Chapter 1
4
Millennia
later
THEO
I
t’s been said
that the greatest love that ever existed is God’s love. He sent his only son to die for our sins. A son who did no evil and never acted with evil intent. A son who rose from death and lived for eternity. They say that everyone who believes in him will earn that same
eternal
life
.
My great-great-great-great-Nanna and her beloved Rubicon shared the second-deepest love ever known, a love that lasted thousands of years. They would’ve died for one another without a second thought. You don’t find a love like that
anymore
.
The saddest part was that she had to say goodbye to him 1,022 years ago. It was his time, but because he had imparted his essence to her, she couldn’t go with him. She was in some ways stronger
than
him
.
Everyone thought that she would die of a broken heart. But her family, a tree with many snaking branches, loved her so much—and she them—that they brought a spark back into her. She found a way to make peace with the departure of her Rubicon. She was content to wait for the day when he would come and
fetch
her
.
I never knew the Rubicon my Nanna spoke of personally, but I’d heard a great many stories
about
him
.
I was born only twenty-eight years ago, but I knew what he looked like because her face lit up every time I entered her room. I was always begging her to tell me stories about the “Big Guy.” That was what she always
called
him
.
Her eyes sparkled as she wove her stories. I knew she loved him truly, even after all this time. I wanted to have a love like that one day. I wished for someone to love me the way she still loved the
Rubicon
.
When I was six, a very special egg
hatched
.
Nanna could hear the thoughts of the dragon inside that egg before the shell even cracked. It was the new Rubicon entering this world. She still had a connection with it, even after the previous
one
died
.
The new Rubicon’s name was Morgan. She was the ugliest baby dragon I’d ever seen. But Nanna had stared at her with so much love and
admiration
.
She’d helped Morgan into this world, guided her to the light. She treasured her always. Soon she saw that I was the lucky one who would claim her when her sixteenth
birthday
came
.
Even the Viden couldn’t see that. So many of them had come and gone, all of them Moon-Bolts. Their Foretellings had guided many to do great things. Some Foretellings magically appeared in a book. These books were housed inside the library. Nanna had her own special book. The words didn’t appear magically, but what she said always came true. She always spoke clearly, never in tongues and never in
riddles
.
She had guided our family through all of our Foretellings. The Viden’s mind couldn’t glimpse of our bloodline’s futures. Only Nanna and a Moon-Bolt named George, who had died thousands of years ago, could
do
that
.
George had been one of their greatest friends. When he died, his Dragonian left this world a few days later. They too shared a special bond, the kind that was so rare, just like Nanna and her
Rubicon
.
When Morgan finally got her human form, it was the opposite of her dragon form. She was a darling blond-haired little girl, with the most beautiful red
brown
eyes
.
She had a sweet soul—smart as hell and as naughty as they come. Although we never went to Dragonia Academy together, I’d been one of her friends from birth. I claimed her six years ago when the darkness inside her started to claw its way into
her
soul
.
She’s known that I would become her rider—her Dent—as Rubicons would never be good without their
Light
.
The pain in my heart grew sharper as I watched Nanna’s fragile body lying on the bed. She still had her spark, but her body was finally giving up. Her mind rambled about things that I didn’t know had passed or were yet to come. She’d spoken about an evil so strong that it ripped her entire family apart. It scared me. I couldn’t find anything in the library about what she could be talking about. She was so old. It would cost me my essence to discover what she’d been talking about for the
past
week
.
She was close to her time. She was going home. Back
to
him
.
I couldn’t imagine life without her. She was the only constant in our family tree, yet even that was coming to an end. Soon she would be
no
more
.
A knock came at the door. Morgan appeared. No longer a little girl, Morgan was stunning. “How is she?” she whispered as she came over for
a
kiss
.
She sat on the sofa next to me. I wrapped my arms around her. Although I couldn’t hear her heartbeat, I knew it was beating at the same pace
as
mine
.
“In and out. She thought I was him a couple times
today
.”
Tears welled up in Morgan’s eyes. She walked over to
Nanna’s
bed
.
Nanna was awake. “My sweet, sweet
Morganna
.”
Morgan smiled. “Don’t leave me,
please
.”
“Shush, child. You know you are not the only Rubicon who
needs
me
.”
Morgan fluffed Nanna’s pillow. “What am I going to do
without
you
?”
“You have Theo. Just think, when I’m gone, the two of you will drive one another
insane
.”
I chuckled. I knew I would start hearing Morgan’s thoughts when Nanna passed. There was that twinkle in her eyes
once
more
.
“You will be fine. I’ve taught you everything you need to know. The rest you must discover
together
.”
She
nodded
.
“Do me a favor?” Nanna
asked
.
“Anything,”
Morgan
said
.
“Go see if his star is
still
gone
.”
