Running away from the Alpha King

I was forced to marry my Mate, the Alpha King. But I said hell no!
As a white she-wolf, I, Christal, am also an noble Alpha.
Though it was my destiny to marry him, I had never met him, I felt nothing for him! What's more, I've heard he's an extremely violent tyrant.
That's why, I chose to escape from my Pack! By pretending to be a human being.
However, he found me, captured me, and tried to conquer me.
I thought he was cold-bloody, but he protected me, spoiled me, and even got to know me deeply.
God, what a gentle Alpha King! Gradually, I totally fell in love with him, but when he proposed to me again, I had to reject him.
Because I had a dark dirty secret, that I could never tell him...