Chapter 5 Confused

Laughter enveloped the office because of Lucas storytelling. I can't say that I wasted my time because I got a new idea in my writing plans. I made an outline for five chapters, just incase I get lazy, I won't have a hard time thinking of what to do next.

I m the only woman here, I shouldn t feel scared because I knew them, they knew me, they knew what I can do. As much as possible I focused only on Kevin, because sometimes I notice Zeke's gaze. Instead of drinking coffee I grabbed a beer that hadn t been turned on. I don't drink poorly as long as I'm eating.

"Don't you have class tomorrow?" Zeke whispered.

"No, just a meeting," I replied quickly.

I never looked at him again, I was now thinking about where I would stay, if it was a bit far from the house, if the mansion was close by, I didn't have my belongings there. After all, it's just a meeting, maybe at the mansion.

"By the way Nikasha, how's your writing?" Lucas whispered to me so they turned their attention.

"It's good," I replied then stood up again.

"What are you writing about? Maybe there's a kiss there! It's still forbidden to you, you're considered as a child," Lucas scolded, laughing softly at Kevin.

"Excuse me? I'm twenty-five, I'm already aware of that. I can't get pregnant if I write like that," my defense. "I don't write like that either, that's far from my genre," I added again.

"Don't you want to try a romance? That's popular with most, especially with young people today," Kevin suggested shaking me.

"Too bad. I'm not. I'll teach the kids more about how to shoot and hold a different weapon than that love," was my bitter response that they didn't add.

I only drank two beers because I was already feeling dizzy, I noticed Zeke and Lucas putting away their belongings while Kevin and someone were talking on the phone, later it came to us.

"There's an emergency with grandma, she needs me," he calmly told us.

"Oh? All right, you should go."

"Annika, I'm sorry, I can't seem to deliver you, sorry for the inconvenience," he said to me as I just nodded.

"It's okay, better to leave now, take care," I said then he goodbye to Zeke.

I'm the only one to go home, I have a fare here. I got up then arranged myself, I noticed they were throwing clutter and it looked like it was done as well.

"Come on, let's go home. We'll take you Niks," Lucas offered.

I went with them, Zeke was slightly clinging to me so I could support my walk, Lucas took my hand and then placed it on his elbow. Lie a child.

Fortunately when we got to the parking lot, Lucas even opened the door for me next to Zeke, when we got on Lucas was still outside.

"Lucas? What's up?" Zeke asked while wearing the seatbelt.

Lucas leaned out the window with his head in it. "You go first, please tell mommy that I might not be able to go home, I haven't finished the house plan yet, just be careful, take care." Tapping it on the car so it works.

We are the ones left behind. I don t know if they were coincidental or really all just coincidental. I was just silent as I watched his hand, that veins again. SuddenlyI felt a strange heat, as if I was going crazy with the shape of his hand.

"At your house?" he asked while in traffic.

I cringed, I couldn t process what was in the house. "What are we going to do at home?" I said sleepily.

"I mean, will I take you to your house or to the mansion?" he clarified that I quickly got it.

"Mansion," I replied as he nodded.

We went home peacefully. Just in case I didn't avoid the eyes of my other aunts because Zeke and I were together. Yeah. I stayed in the living room first. I had enough water to reduce my dizziness, until now he was still watching over me. Annoyed, I lowered the glass and then stared at him standing in the opening.

"Why are you still here? Can you please go?" I I hissed then turned away.

I drank the water again and this time I noticed his presence was gone, he was no longer at the edge of my sight. Thank God!

I just took some bread from the refrigerator then decided to leave. He is no longer in the living room. Only aunt and uncle were there. Maybe he left, as far as I know because they work early because Lucas leaves here at six o'clock. I didn't bother to mess with my brain, I went upstairs.

While on the way I was already chewing food, it seemed like I could fall asleep early because of my drowsiness. But that's how I stopped for a while when I saw Zeke without a top, wearing only knee-length shorts and almost only the wide back I could see.

I didn t know why my body was heating up, it was holding a bottle and just looking out the window at the end of the long hallway. I was about to raise my foot so that I could climb when I suddenly broke causing me to release the teaspoon. I was so scared because when he suddenly turned around, I was so nervous that I couldn't find the teaspoon and quickly turned right, I immediately opened the first door to escape that look.

"Fvck! Why am I so numb!" I shouted.

What is happening to me? What the hell! I almost fell.

I've cleared my mind of what happened, it might just affect the meetings that will take place tomorrow. My cell phone flashed and a message was registered.

09 ****** 880:

Are you alright? Are you still dizzy?

Unknown number. But I seem to know who it came from. I lay down on the bed then grabbed it, I leaned to the left at the window.

Annika:

Where did you get my number?

Instead of answering him I asked where he got that, to my knowledge only a few people gave me my number every time I changed. The cell phone rang again because of his reply.

09 ****** 880:

Do you still want bread?

I was almost stunned when I read it, his answer to my question was too far away. Maybe, so am I, far from his question. I ignored his messages, my cell phone rang a few more times before it finally went silent.

The next day I woke up at six o'clock. The meeting of our club advisers is only at eight o'clock, it is important that we talk about it because it is the upcoming anniversary of that school so many programs will happen again. I went out of the room carrying what I often carry, a bag containing a laptop because that is what is important to me.

When I entered the kitchen, everyone was laughing at me, it's just amazing because there's no one left.

"Good morning," I said.

Instead of sitting down I just brewed coffee and ate bread again. I just listened to what they were talking about Zafia. She's pregnant. I could see the joy in the eyes of my aunts and uncles, well, they are old, it's normal for them to be happy especially since they have wanted to ask for a grandchild for a long time, especially with Von and Zaffiro.

Zaffiro has no plans yet because he is too busy with everything, to the point that he will almost drive my twin away. Poor little Veronika.

I can't help but think of what happened last night in Zeke's office when we were just the two of us. His question gave me joy and fear.

I'm happy because I also hope we can get back to where we used to be. But I have no idea why I feel scared everytime he's smiling. There seems to be something wrong.

"I'm just trying to bring back the past. The old us. Can we?"

Yes at the same time no. I didn't answer him last night but just nodded because they had already arrived Lucas. Ever since the explosion happened, I've been nervous a lot, it's not normal for me because I'm not the type of person who pays attention to small things. But as time went on I couldn't help but remember what happened when I was young, what I went through and it was as if I just now felt nervous and scared.

"How about you Annika? You're 25, aren't you afraid that you might have a hard time in your first pregnancy in case you're late to get married?" Aunt Ezra asked me.

I shook my head and sipped my coffee.

"It's fun to have a family, especially for your children's generation to be lucky because the conflict has stopped," she added.

I know. We're lucky. That's not what I'm afraid of. I don't know if there's any reason to be scared or I'm just a coward.

I'm afraid to get hurt.

"Whoever is the man who came into your life and is willing to accompany you, my dear, please. Let him be. Maybe later the person you are driving away, that is the person who is willing to accompany you until the end of time. Who knows, regret is the painful thing that you don't want to feel."

I just smiled and said goodbye to them. Aunte Cecil is one of my favorite teacher, her words are really inspired me.

She was our teacher when we were children. I went out carrying a bag. Maybe I'll just commute again. I was just about to walk out the main door when a man wearing a polo shirt and looking like a new bath opened up to me. It looked at me and at my hand, then approached me.

"Hmm, I'll join you," he offered.

I was suddenly nervous. No Zeke. He don t know what his saying.