Chapter 4

ANDREA

The days passed quickly, and I was a manager at the Forrester Hotel for a month. I have a day off today, so I called Tanya.

She took so long to answer, so I just left messages.

Me: Beshy, can you just visit me? I miss our nonsense conversation.

I immediately turned off my phone and went to get something to cook. I was frying garlic when my stomach suddenly turned upside down.

I wondered if that's because I ate today or last night, but those were usually just foods… Suddenly, I ran to the kitchen sink and vomited again.

I vomited nothing but only saliva. I turned off the gas tank first and walked back to the sofa because I was dizzy. I hadn't even sat on the sofa when suddenly my vision darkened and I didn’t know what happened next.

I woke up in the four corners of the room and I couldn't go wrong. I was in the hospital. How many times have I thought about what happened and how I got here and who brought me here? And my question was answered when the door opened and Tanya entered. She gave me a critical look. I don't know why she would look at me like that. I simply ask her why I am here.

"Beshy, don't you know what's happening to you?" she says, as if someone wanted to convey.

No. I'm not. What the Doctor said before. That was I remember. I made our dinner, but suddenly I felt comfortable after vomiting. After that I can't remember anything.

"So you mean you didn't know you were pregnant." it says frankly.

W-what I am pregnant. Are you sure? I asked her, because I couldn't believe how I got pregnant.

"You're still wondering, I should be the one to wonder. How did you get pregnant when you didn't introduce a boyfriend to me or maybe you already have one and you're just hiding it from me." It's sullen language.

I don’t have a boyfriend. The doctor's findings may be wrong. My madness is light. But I'm still getting cold. His sperm was so thorny and a mistake of mine immediately resulted.

"Are you sure, how can you explain this ultrasound? You're one month pregnant, why don't you know. And who is the father of your baby." she asked the direct question.

I took the ultrasound she handed. I almost cried with joy because I had a baby. But I was afraid of what would happen next. I just smiled at her, looking that I didn't have time to talk. That she gets it.

"Beshy, as long as I'm the godmother. I'll be more upset if you don't take me." she said while staring at me with sad faces.

Even though knowing how heavy my responsibility as mommy and daddy will be to the child in my womb, I know that Tanya is there to be with me. Because I have no choice but to hide the truth from his real daddy. Because other than that I don’t even know it. Hello, only one night stand happened between you and you flirted with the man. My mind screamed.

The day passed quickly and Tanya became my partner in the prenatal care of my son. I'm pregnant with a boy. At first I was scared but now I know that the more days I will count, the more I will give birth to him. I'm very grateful to my beshy, because I know in myself that I can't do it alone.

I just finished saying goodbye to my boss. I cried but I couldn't do anything, he would fire me as a manager. I also kept my pregnancy a secret from everyone, they were surprised that I was probably about to give birth. It's not obvious to my body because I'm a little pregnant and they say that when they hide it, the baby gets along. So I am very thankful for my kind baby Axel.

I was surprised by what my boss said. That they will first look for me as a relief but once I finish the three months I left I will come back again.

He said he didn't want to replace me because they would regret it when they lost a good manager. I was even more surprised when he said he should be one of its Godfathers. I was moved to tears by what I heard because I didn't expect him to request to be baby Axel's Godfather. Who am I compared to in this position?

I was at home when my water bag suddenly exploded. I quickly called Tanya to go to the hospital. I took a taxi and prayed that my baby would be safe. We got to the hospital quickly. The nurses there immediately took care of me and took me to the delivery room. Pina ire nila ako kaso hindi ako marunong since this is my first time and I don't know how to. So just a few minutes later they slammed the sleeping pills and my eyes suddenly blurred.

I just woke up in the recovery room. I look for my baby next to me. But he didn’t want me to hysterica because I thought baby Axel was missing. Tanya heard me shout.

"Beshy, please calm down. What you're doing is bad for you. Maybe you can." it rebukes me.

Beshy, my baby Axel, where is he? I asked Tanya and waited for her answer.

"He's in the baby nursery room. Later the nurse will take him to breastfeed. Do you have any milk?" It's a question.

Yes, I've already dropped it. I'm embarrassed to say.

Later, the nurse arrived with my child. Tanya made me sit down and the nurse loaded my baby with me. For the first time I saw my son. I suddenly burst into tears, not because I was sad but because it was tears of happiness. I am a handsome child, his eyes are gray and his nose is piercing. I’m sure I’m not the one he looks like, no doubt he looks like his father.

"Beshy, your son is handsome. I'm sure you don't look like him. Maybe you can talk to me. Who is the father of your handsome son? Have you had a relationship before?" its sequential question.

I suddenly swallowed my saliva and covered my tongue. I asked myself if I was ready to answer her question. But in the end I was overcome by fear and apprehension. So I remained silent. Tanya understands everything.