Finally Awake

A WOLF WITHOUT HER MEMORY

BY SNOWHEART

CHAPTER 3

I wish you could wake up. I don’t know who you are, but I know that you would have the prettiest eyes.

My heart warmed at these words and I could feel my cheeks growing hot. I didn’t know I could even do that. Just then he quickly left my hand and I felt broken at the loss of contact.

I wanted him to keep on holding my hands, forever if possible too. This was safe, having him, feel safe and for the first time I didn’t care about the darkness or the fact that I couldn’t wake up.

That was when I felt it suddenly. That part in my mind that seemed to have stopped working was working again. It was like someone had closed the door, then lost it then he came around and found the key letting me out of my cage.

My ears perk up. I want to hear something. I also felt my body shaking and hitting the mattress. I hear the squeaking of the bed but that doesn’t help me at all.

For the first time in so long, I clench my fists. It works. I feel relieved when my nails sink into my palms because I am finally in control. I can feel again. Blood is rushing around inside my body. I feel like it had been frozen in place while I was in a coma. I could feel it pumping, through my veins and I could feel my veins pressed against my skin as if they wanted to kill something. My body is shaking faster as I tried to struggle up once more.

I am actually making progress. It is the first sound that I have made since they brought me here. My eyelashes are fluttering. All those times that I had tried to wake up and hadn’t succeeded means nothing now.

I am awake, I am awake, although I can remember nothing, I am finally awake. I take a deep breathe and exhale before my eyes flutter open.

I am awake!

THE NEXT MORNING

Don’t ring, don’t ring, don’t ring. I whispered, my fingers crossed in prayers, as I stared at my alarm clock, which read 6:29am. Just one more minute, and my life will be in total disaster. That is why I was hoping that it wouldn’t ring, but alas, my prayer failed, as it turned 6:30am, and almost her alarm shrilled, startling the still quiet room, with its noise, as I heard the footsteps coming closer and closer.

Oh shit! I cursed as I jumped back in bed, and burrowed myself, underneath my duvet, as I pretended to be asleep. The door, opened, as the light rays came in, brightening the room, as an elderly woman walked to the window, and pushed the curtains aside, as the sun rays entered the room, then turning to face the bed, she walked to the side table, and switched off the alarm clock, looking at the bed occupant, as my hand poked out of the bed, unperturbed.

The lady shook her head, before she slowly smiled, bringing out a horn, from her back, she blew it in my ears, as I cursed and sat up, startled.

What the hell, mum? What did you do that for? I cursed, as I removed my hair from my face.

What did I say about cussing in this house? My mum said as I rolled my eyes, as I sighed, and shook my head.

You know the drill, better say it. My mum said as I glared at her. Thank God, I was heading back to college today as my holiday was officially over and that meant, I get to leave the house and my mother too. God knows how much I needed to…anyways.

Mum, hell... I mean no, mum. I am no longer a child, sheesh, mum it is bad enough you wake me up, every day because it is fun for you and torturous for me, and now I have to say it too. Come on, mum, you can’t be serious. I am a grown up now and I am only here because you wanted

Cassandra Jeiel Nathaniel, I will not tolerate this behavior for you, this morning. You may be a grown ass woman, but now you are living in my house, so until you go back to your apartment, you shall live and abide by my rules. Now say it, before I call your dad. My mother said in an angry tune as I gulped, before chanting like my mum drilled in my head, all these years ago.

Cussing is for spoilt and wayward children and good children, do not cuss. I am a good girl. And I will always remain a good child to make my mother proud of me, and not spank me, like I am not good. I completed rolling my eyes again, as my mum, nodded to the lyrics, making sure I got it correct.

Good, now that wasn’t so hard, was it? Anyways, time to prepare for college. You know that they won’t teach your shadow, without you there, don’t you? My mum said laughing at her poorly made joke, as she left the room. I rolled her eyes before falling back on the bed arms spread as I groaned.

Not again, I said, as she stood up again. Glancing at the alarm, it was already 6:55am, and she needed to be down at the dining table at exactly 7: 15am.

Shit! I cursed as I scrambled from my bed, hitting my big toe, on the edge of the bed,

What the hell! I cussed as I tumbled and fell, face flat on the floor in my room. Typical, just great.

I said as I crawled…yeah crawled to the bathroom, to prepare for college.