Chapter 14

Have you ever been on a sugar rush? When you have so much energy running in your body to tackle everything. You are always up and down, doing the most because you have excess energy. At that moment you are happy and expressive, right? Now imagine after the sugar rush. When your body starts feeling heavy and your moods change to that of annoyance. When all the energy is gone.

That was exactly how I felt in the morning. When I spent the night with Namjoon I felt like I was on a sugar rush. My body was on fire and I could do anything even fly, if I wanted to. Now I felt the opposite. I woke up lazily like I always do. I touched the side of my bed, trying to reach out to Namjoon but my hand only landed on the sheets.

I stretched a little further but I was met by cold empty sheets. It made me open my eyes. I sat on the bed, opened my eyes and actually checked. He wasn't there. Where was he? Was he in the bathroom? I stretched before I tried to get out of bed. Damn! My body felt extra heavy today .I haven't slept that much and I woke up early.

I was completely exhausted. I went to check the bathroom but he wasn't there. The balcony, nope, he wasn't there. So he left. I fell on the bed. He actually left. How did I feel about it? I was sad but I knew I wasn't supposed to be mad. I was disappointed and a little angry. How could he leave just like that? Like we didn't share the most intimate moment in a person's life.

However I did agree to it though. It was all my fault. I agreed to a one night stand. I thought I won't get attached to him but here I am . I was wrong. I could feel his absence. He was like this big warm energy that filled my room and now it was gone. My room felt cold, empty and abandoned. Well not just my room but also my heart.

My lady parts were sore. If it wasn't for that feeling, yesterday would have felt like a dream. I would have concluded that it didn't happen and I was day dreaming again. What do you do when you break up with someone? Move on?? We weren't even dating but the feeling was almost the same. I was already attached to Namjoon . Now I had to move on.

I held Namjoon in my arms. Could you imagine that...I mean when will I recover from that. He was big yet soft and comforting. I felt safe in his arms. I felt free to do what I wanted. Sadly it was only for a night. I sighed and went back to sleep. Sleeping has always been one of the ways I deal with stress or anything basically.

I wrapped the duvet tightly around me and closed my eyes. My dreams were also invaded by him. How was I supposed to move on from him, if he was everywhere?

I woke up after three hours. I felt better this time round. I have processed everything in my sleep and decided to let it be. It was a night of magic and it was safe to let it stay that way. My Namjoon. I will miss you.

I took a warm shower and wore the most comfortable clothes I had. I went to sit at the balcony and stare at the world around me. I didn't have the energy to go outside though. Namjoon drained all my energy. I might need two to three working days to recover . Syke! Lies. I will be fine by tomorrow. My heart though, I don't think she will recover that quickly.

The phone in my room rang.

" Yes"

" Is this Miss Avah?" A ladies voice asked

" Yes this is she. How can I help you?" I was puzzled.

" A care package has been sent to your room. The sender wishes to remain anonymous. Please open the door when you hear the bell" she concluded

" Okay, I will" I hang up

A care package, from whom? Did I know anyone in this hotel other than BTS members. Kahina wouldn't send a package, she would have come to see me herself. Who is it from? The bell rang and I opened the door.

The hotel staff brought in a cart.

" This is your care package Miss Avah. Call us when you are done" he said and left.

I pulled the cart in. I was super excited. It has been a while since I had received any gifts. First it was food. Plates filled with food. Starter, main meal and dessert. How did he or she know I liked this desert ? I like chocolate ganache cake. I could eat it every single day, if it were possible.

I took a bite of each and it was amazing. Below was a box. The box was well packaged and there was a purple ribbon. Okay, I'm starting to like this person. I opened the box and inside was painkillers, a cute purple doll, so many types of chocolates and big bags of chips. This has to be someone who knows me well.

I found a card. I was so excited to see who would send me this.

I know you might feel tired today. Enjoy the treats sent with good intentions 💙💜.

I didn't think it could be him. I didn't want to entertain the thought that it could be him but here it was . The proof was right in front of me. He sent me this. Was I delusional to think that there was a probability it would be him. Was I reaching for something that wasn't there?

What should I do? If it were you, what would you do? I decided to enjoy the gift first then I will do the rest later. I ate the delicious food while I enjoyed the beautiful weather. I tried some of the chocolate and I decided it was too good to be eaten. Especially considering who it was from. I had to keep some souvenirs. Even though the best I could do to commemorate that night was these chocolates and a doll.

I should say thank you. One of the most important things my parents taught me is to be grateful when someone does something nice for you. I headed outside dressed like a homeless person but I didn't care. I took the elevator down to the reception area. I asked the lady I found whom the package was from and she said and I quote " a tall handsome Korean guy"

How many tall handsome Korean guys do we know? 7. But how many would actually send me a gift? One. So Namjoon it is. I asked for his room number since he knew mine. After a lot of hesitation on her side and begging from mine ,she finally gave me the number.

He was on the eight floor of the building. I went back to the elevator and pressed 8th floor. I couldn't stop fidgeting as the elevator went up. The ding sound almost made me go back . Why was I so nervous? Maybe it was because I was sobber, maybe I should go down and take a shot or two to calm my nerves?

" No you have to do this Avah. You are strong. And what is the worst thing that could happen?"

With that question in my mind I stood outside his door and pressed on the bell.