Chapter 5: A BIG NO!

"Ohhhh my God! What have you done? Why are you lying here beside me? Who told you to sleep with me? You must ne insane!" I shouted inside the room.

I don't even know who the guy beside me is. But when I looked at him, he accidentally looked like my husband, who had just passed away. I'm not sure about it, but I can feel a strange thing inside me. Things that I can't explain.

I quickly got off the bed to get myself fixed. I can't stay long in that place with that stranger. My God, I can't imagine being in that shocking situation. My husband just passed away and having slept with another guy is so embarrassing and unacceptable. What if my in-laws find out about it? My God!

I don't really know what comes into my mind that I have been in that situation. I was so drunk last night and I admit that. But to see myself lying beside this stranger is so absurd. I cannot forgive myself from this. I know Oliver will sirely hate me with what I have done now!

"I hope you enjoyed being with me. Last night was my lucky night indeed. I wonder why your boyfriend just let you play with somebody else's fire. If I were you, get this calling card of mine. You can call me anytime you need me babe. " He smiled at me like he could take me to bed anytime he wanted. He looks good naked.

I hardly closed my eyes while trying to ignore what he was saying.

"I don't know exactly what happened, but don't expect anything more than what happened. I was just drunk and you took advantage of it. What kind of human are you to do that? You didn't eben think of my situation. Isntead if helping me this is what you did? " I pointed him out with my finger like I could kill him right that moment.

He was so irritating. I never thought I would be in this kind of situation. With this stubborn guy really.

"Excuse me, you are the one who insisted. I tried to stop you. I even asked you about your place so I could take you home, but what did you tell me? You told me to take you wherever I wanted to take you. I've got no choice but to take you here to my pad so you can rest. However," then...I cut his words because I knew what might come next. He will not say anything good in my ears amd I'm sure about that.

"Stop it. Still, you shouldn't allow yourself to sleep with me. You should stop yourself from doing everything that you've done last night. This is crazy! You know I could sue you about what you've done to me. " I exclaimed. I can't even look at him, I feel so hopeless while looking myself at the mirror naked and I only got blanket to cover my body.

I get in the bathroom so I can fixed myself. I covered my mouth for so much disappointment towards myself. I know and I must admit it to myself that I'm at fault really. I should have listen to Bella. I should have take her with me, maybe this will not gonna happen. My God, Oliver please forgive me. I was wrong..

I put on my clothes so I can get out and get out of that pad. As I get out of the bathroom I have seen him with breakfast on a tray. Obviously he ordered for food.

Well I don't need food if he was thinking that I offered myself to him just to have something in return.

"Let's eat before you leave. I'm sorry if I need to take you here with me. I just can't leave you alone on that bar knowing that you are madly drunk and you almost fell down from the floor." He explained. I don't know if I have to believe him,all I know that time is that I want to leave his place and that is final.

"I need to leave. Please!" I seriously looked at him. I looked at him but I don't have the courage to look at him straight from the eyes. All I know is that he's been observing me.

He opened his arms so wide and he have no choice but to open the door.

"As what I have told you. The my condo is always open for you. You know where to find me and I will always welcome you here." He smiled teasing me. I know what was that for. But I don't care anymore. All I care about is on what explanation to do.

I quickly get out of that condo.. I need to go home so I can be at work. I know everybody has been waiting for me. I can't be late so I need to move fast. I didn't mind going home, I know Bella will just interrogate me.

I decided to just buy clothes from the mall so I can change my clothes immediately.

I still feel tje oain in my body amd in my head out of too much alcohol last night.

As I get in the office...

"Hey where have you been? I've been waiting for you lastnight. I even sleep at the couch to make sure that I'll be awake when you're home but..."

She paused gor a while..tjen she speak again.

"What happened?" Bella asked me. Obviously she never had a good sleep.

"I'll tell you later, for now prepare for all the documents needed, I need them now in my office. I have an urgent meeting with the boards." I instructed as I get in my office to fix myself.

As I get in my office, I saw Oliver's photo smiling at me. My tears slowly fell as I do remember how much he loves me. How he make things right no matter how impossible would it be. I asked for his forgiveness about what I have done lastnight. He might not forgive me but I want him to know that its not intentional. I was drunk and I didn't know what reallly happened. I'm not sure about it.

I wiped my tears dry before I left the office. I just need to settle things with the boards. I need to make it clear to all of them that I'll be handling the business as it should be.

I'm at the meeting but my mind is not with them. I tried not to think about that guy but still I can't take him out of my mind. I don't know why and I don't understand.

Bella immediately get in my office as she saw me walked out of the conference room.

I sat on my chair amd close my eyes.

She sitted in front of my table and there she is, starting to interrogate me.

"What happened to you?" She started as she looked at me from head to foot.

"I don't know. I don't even understand myself why I'm in that place. I was so drunk and I can't remember anything." I shook my head as I looked down to my notes.

"Where did you spend the night?" She iquired..

I know what was running in her mind. Well everybody might think that way and I understand that.

"I woke up and inly then I relaized I'm at the cemetery. I do 't k ow how I got there but maybe my feet just fake me where should I go. In the first place my heart just wanted to be there I think."

I need to stitched a lie. I can't tell her the truth about that stubborn stranger. I don't want her to think that I'm trying to ruin myself.

"I can't believe this. What came into your mind that you drink on a bar alone. You didn't bother to tell me so I can give you company. Don't do it again Liyah. I almost die thinking about you lastnight. I was about to call the police, but if ever you didn't show up, I will do it really." She opened her eyes so wide while not taking them away from my face.

"I never thought it could happen to me that night, you know, I've been there always. But lastnight, that was so different. It's like someone is pulling me to go somewhere." I hold on to my head, I can feel the pain while trying to relax myself..

I really hate myself from what happened. That was so careless on my paet that I let my emotions led me to that unforgiveable situation.

"So, you need to rest. You can go home don't worry about today I will make myself available with all your transactions today." She hold on to my hands and that is very much appreciated. She really care so much about me and that is something in her that no one can replace.

"Are you sure about it? Sissy I'm realky sorry about this but maybe you are just right. I really need to rest. Anyway, thank you for this." I said,as I started to get my things ready do I can leave.

"Nextime know your limits sissy. Bad people are just roaming around. You are not sire with your safety all the time." That was agentle reminder from her.

I jist smiled at her as I opened the door of my office. I fekt dizzy so I really need to go home.

Go home and cry...