4
Alyssa's POV.
I showered quickly, wincing in pain as the water hit my wounds.
Coming out of the bathroom, I saw clothes on the bed, it was obvious for me.
I sat down thinking of what he said, I was stuck with a mate who didn't reject me, but hated me as well.
I heard voices outside, and I ran to the window, I could see some sort of celebration going on.
I opened the door, deciding to join the celebration, I went downstairs.
I felt like an outsider just observing what they were doing, when suddenly I felt him, my mate, I could smell him, he was close.
I followed the scent, reaching a small room, I saw the door slightly left open.
I gasped when I saw my mate, and a woman on top of him.
“Yes, fuck, you're so good.” The woman groaned, bouncing on him, making me want to throw up at the sight of her.
The man grunted, his face showing the pleasure he was feeling from her actions.
He was enjoying this.
The man flipped her over, his hand traveling along her body as she moaned, “Alpha Trevor, you're the best.” She licked her lips.
“Mph, yes, I am.” He grinned as their kiss continued, I could feel tears pooling in my eyes, I wanted to scream and shout.
I wanted him to stop, but couldn't make a sound because he might hear me, though I know he could feel my presence too.
I couldn't believe my mate was here having sex with another female, he knew I was here, and he didn't care.
“I want another round.” She giggled.
I felt a pang of jealousy strike me, how could my mate do this to me? He was right when he said I would regret him not rejecting me, I suddenly wished he did, it was better than feeling this way.
My wolf whined in pain, I wanted to slap her, and push her off him, as I watched them.
“Please fuck me already, I want your cock in me.”
She grabbed his cock and stroked it slowly, making my mate groan, his back arching.
“You'll take all of me, right? Suck me off first.” Trevor asked as she took a nipple between her fingers before squeezing it teasingly.
Trevor grunted again as he nodded his head, she took his cock in her mouth and began pumping it vigorously, making him cry out loudly, his hands grasping at her hair trying to keep himself upright.
“Fuck!” He yelled.
His pace quickened, making her moan louder.
My blood turned cold, as I stood there motioned to a spot watching them, tears blurred my vision.
How could he be so cruel to me?
“Ughhhh…” He growled.
His words only served to fuel my rage, my pain, my hatred towards my mate grew as I stared silently, unable to look away.
Suddenly, my mind went blank, I had no thoughts, or images.
Only pure rage that consumed me, I screamed in silent agony, tears flowed freely down my face as I struggled to hold myself together, my body shook as I stood frozen.
I couldn't move.
It was unbearable.
I fell to my knees screaming, sobbing uncontrollably.
“Why? Why can't anyone love me?” My wolf begged.
“I'm sorry.” I whispered.
I couldn't tell whether my apologies made any difference to my wolf, but I was deeply sorry, I didn't know what to do anymore.
“What are you doing here?” He barked
He came to stand over me in his naked glory and looked down at me contemptuously.
“Get out. I never called you here.”
“But… But…” I stammered.
“Leave.” His voice boomed, I stood up shakily, he didn't even care that I just caught him fucking someone else.
I walked out of the room looking down, I could feel stares from others, his voice attracted those who were close by, I went upstairs averting everyone's gaze.
I collapsed on the bed, my heart heavy, I buried my face in my pillow.
I tried to suppress my cries, but eventually the noise escaped.
Tears spilled from my eyes soaking the pillow under me and onto my arms, I didn't notice how they dried.
I couldn't get it out of my head.
Everything hurts.
So I cried.
Tears, screams, sobs filled the space inside me.
I felt so lonely, so abandoned, so helpless,
and so unwanted.
After a while the sounds stopped, and I could breathe normally, my breath was ragged.
I stood up when I heard the door open, Alpha Trevor walked in, glaring at me.
He was so angry, his anger radiated around him, he had an unreadable expression on his face.
I looked away, my heart hammering in my chest.
My stomach clenched as he glared at me, he came forward slowly, grabbing my chin roughly.
“Don't ever do what I don't want you doing.” He warned.
“Please, just reject me.” I begged, clutching my heart, the pain hitting me again, the memory flashing through my mind.
“Just let me go.” My heart broke, my voice was breaking.
“Shut up.” His voice was low, but somehow I still managed to hear it.
“I won't reject, but like I said, you'll wish I did.” He spat.
His grip on my chin tightened, his grip on my neck was painful.
I couldn't move.
“If you don't like me as your mate, reject me, so I'll leave.” I managed to say.
“If you leave, you'll die.” He whispered.
My breath caught, I tried to pull away from him, but his grip kept strong.
He smiled triumphantly.
“Fine!” I screamed, my voice cracking from crying.
He walked out of the room, I shivered, touching my neck, I didn't realize I had been biting my lip until then.
As soon as he left, I started shaking violently, tears streaming down my face.
No one loved me.
Not even my mates.
No matter how hard I tried.
I didn't understand why I cared so much about what happened to me now, I should've gotten used to it, I had a weak wolf, I was weak, and they hated me.