Morgan rushed to the windowsill. For the past week the Southern Star had been missing from the night sky. It had been written that the day the Rubicon died, a star would appear in the South. It was the brightest star, even brighter than the North Star. Books spoke about the North Star that guided everyone; even the Bible spoke about the North Star, never the
Southern
Star
.
It hadn’t left the sky for the past thousand
years
.
They all believed it was his star. His soul watching over her. It was so far-fetched, so silly. But seven days ago, that star had just vanished. Did it fall? I didn’t know. But Nanna truly believed that it was him coming to fetch her. The myth didn’t seem so silly
anymore
.
Since that star disappeared, Nanna had grown weaker and weaker. It was as if she was giving up. She’d made peace with it. We hadn’t. I wasn’t ready to say goodbye. Who would keep the peace? Who would they go to if they couldn’t make a decision? Nanna was that person. Sure there were other old Dragonians, but Nanna was the wisest of
them
all
.
I couldn’t say goodbye to her yet. Not with a world looming over my shoulder. I was the next in line; she’d given the crown to me and not my father. I had no idea if I could do it the way she had with her
Rubicon
.
She said that was the reason she’d given it to me: a great king never knew he was a
great
king
.
I wasn’t
so
sure
.
E
LENA
I
t was late.
I faded in and out of different timelines. I’d said goodbye to loved ones so many times. Watched them return to the ground, become the dust they were made of. So many had died before my eyes. First my father, then
his
wife
.
Then my friends, their faces forgotten, the
memories
weak
.
Blake had always been at my side, making it easier…and then he’d gone, too. I thought I was going to die myself, but I found love again through so many
things
.
Especially the new ones who came into this
world
.
New ones for me to love, to hold, to guide, and to say goodbye to
again
.
One might say it was cruel. That it must be too tiring to open your heart again to love another. But for me, it was natural. It was my life. It
felt
full
.
I’d helped many. I’d guided plenty. I’d loved many. But had I ever truly loved the way my
father
had
?
I didn’t know anymore what had truly happened and what hadn’t. Trying to recall where they fit together was
impossible
.
Morgan came tonight again. She’d confirmed it. His star was still gone. He was finally coming
for
me
.
I heard a sniff and opened
my
eyes
.
Theo leaned back on his haunches near my closet. The sweet boy was a spitting image of my Blake. He laughed it off every time I told
him
that
.
What is he doing here? Why doesn’t he go to bed and sleep?
I’d taught him the most. He was ready even if he didn’t believe it himself. He was
ready
.
He finally looked up. It felt as if my soul was on fire. A new kind of life filled me. My stomach
fluttered
.
His eyes were soft with compassion. I hadn’t been looked at like that for almost a thousand
years
.
Not
Theo
.
Blake
.
“What took you
so
long
?”
“I told you before. Time works differently on the other side,” he said
softly
.
He was so handsome, always had been, right up until the day he’d left
my
side
.
“I’ve missed you so much,” my old voice said.
Lucky bastard. He’d gotten his young
body
back
.
“I missed you more,” he
whispered
.
“How long do
I
have
?”
“One more day,
Elena
.”
I smiled. One more day. Then I was going to
go
home
.
“Your mother is quite the organizer up there,” he joked. “I had to keep on helping her get things ready
for
you
.”
I smiled. “Our first shopping spree?” His face fell, so I asked, “Why the long face,
my
love
?”
He touched my rumpled cheek. “You need to remember what truly happened,
Elena
.”
I swallowed. I knew what he was talking about. I’d struggled with that for the
past
week
.
“You need to tell Theo what he has to do. Otherwise they will be stuck with the wrong
future
.”
“What do you mean?” I spoke
softly
.
The timelines, the different stages of my life, all jumped back into place as his finger brushed my temple. The one that had truly happened, but only the two of us remembered…and another one that everyone else believed was the
truth
.
“They can’t be stuck with that past. You need to tell him what he
must
do
.”
It didn’t make sense. But then it came back to me. The night Blake had run into our room and uttered a horrible
truth
.
“That was…Theo?” I
asked
.
He
nodded
.
A tear welled up. “But you said it
was
you
?”
“I was wrong. I wish I wasn’t.” His expression held immeasurable
compassion
.
“So I did…” My lip started to tremble. I couldn’t even finish my
sentence
.
He nodded
again
.
“She was an innocent baby,
wasn’t
she
?”
“Shh. She understands, Elena. She knows why we had to do it. Silho is waiting for you, too. She cannot wait to finally meet
her
mom
.”
I
sniffed
hard
.
“Will I remember this
tomorrow
?”
“It will hold.” He
smiled
.
I returned his smile, although it didn’t reach my eyes. “Still a master. I hope I don’t have to kill other women up
there
.”
He laughed. “It’s a kill-free environment. And I only have eyes for you. You know that. Sleep, my sweet love.” His lips brushed across my forehead. “I’ll be back
tomorrow
.”
I closed my eyes and waited for the last day of
my
life
.
What was I going to choose tomorrow…my daughter or my entire
family
tree
?