Chapter 5

Jennifer POV

Just getting up from my bed, even my mum reminded me I'm a cursed child...

I know things don't go well wherever I go but how I do end up being a cursed child even when my mind tells me I'm doing the right thing

Now, look at me... can't help my mum in the market today. I even have a strong belief that I'll be thrown eggs at the market. The other day. I barely escaped.. not that I even did something wrong, who did the wrong thing escaped but the whole world pounded on me... Now my mum said I shouldn't join her in the market... Where else can I go? No friends, no brothers, and no love... This world isn't for a place like me but my mum still brought me out from her damn anus.......

Days passed, I prayed to God to hear my prayers, but it seems God is also on their side, he enjoyed seeing them calling me a cursed child.

What is even left for me here... Should I leave the world for them? I ask myself each time I want to sleep and sometimes I pray never to wake up again but God still doesn't want me to die.

Today is going to be a cruel day for me... I already know that I can't change fate but I will still do what I had to do even if the people in this world decide to kill me.

I'm left at home alone, my mum even made it clear that I should not step my foot outside the premises... look at it... who the hell does that... am I still a kid? Everyone thinks the world is nice to them but I know it... am not the only one suffering from this curse... I wish I could meet my mate who is also a cursed child...

I can't even get off my bed... my head is already pounding.... too many thoughts, too many difficulties, too many accusations... Dammit, I need to leave the house for good... Yes... for good.

Even if I plan on leaving, Where will I go? I know I have no friends... how wish I'm kind to that young man I saw at the market... Yeah the cute young man with a tattoo... Awww... I can't stop picturing him out of my mind...Yeah... How to wish I'm nice to him, maybe by now someone would have accepted me but look at me... Am not even nice everywhere...

Sometimes I have this belief, I'm truly a cursed child from my forefathers...

If only I wasn't born on Earth, I know this insult, blasphemy, snub, mockery, shame couldn't have happened right now...

I used to hear reincarnation, Yeah..... if I leave this world, I'll be reincarnated... Yes.....

What even happened to me? Where are all these thoughts coming from? I haven't thought deeply this way... do I even have to continue living my life like this in regret every day of my life.

Dammit... This brain... stop it... I don't want this kind of thinking anymore... Stop it... But wait a minute... I'm on the cursed side, this means nobody cares about me... Yes... I should leave this house for good... Yes for good... Where should I start from now? Stop it.... stop it... enough of all of this...I'm tired this morning... how do I even get up from my bed now... I don't even feel like standing up but I can feel my heart broken into pieces. Wait... My only mum even joined others in calling me a cursed child, someone who will protect me and advise me... wait... Hope what my thoughts are telling me is not true... No... I'm her child... I know it... I sense it but Lord please don't let me do anything rude today... I begged you for once, be on my side...

Getting up from my bed with all the strength in me... I walk straight to the kitchen... I see clearly that my mum has already prepared food for me... But... This cursed child of a thing makes me doubt whether to eat her food anymore...Wait... My mum's food that I won't eat... No.

"If she wants to kill me, she should kill me... I'm tired anyway". I summoned the courage and took a bite from the food before going to the bathroom to brush my teeth...

I entered the bathroom where I took the reflection of myself through the broken mirror and indeed, I'm beautiful and I'm thinking of ending my life. A beautiful girl like me? No... I will enjoy this life... Fuck whoever called me a cursed child... I stared at myself for like five minutes with the toothbrush in my hand...

I stared at myself and forgot I was here for something. I quickly brush my teeth as soon as possible because the worm in my stomach has begun to eat me up. At first, I thought I'm dead because I was poisoned by my mum but I couldn't bear it anymore so I ran to the food and ate it all. After eating all of it, I said Lord , please accept my soul with you if it happens that today is my last day.

Not quite long, I lay down in my bed in case it happens I'll die, that means I'll die comfortably but I laid for about twenty minutes and nothing is happening... Glad my mum didn't poison me but I'm leaving the home for good... I stood up and looked through my wardrobe... Although there are not many clothes there, I'm grateful for the ones I have. I quickly put on a mini shirt with my black jeans and a scarf to cover my hair... I left the house and I made sure I left my phone at home so that no one on Earth can reach me again... I've made up my mind... Yes... I'll do it... I said to myself while leaving the house without turning my back at it again.

I was surprised that I got employed the first day without any credentials... it clearly shows that God is at my side today... The moment I was shown my office, I froze for a bit before an unknown voice scolded me from behind. I wondered who it was and my inner voice said... "Today is no different day".

