excitement. “I said that I got the offer. I didn’t say that I am coming back”, I yelled back immediately. I heard him huffing in annoyance that made me smile at him again. I continued filing my nails while talking through the speaker. “You should come back now, Violet”, I heard Gorden again. “You know my reasons, Gorden”, I said in a low voice. I knew that he could sense my fear and my sadness in my voice and he would give me an earful whenever we will meet but I couldn't help it right now.

“I know very well, love… and I know one more thing… this is the perfect time to come back”, he also tried to convince but I didn’t know why I was having this feeling in my gut that this could be a huge change in my life and I was not ready for one more change in my life. I had set a life here with Natasha. “I don’t know, Gorden… I am just scared. I have lost everything once. I guess I am not ready for a change again”, I was so unassured while taking the decision of going back there.

“I can understand your turmoil, Violet. I was there when you picked all the broken pieces of yours and left that place. I…. I was there when you lost all your hopes and motivation for living a life. That was me who saw you breaking into million pieces and then rebuild yourself. I was the one who picked all those pieces with you and trust me that was the worst phase of my life too. You are not going to like this but”, he paused and I knew what he wanted to say next.

“He has changed…. He has changed a lot, Violet. It seems that he is punishing himself every single second of his life”, I pursed my lips into a thin line. He knew that I didn’t like to hear about anything about that man still he was telling me because he knew that deep down in my heart, I still cared for him. “I don’t want to talk about him, Gorden. He has his turn to choose and he made his choice and I already have moved on him”, I said and heard him chuckle. “Are you sure that you have moved on?” he asked me and I wanted to smack him right now. He was not his friend. He was my friend.

“This is a good opportunity to show Sara that you are always the best. The rumours about you being in the city have already spread and a got a whiff of the air that some big companies are willing to approach you”, he sang and this made me raise my brows. “What are you talking about?” I asked him in confusion. As far as I know, I only have worked for Moore & Moore that belonged to Zade and this firm was not a big shot like those companies there.

“You always underestimate yourself, Violet”, he chuckled again making me more frustrated. “Forget it… I am working only for Zade and I have no intention to work under Dominic”, I said in a bitter tone. “That’s where you are wrong, love. He is a man of his work and no one other than you know him better. Come here… work under him…. Show him that now he has no influence on you and your life now… show him that you are in better condition without him… show him that he has done a favour by breaking you… learn from him and then move on”, his voice raised in the end and I knew that he was angry now.

“I will come back if this can cool you down”, I said and then there was silence on his side now. Gorden was my friend since middle school. We clicked immediately after our first meeting and since that day, he never left me alone. He was the only one who trusted me when no one trusted me. He was the one who proved my innocence after my departure and I owe him for this for my life. He would be the one that I could walk again there with my head high. He was my only family after Natasha.

“I want you to come back… yes… I want… because I miss you so much…. I miss our time together… I miss you and Natasha so much… and I want to show that bitch her right place who has stuck to Dominic like a parasite”, the bitterness in his tone made me smile. “You know I love you, right?” I said with a wide smile on my lips. “I love you too, love… I love you so much… grab this opportunity and come back”, he was still bitter and I know what I need to do now. “Also, Natasha needs to know her routes too. She should know where she belongs”, he said in a clipped tone and I released a breath.

“Okay… then find an apartment for me not far from the company and of course a playschool for Natasha. I guess… I will be there by Saturday?” I told him but it seemed that the last statement was rather a question for myself. I told him that I would go there but did I really ready to go back? Did I really ready to face all of them who torment me? Above all, did I really ready to face Dominic Whitemore? I had so many doubts in my mind right now that I wanted to yell in frustration but I couldn’t.

“Mommy”, I looked back at the bed and saw Natasha rubbing her eyes. “I will prepare everything for you and my princess, love… I can’t tell you how happy I am now”, he said and I smiled at Natasha who was looking at me with her sleepy eyes. “I will talk to you tomorrow, Gorden. Natasha woke up”, I told him and then we both hung up.

“Hey…. Why did you wake up, huh?” I asked her in a gentle tone while crawling back to her. “I need to pee”, she said without removing her head from her toy pillow. I smiled and then pulled her gently in my embrace. “Come on… let’s make you pee then”, I said to her and she put her head on my head and nodded. I stood up from the bed and then took her to the washroom. “Are we going somewhere, mommy?” she asked me in her innocent voice and I guess she has heard the last part of my conversation with Gorden.

“Yes, my love… we are going to meet Gorden”, I said and she smiled widely. Gorden visited us every two or three months and he is the best friend of Natasha. She loves him so much as he was the only male figure in his life. “Really mommy…. We are going to meet Gorden?” she squealed in delight and I laughed. “Yes, love… we are going to meet Gorden. We will stay there and then you can meet him any time you want”, I told her while lifting her again in my embrace after she finished her work in the washroom. I then washed her hands and we both came out of the washroom. I tucked her inside the covers again on the bed and then lay down near her on the bed.

She soon drifted in sleep but sleep was far away from my eyes tonight. They all said that I needed to face him to make assure myself that I really moved on. I knew that it was a lie. I loved him so much. I dedicated my life to him and got nothing but betrayal. Tears and in the end, my heart broke into millions of pieces that couldn’t be amended now. He left me shattered without looking back at me. Natasha was the only reason that I am alive today. She is the only motivation in my life. I built my life out of nothing only for her.

I knew that it would be tough for me to face him again. Did I prepare to see hatred for me in his eyes? My heart bled and I blinked hard only to get the tears back. No, I am not weak now. I have Natasha now and I must be strong for her. Yeah.. gone that weak girl who was so fragile that they broke her easily. I am now a totally changed woman, a mother above all. I am not weak and fragile. I am strong and capable to win my own battles. Gorden, Zade, Victoria, everyone is right now. It’s time to face my demons and let them show their places.

I closed my eyes after taking the decision of my life again. I was ready to face them. I was ready to show him that I am better without him. I am not his shadow anymore. I am a woman with her own stands and he can’t hurt me more. With this new resolution, I felt both my heart and my mind found their peace. I wrapped my hand over Natasha’s tiny body and soon the sleep pulled me in its embrace. Now, I knew what I needed to do. This place is my comfort zone and I was now ready to leave my comfort zone and to face the world not only for me but for Natasha too.

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