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Chapter 3

Helen

“Whoa. Just… wow. Ok.” Lizzie’s face said it all, and mine burned all the brighter for it. She turned the sketchbook in her hands, admiring the embarrassing sketch from all angles. I wished the ground would swallow me up. “Do you think he’s that well-hung? You’ve probably flattered him, at least.”

“I don’t think flattered is the right word for it. How about mortified?”

Her eyes twinkled. “He isn’t going to be mortified by this, Hels. It’s quite something.”

“And he’s quite my teacher. He’s going to be utterly, totally, abysmally, horrifically mortified.” I pressed my palms to my cheeks and they were still hot. “How will I ever be able to look at him again?”

“It’ll take more than this to stop you looking at him,” she laughed. “Old habits die way harder than that.”

“I can’t believe you’re laughing. This is a total disaster.” She’d started flipping back through the pages before I had a chance to reclaim my sketchpad and slapped my hands away as I tried to protest.

“You may as well let me see the rest now! How much worse can they possibly be?” Much worse.

Much, much worse.

My dirty obsession knew no shame.

But I did. Shame that I was getting a solid introduction.

Her cute little eyebrows rose on her forehead and her mouth curved into a grin. “Dirty minx. I thought you were over all the kinky stuff?”

“Said who?”

She shrugged. “It’s been ages since we talked. You know, talked.”

“No it hasn’t,” I scoffed. “We talk.”

“Yeah, just not like we used to.” She flipped another page. “Wow.”

My stomach lurched. “He didn’t see that one. Praise Heaven for small mercies.”

“Shame.” Her smile was full of glee as she held up the page. One of my favorites. Me, bound to a bed, spread-eagled and at the mercy of the man at my feet. He was in shadow, ominous but beautiful, the outline of his tousled hair captured perfectly, even if I did say so myself. My lips were parted, eyes glazed and wanting. My back arched, my weight heavy on my shoulders as my body strained for him, powerless against the invisible call of his touch. “I think he’d have liked this one.”

“He’s not going to like any of them, Lizzie. He’ll think I’m a weirdo.” She flipped another, onto my very favorite, the one where Mr. Roberts was angry, eyes burning, taking me hard over the art bench where I spent the majority of my school time. He had my hair in his fist, forcing my cheek flat to the wood, my splayed palms smearing paint over a half-finished canvas. A tumbler of water had been knocked clean over, rivers of paint-dirty water snaking away from us and dribbling into the foreground.

“I think you should drop your sketchpad more often,” she giggled. “I think you might get somewhere.”

“Yeah. Expelled.”

“Don’t be so… morbid.” She poked her tongue out. “I like them. I love them. Come on, he’s a man, right? He’d have to be turned on by these, Hels. Hell, I’m turned on by these.” Her expression turned, a sly smile creeping across her pretty face.

“Draw me one.”

“Draw you one? Um, no. They’ve got me in more than enough trouble today already, thanks very much.” She shoved the sketchbook in my hands regardless, then flopped herself onto my bed and struck a pose. I giggle-snorted as she pulled the duckface and pinched her nipples through her school blouse. “I’m not drawing that.”

“But I’m so pretty.”

I groaned, but I was already reaching for my pencil case.

She fist-pumped the air. “She shoots, she scores! Make it hot, please. Hot!”

“Yeah, yeah. What do you want? Are you fucking Emo-boy over his guitar amps? What’s his coming face like? No, don’t tell me… I won’t be able to forget it.”

“His coming face is just fine.” She gave me the finger, then shook her head. “I don’t want you to draw me with

Scottie, I want you to draw me with Mr Roberts.” Her eyes twinkled with deviance. “You can be in it, too, if you like.”

My stomach churned. “You and Mr Roberts?”

She nodded. “Come on, Hels, it’s only a game! It’ll be fun!”

“You want me to draw dirty sketches of you and the love of my entire measly, miserable, weirdo teenage existence? Why?

I’m not even drunk. You’re not even drunk.”

“Because it will be fun! And, we’re not drunk yet.” She reached for her overnight bag and dug out a bottle. “Tada! A quality beverage from the cabinet of the delightful Ray.”

