Chapter 43.

My phone fell out of my hands onto my desk. The music stopped so suddenly. The members sprinted to him, and Suga had him in his arms trying to wake him up. Jungkook could be seen crying as they panicked around him. The cameramen and women were in shock and forgot to cut the feed.

The armies in attendance started screaming as they pushed forward towards the stage. In seconds hell broke loose. Due to the commotion, all the security in the stadium was suddenly deployed. They worked overtime to keep the armies from flooding the stage. The managers who normally worked behind the scenes ran to the stage.

The first responders ran to him and tried to pry him from Suga's arms. Suga was in shock and held on too tightly. A tug-of-war was initiated between the first responders and the members. Due to their shock, the members were trying to protect Namjoon as well as they could.

In their state, they forgot that the first responders were there to help. Watching from the screen everything that was unfolding made me feel useless. I decided to take action and not sit on my ass. If he didn't get help immediately there might be some unforeseen consequences.

Since the stadium was not very far from the hospital. I rushed out of my office with Seri behind me.

" Tell the ambulance to wait outside, we are going to the stadium " I ordered

I heard her make a call as she followed me. We passed nurses who were still watching the live feed from the stadium.

" They should let the doctor check him out" one of the nurses

" Can't you see they are in shock" another responded.

This only made me run faster. They were still refusing to let the first responders check him out. I ran out of the hospital and into the ambulance. The ambulance took off with loud sirens causing all the vehicles to drive to the side.

" Tell him to step on it" I ordered Seri.

What if we are late? I have to save his life. I had to. In five minutes the ambulance went in. The guards were so helpful since they arranged the vehicles around when they heard the ambulance sirens from a distance.

I rushed out of the ambulance with only my stethoscope while Seri carried my bag. I didn't even know where I was going but the security guards saw my labcoat and pointed the way. They didn't say anything else. I was so grateful for their help that I almost broke down to tears but I had to be strong.

This was not the time. I ran backstage and found them. They had moved him backstage apparently. The members were still around him and he was still unconscious.

" What the hell do you think you're doing!" I cried out

" Avah you here" Jungkook rushed to me " You have to help him. You have to help Namjoon Hyung," he said desperately.

I was as desperate as them. I asked them to leave us alone and they did. They all left even Seri after she dropped off my bag. There he was, unconscious, lying on the couch. He was so still that you might think he was dead. I took steady steps towards him and stopped at the side of the couch.

When I raised my hand I noticed it was shaking.

" Damnit, now is not the time Avah" I scolded myself.

I tightly grasped the shaking hand with the other. It was time to be a doctor. I took my stethoscope lying on my neck and shoved the earpieces in my ears. I gently moved his shirt and placed the chest piece on his chest.

The sound of his steady heartbeat filled my eyes with tears. I let a few tears slip. I was so relieved. He was alive. He was going to be well. I leaned forward and lay on his chest while I listened to the unmistakable beat of his heart. I let the tears I was holding back flow freely. I was so scared. I was scared I was going to lose him.

Even though we weren't together, he was still the love of my life. I wanted him to be healthy and happy.

" I'm so sorry Namjoon. I didn't mean anything I said. I just want you to be healthy" I cried

As I lay there I heard a small cough that moved his chest slowly. I raised my head to find him looking at me.

" Please don't leave me" he whispered before he closed his eyes again.

A silent plea. He didn't want me out of his life. I did this to him. I made him sick. It finally hit me, Oh my God, I'm to blame for all this. I almost killed Kim Namjoon. How was I going to forgive myself?

I forced myself to work. I checked his vitals and found that he was extremely exhausted and dehydrated. This wouldn't kill him but it had caused so much damage. I fixed an IV cannula on his hand before I searched for normal saline in my bag.

Within seconds the normal saline was flowing slowly into his body. The emergency had been averted. I will take him to the hospital to rest. I left him and spoke to his manager and he decided to have him admitted to my hospital. He said he felt calmer if I took care of him. He also said he wanted to talk to me once all this was over.

We transported Namjoon safely to the hospital and admitted him to the VIP room. I was allocated as his doctor and no one was allowed near him. Not even the other nurses or Doctors. I understood why they took such drastic measures. The members came in to check on him before they all left to go and rest.

As I walked to my office to pick up my phone, I noticed the announcement on Weverse. The concert has been postponed. All those who had the tickets will use them for the next show. The next concert hasn't been decided.

Avah:For a while it was love, wasn't it?

For me it was love.