My past

Emily's point of view

When i Inahaled that scent, my heart throbbed, I wanted to be close to that scent, I don't know how I'll be able to do it, but I have to.

"now shoot him" the alpha commanded, while looking at direction of the person I needed to shoot, my eyes then wandered to the fields, where I needed to shoot,but only to noticed it was the man whom my Wolf is screaming the word mine.

I can't believe that was happening to me, I started retrieving, making the alpha more frustrated.

" you need to shoot him,or I'll have no other options but send you away from my pack, and you will start wandering aimlessly as a rogue"he said with so much anger etched in his voice, we were conversing through mind links.

" no.... no I can't do this, I can't bring myself to do this" I tried to make him understand, but he was nothing taking any of it.

that's the reason why, decided to shoot, but I'll Only shoot where it'll take a while longer before the wolvesbane could radiates all over his body.

I then gestured the weapon towards his direction, despite the fact my body was trembling,I then closed my eyes to do it, before I could do my intended actions, I turned my gaze towards the alpha, but he was no longer there, he has already ran away trying to help his other members, which were now destroyed by many other packs members .

"you can do this Emily,I Know you can" I encouraged myself, before I gestured my hand to shoot, Only to feel a firm grip on me, I was howling and groaning in pain, but it was effortless,no matter how hard I tried,it yeild to nothing.

the one who had firmly gripped me, a moment ago, immediately sank his fangs into my furs, I found myself howling in pain, the pain was excruciating, that's when I noticed the man I was dreading to shoot was so close to me,my nose inhaled his manly and intoxicating scent for one last time before I blacked out.

my heart felt nothing but immense pain, as I stared at my parents, my father was now in the small wooden room, besides my mother, I stared at the environment, the wooden table, the mirror neatly hung on the wall, the red vase beside my father, I closed my eyes trying to remember, could this be a memory, because everything I'm seeing here, is a life that I have long forgotten.

I noticed my young self, with my long curls, my blue eyes, with my cocoa white skin, I wondered why I never appreciated my features,I always see myself as I bad omen.

" dad....mum" my young self cried, while holding a bag In my hand.

" yes" my father retort back, clearly irritated by my presence.

"my... friend Insulted me in school, saying I'm a weirdo, Because me features never blends" my young self reported, while crying,I noticed my mother was bringing her hand to comfort my young self, but immediately father stopped him.

"that's what I have always wanted to do Emily, you will have to leave this house, because I know my mate might have cheated on my me, that's when you ended up different" he barked.

"dad..." my young self cried with so much pain.

"how could you say such alpha, you know very well, I have never mated with any other man, except from you" she tried to claim her Words, Only for the alpha to stood up abruptly, before he said the unexpected.

" I don't know you Emily, I know you are not my daughter, I know you can never be my daughter, now leave this pack"

" but father... you can't do this to me, I'm your daughter, please father, I don't have anywhere to do to, I don't want to end up a rogue wolf, wandering aimlessly" I tried to reason with him, but he was not buying it.

when I'm looking at the scene unfolding right in front of me, like a movie being played in a cinema, I found myself clutching to the Hem of my dress, trying so hard to Calm my wrecked nerves.

my mum tried to stop the hefty men, from taking my Young self out of the pack, she tried all her best, she tried to reason with the alpha, but he was not buying any of it.

when my young self was wandering aimlessly In the forest, I'll find myself trying my best to get what to it, I was still very young, so I haven't did my first shift, I felt cold shivers ran through my spine, when I noticed some approaching footsteps, it gave me that odd feeling that something bad was about to happen.

I then noticed a group of people, immediately attack me, bruising me, making me almost lifeless, I thought I was going to die. But I managed somehow to survived.

I woke up the next morning, trying as much as I could to get my bearings, my body was aching, Life in the forest was a living hell, I'll find myself in different situations where I'll be almost killed, without even knowing the attackers, everything was like a dream.

I kept on staring how,my young self suffered everyday, as time goes by, Just to see that I survived, it was not an easy journey, but I managed to pass through it.

then one evening, I was taking a shower beside the River, despite the fact, I'm trying to dip myself Inside the water, I'm still trying as much as I could to see that I could observed my environment, I don't want to be taken off guard like they way they have always done, my heart throbbed in pain, before I noticed that my body seems to be on fire, I growled, I felt nothing but immense pain.

that's why I I decided to crawl me body to the River bank, feeling the pain, that come with feeling ones skin, peeling, my claws, became evident, my brows knitted, as several groans escape my lips, that's when heard a lingering voice.

" I want to be out, let me out" the voice was deep yet hoarse at the same time, my body tried to contain with the pressure of the moment, But i couldn't do it any longer, I felt nothing my excruciating pain.

"oh.. mood goddess, give me the strength to overcome this pain, I can't take it any longer, I have always wanted my father and mother to be there, while taking my first shift, but I never knew, that this is how I'll end up, being alone, without the help of anybody.

"take a deep breath, trying to focus of your wolf" I heard a very soothing voice, said to me, Only to noticed a young lady who was wearing a very beautiful white dress, it was flowing and it brighten curvaceous body, her eyes was glistening with it's Blue lights, her cheery red lips, was making me want to admire her one last time.

" give it a try young one...I know you can do it" she encouraged, I then closed my eyes,my body burned,my canines turned to fangs, my skin allowed the furs to take over.

I did one last growl, before I completed the shifting process, it was the most painful process I'll ever have to experience.

when I became a full wolf, I was so delighted, I'll frequently wag my tail, trying as much to feel the wolf Inside of me.

"I'm you, you are me..." my wolf said Inwardly.

"I'll always be here, to guide and protect, to be with you and to encourage you" the wolf promised me, before I noticed that the woman whom he has encouraged me earlier on, was no where to be seen.

I was now left alone, but the presence of my wolf, made me feel so secure, I really wanted to run like a free bird, but I know there are alot of predatory things lurking in the darkness.

"the light started to diminish, as I stared at the way, I have been looking at my past life unfolding right in front of me, I took mouthful of air, that's when I Inhaled the Intoxicating scent of wild herbs adding up with a morning dew, it made me feel so overwhelmed.

that's when I decided to open my eyes, before I noticed a young man, with his black trimmed hair, his Brown eyes, his cheeseled chest, his thin lips, his perfect pointed, nose, with his silky white skin, it made him look so perfect, I don't mind being fucked by this god, for as long as I can endure.

he was looking at me, before he immediately claimed my lips, like a starved beast.

"mine"my wolf growled Inside of me again, I want him, I need him, and I get him.