I took it from her. Cheap vodka. Nasty. I tutted but reached for our cola-filled tumblers regardless.

“Bad influence, Lizzie Thomas, you’re a very bad influence.”

She held out her glass for a toast, and I clinked it with a sigh. “To Mr Roberts,” she said. “And the magnificent cock you picture him with. May it be true to life. Amen.” She downed hers then pulled a face at the burn. “Now draw me,” she ordered.

“And don’t skimp on the detail, I want everything, Helen Palmer, your very finest work.”

Nights like this were exactly why Lizzie Thomas and I were born to be best friends. A couple of vodkas took the edge off, and a couple more had me feeling just fine. The giddiness and the giggles numbed my shame in a way that felt nice warm and tingly. Talking about the incident felt easier, and lighter. Talking about him became dirtier, and Lizzie talked, too. She talked of sex, and boys, and all the hot things waiting for us at university that I had no interest in whatsoever, and all the while I drew her. And him. And me.

I drew all three of us, and it was hot, and wrong, and quite ridiculous, but what the hell. I had to slam the sketchpad closed as Mum poked her head around the door to say her goodnights, and only just managed to clear it from view in time. The damned thing was on a mission to embarrass me completely and utterly like it hadn’t done enough already. Lizzie collapsed in giggles once the coast was clear, pointing at my cheeks as they re-bloomed to beetroot.

“Shut up,” I protested. “Just shut up, Lizzie. You’re so bad. Look what you’ve made me do!”

I held up the picture and her laughter stopped. Her eyes focused, and she reached out for it, holding it close for viewing.

“You see me like this?”

“You are like this.” I giggled, warm. “You’re so pretty, Lizzie. Of course, I see you like this.”

The girl in the drawing had Lizzie’s perfect smile, her twinkling eyes. She was mischievous dramatic, and alive. In the picture I was holding her hand, both of us naked, on our knees, as Mr Roberts stood tall, his cock proud and ruler in his hand, about to land with a tap against his palm.

“I love it,” she said. “You are so cool, Hels. So cool.”

She downed the last of her drink before pulling out her night clothes. I smiled at the faded cat print on her camisole. She’d been wearing that since we were in primary, only once it had been a night dress. She undressed in front of me without the slightest awkwardness, brazen and bold, as though the picture itself had come to life. Through tipsy eyes, I admired the girl I’d been drawing so accurately. Her tits were bigger than mine, her nipples darker against pale skin. Hers were perky and bounced when she ran, unlike my little teenage breasts that bulked out with padding. Her hips were curvy and her ass was cute, and the dark hair between her legs was so much more tame these days. Boys had seen to that. Namely one boy. Emo boy.

Scottie Davis.

She pulled up a pair of frilly white panties and checked herself out in my dressing table mirror.

“Height of fashion,” she smirked. “Check me out, Hels. Aren’t I a hottie?”

“I am checking you out.” I smiled. “You look cute.”

“You’re the cute one,” she said. “Nobody would ever guess what a dirty little cow you are.” She tapped her lips. “My secret. Promise.”

She offered out a hand and pulled me to my feet, wrapping her arm around my waist and making me stand beside her. Our reflections stared out at us, and in the lamplight, I looked so much more innocent than her with her edgy little pigtails and smoky eyes.

“I’m boring next to you.”

“No way,” she said. “Don’t be a crazy bitch. You’re so beautiful, Helen.”

She brushed the hair from my face, chocolate brown tendrils of standard shoulder-length hair. My eyes were hazel, not bright blue like hers, and my mouth was not nearly so pouty or dramatic. I had a nice nose and a cute enough face, and my eyebrows were thick and naturally shaped without the crazy plucking routine Lizzie endured, but she was dramatic, hot, and different, and I was, well, Helen. Just Helen.

Why would a man like Mr Roberts go for someone ordinary? Pretty, yeah, I guess I was pretty enough. But I was ordinary on the outside, not attractive and outgoing like Lizzie.

“Best friends forever,” she announced.

“Only friends forever,” I laughed. “Wouldn’t have it any other way.”

She slapped my ass. “Bedtime.”

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