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EPISODE 14 ONE COLD NIGHT

NO ONE likes to talk when we get home.

We're both sitting in the backyard by the pool. There she was facing her laptop, and so was I too, revisiting our practices in Japan. My fuckin' head hurts a bit from the sleepiness of drinking, but I don't want to leave her sight until I really can't stand it anymore, so I'm the one who broke the silence.

"So you and Jet dated, huh? You should've told me, so I wouldn't bother you. It's annoying for him that I keep calling you while with him," I said sarcastically.

She just looked at me for about ten seconds, maybe I guess, then returned her eyes to her laptop.

"Next week we will leave again," I said.

She just nodded, then suddenly...

"So Trina is officially your girlfriend now? Hmm?" She said,

"Pardon?" Frowned, I asked.

"Nah! Never mind! It's none of my business anyway!" She replied with a smirk.

I closed my laptop and did the same for her. She didn't disagree because she knew we would talk seriously about something.

"Why are you like that, Ma? What's wrong?" I seriously asked.

"Maggie told me about that, Trina told her." She said and then looked down.

"Do you believe that?" I lifted her face and looked her right in the eyes.

"Why not Clint? Can't you see? She puts a lot of action into you, so maybe you've seen that too! I know and I can see that she likes you." She said in a low voice, looking at me too.

I held her hands. I knew it! That's why she keeps shutting me up. She's jealous.

"Ma, Trina is not my girlfriend. She likes me, yes, but—what am I to you? Why should I need a girlfriend? I already have you! And, I don't like her," I said seriously while looking straight at her.

"Clint! That's up to you, and besides, we can't be exposed to them, so just go with the flow. You can do anything you want." She replied.

"What? Go with the flow? As if we were just playing? Does that mean you can date who you want and me too? Then when we get home, I'll fuck you? What's with that? Don't be like that, Ma! What do you call that kind of relationship?" I said one word after another. "I'm fuckin' serious about us, Ma…"

"It's not like that and I know that you're serious but they can't know that we are having an affair. What will they think?"

"Ma, why do you care about what they're thinking? We love each other! What are we going to do? We're going to hide? We're going to hide from everyone? How long? Ma! I'm willing for them to see that we have an understanding. Nothing is embarrassing about that. Why not you too? Let's show them off what we are up to! No embarrassment!" My forehead furrowed because I was angry as well. It seems that no matter what I explained and pleaded to her about, that was just nothing to her.

I clenched her hands tightly.

"Do you know my plan, Ma? Next project, when I come back, we will get married! Ma! I will marry you!" I told her seriously.

"Are you crazy, Clint?" She chuckled.

I replied quickly. "Yes! Why? What else do I have to prove? Isn't it enough how long we've been together? What have we been through in life? Or---or—you're not sure about me yet, Ma? Tell me the truth! Tell me please, I want to hear it, Ma!"

She did not say a word. She stood up that instant and left me. She went upstairs. That's all she did; no answer, no reaction. I just look like a fool...

I just took a deep breath. I don't know why it seems so complicated. I definitely want to marry her. I can't ask for more. She's all I want. I love her. She loves me! For me, I don't have to wait for anything else. I love Mama Chari so much that I'd do anything just to please her. I'm ready for anything that might happen. I'll do anything for her! Anything!

In my whole life, I have never felt like this, like you want to see someone every day, talk to her, and look at her face! Ugh! Crazy!

Am I wrong? Is that bad? I don't know! All I knew was that I would do anything just to please her. I want to please her so she will stay and won't leave me... I love Mama Cha so much! So much...

I don't want to wake up one day and find out that I've lost everything we've been through together. But why does Mama Cha seem so hard to deal with? Why does it seem like a child's play to her? Is she not serious about my feelings for her? Are strong, independent women like that? Matured? Is it like everything is a challenge to them? God!

I'm going upstairs to sleep as well. My head hurts too much from sleepiness. I won't bother her now and I'm sure she's not in the mood either.

I'll talk to her tomorrow. I'll cancel all my appointments and surprise her. I'll invite her to have lunch somewhere. I hope she agrees!

Tomorrow…

CHARI'S POV

I was surprised earlier by Maggie. When she and Trina entered, she asked if my date was with Jet! We didn't date! Instead of me being annoyed with Clint, he suddenly fired a bullet at me. I could see in his face that he was irritated, then---Trina would have kissed him, but he turned away his face. Poor baby girl looked a little ashamed. I just pretended that I didn't see it. I even heard her say to Clint that he was dismissing her calls.

I noticed earlier that Clint was really in a bad mood because he frowned while talking to Trina. He did nothing but just look down. He's drunk! Trina, on the other hand, still trying to be sweet, keeps on touching Clint's cheek, which Clint is completely resisting!

To be honest, I really didn't act towards him, I just stood up so that he wouldn't talk about where I was today, as well as the fact that I didn't answer his calls. I just kept quiet too, so the discussion ends there. I'll just talk to him tomorrow when his brain is fine and relaxed.

I saw he had so many presents for me. I'll take a look at it tomorrow. For now, I'm going to sleep first because I left earlier and my ass was sore from the distance of the trip.

A minute later, my cell phone rang. Jet is calling! I'm not going to answer because I'm supposed to be asleep! If Clint heard me talking to someone, he would knock, and I might make him even angrier.

It's fun to find out! It's been a long time since I had a boyfriend. I don't know how to react now when the boyfriend is mad! Or maybe I'm just used to the fact that Clint and I were casual during the time we were together without malice, so even if we're into the next level, I still feel the same, but of course not for him. He's so serious about what's going on with us.

It just feels good! I feel like I'm only in my mid-twenties. It's charming when Clint gets angry and jealous! I feel so good when that happens, then when he stares at me! I feel very pretty! I feel like I'm the prettiest girl in his eyes only! Especially when he snatched me like that earlier, when he hurried to me in the parking lot and then kept catching up with me? He could do that to me easily because he was taller than me and I was only up to his shoulder, so thin that he could only pull me by one hand.

To be honest, I also want to marry him. I have nothing more to wait for, and he is wrong in thinking that I am not sure of him. If only he knew that I loved him and that I also wanted to have a family with him, but.

Maybe not yet. Maybe later, but not sooner... We can stay like this first, so that if he changes his mind about me, everything will be changed easily. And no one will be hurt painfully.

Just enjoy the moments first. Fun, thrilling! That's probably the case for the time being...

I hope it's all that easy...

I hope...

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