"Hi... Oh... You work here"... I stammered as I looked at the young man.. that same young man that came to my mum's shop and sat down.. 'Hope he's not in this office'. my inner voice whispered as I continued to stare at him.

"What are you doing here.... I thought you were supposed to be helping your mum in the market". Jeffrey asked while staring at me. He seems confused because today is just his second day at work and he's already having a visitor.

"No...I'm employed here now". I said to him while he kept staring at me. I feel awkward and unrefined.

"What.... You work here now? Since when". He screamed at me like a bad person and now I know my inner voice is correct... "Today is no different day".

"Today...". I yelled at him

"No...This can't be happening... The secretary told me I'm alone here so how come I am seeing someone here... Wait... I know this is a dream... Wake up Jeffrey... you can't be dreaming, you are late for work...."He was just hitting his head with his damn hard hand, walking around the office like someone who just missed his road.

"Oops... The secretary told me you needed assistance because yesterday was stressful for you and that's how I get employed without an interview"... I explained to him as his eyes were open because it was not a dream... As I was explaining, sharp footsteps were coming towards our direction and this is beginning to make me worried...

"Hello... Mr. Jeffrey, glad you came early today but your partner here came before you... Now you have gotten a partner so both of you should cooperate together, love one another in unity and for the growth of this company... Don't worry.. very soon we'll hold a general meeting where all of us in this company will be asked to address ourselves but for now, both of you should get along and know each other". The secretary drops the message with a bunch of files in her left hand... I was willing to take the file from her and help her out but this inner voice keeps saying No, you are a cursed child, you mind end up ruining everything so I quickly stopped myself from doing that.

"Fine... we are working in the same place now but please know that I'm here before you so please don't make me hate you" He whispered to me as he went to the boss's chair while he didn't allow me to sit next to him...

'During the days at work, it looks like he's not happy I'm working with him because I clearly remember that when he approached me in the market, he's kind and outspoken but look at it now, he hasn't talked to me since the secretary left or am I a burden to him now?' I keep asking myself.

He has been on the computer since morning and he didn't even bother to teach me what he's doing... What if the secretary asked me what I've done today? I won't be able to prove anything to him... Dammit... I'm hungry again... I thought I ate a lot of food this morning... Why does my stomach have to start again..... I'm tired... I'm not even with any money... I think I should leave this place and find someone to give me money to eat...

As I was about to stand up... He stood up before me and left the office... I'm screwed, I said to myself... How'll I cope with this hungry stomach... "I'm screwed" I scream out loud hoping nobody could hear me...

"Sir.. how are you... I haven't seen you since today... oh it's because I haven't come out of my office.. I'm sorry". Jeffrey interrupts the gateman from his sleep...

"Mr. Jeffrey... How are you? I didn't like what you did to me yesterday...". The gateman complained as he walked into his small house and brought out a Chess for both of them to play...

"Sir? Me.. what did I do..." Jeffrey asked in confusion, he saw that the gateman had brought out a Chess so he decided to join him because he knew clearly that he had a partner now in his office.

"Sir...." The gateman ordered

"I called you and you just ended up calling me... It is not so.. I'm the one that called you and you make me feel not important". The gateman complained while arranging the chess for both of them to play.. before he sat, he made sure no one was coming because if they got caught, both of them would be in serious trouble.

"Oh... I'm sorry... I didn't know how I ended the call... Maybe it was a mistake... I'm sorry. I can only play one game with you because you know I'm at work..." Jeffrey concluded as he sat down and calculated while discussing with the gateman...

"It's past now... I wanted to tell you to bring food for me while coming to work today...But I'm fine now". The gateman complained, making me feel pity for him like a bad person.

"Oh... I'm sorry. I'm going to get my launch, maybe, I can pay you with that". Jeffrey replied, still playing with him...

"Oh, it's nice.. Let's play quickly... I'm hungry anyway". The gateman concluded while both of them enjoyed the game...

They both played for about five minutes and the gateman won because of the experience he had for the game... Jeffrey didn't complain because he expected it. He smiles while heading to the restaurant to get food.

On his way back, he gave the gateman a pack of food and he happily collected the food while smiling.

The gateman has been hungry since morning so seeing the food that Jeffery gave him, made him happy and grateful.

On his way to his office, I found out that his new partner is sleeping during work hours... Jeffrey quickly tapped her and placed food on her table...

she froze with her sleepy eyes and didn't know what to say... in my mind... I'm damn hungry and I'm happy he's a God sent for bringing me this food... I was happy today... At least, today is still different from every other day.