Chapter 24

Namjoon's POV

Seeing her begging was something I was honestly not prepared for. She looked so pitiful and honest for a minute I almost fell for it. I really wanted to believe her but I couldn't. The evidence against her was so overwhelming. How could the other woman lie when she had bank details showing the money transfer.

Avah , I really liked her. If I had to be honest , what I felt was more than like. It was heading to love but I didn't let myself fall for her. We ,as a group have faced so much. We have fallen in love with people who took advantage of us. People who wanted to benefit from their association with us. These people didn't love us, they were using us. Since it happened again and again, we eventually learned to be cautious on who we let in our spaces .

Perhaps, to some degree I was cautious of Avah. Unfortunately I was proven right once again. Watching her cry did break my heart but there was nothing more I could do. I might have been inclined to believe her but in this case it was best to go with the evidence. She was on the wrong. The worst thing was she refused to admit her actions. She could have come clean. Perhaps if she came clean I would have tried to work it out.

However she insisted on her innocence. She insisted and insisted again and again. Her plight fell on deaf ears. I couldn't trust her again , I'm so sorry. She confessed she was in love with me. I don't know how I was supposed to feel. How can you tell someone you love them when you have been caught lying .

Her love meant nothing to me because she overall meant nothing to me. I had to harden my heart if I wanted to survive this. I had to get ahold of myself, my feelings and my stupid heart. This was not the time to let something like this shake me. This is not the first time something like this has happened but it will definitely not be the last time.

I was done with giving people my trust freely only for them to break it. I wanted to say I was so done with love but I couldn't. Watching her raw feelings as she spoke from the heart did have an effect on me but I pretended it didn't.

After she was done, she picked up her things and left. I wanted to stop so badly but I couldn't. Maybe this was for the best. The two of us would have separated anyway in the long run. Maybe this was for our own good.

I sat back on the bed. Today started out as good day but ended up terribly. I stayed the rest of the day and night in my room . I really deserved better than this.

I woke feeling weird. I was so calm you wouldn't think a life changing experience happened yesterday. I was also numb. My feelings and emotions felt numb. I didn't see the need to feel sorry for myself. I was sad that things ended this way but it was over now.

Was it okay to mourn a relationship that didn't even get the chance to become one? We were in sync. We were so compatible yet so different. Any time I spent with Avah felt like heaven. I was relaxed the entire time . I liked it so much but the relationship had reached its climax.

I didn't stay alone for long before the rest of the members came to my room. They didn't leave me alone for the rest of the day. I wondered if they were worried about me or they were curious as to what happened. They had the general idea of what happened but I had yet give my side of the story.

They didn't ask questions and I was thankful. I will tell them what happened eventually but not now. What happened was an open wound and it was still painful.

" Namjoonah, let's go eat outside" suggested Jimin

I knew what they were trying to do. They wanted me to get out and breath some fresh air. I wanted that too but my room and this hotel was filled with memories of her. I remember looking for her even without realising it. She was a light I wanted in my life.

How do people move on from this? I have moved on several times before but this time it felt different. This time it will be harder than the rest. She had already built a house in my heart . Even though I pushed her away, I will carry her with me for now.

" Lets go eat" I decided

We left my room and went to our favourite spot. We ordered some food and talked while we waited. Jhope and Jungkook were trying so hard to make me laugh. I did understand their worry. I was too quiet. I really wanted to open up but I couldn't and I hope they would give me time.

We ate as we chatter away. Sharing funny stories that were mostly embarrassing and laughing at each other. It was pretty normal for us. For a few minutes I felt like everything was normal. When we finished eating we were to meet with our managers before we retired to bed.

We had a week to go before our vacation was over. We found the managers waiting at the same room that broke my trust. We were shocked to find the same girl there.

" What is that girl doing here?" Demanded Yoongi.

I wanted to ask the same thing. The last thing I wanted to see today was her face. Hasn't she done enough damage as it is?

" Namjoon she has something to say to your" one of our managers said

" I don't want to hear it. Haven't you done enough!!!!"

" You will want to hear this" she whispered .

I debated on whether I needed to hear this or not. This woman has already caused me immeasurable pain. Why do I need to listen to her one more time.

" The woman who asked me to take pictures of you was not Avah"