04

Chapter 04

Ezra and I haven’t talk after that night and after hearing the news that their family is going to eat dinner with us makes my stomach churn.

I mean, we see each other everyday at school but actually doesn’t talk which makes me think that he’s really angry at me partly because I spend most of my time with Harvey now, and he doesn’t make moves to me and asking me to be his girl but rather a friend who I can talk with… about my feelings for Ezra and my unrequited love for him… but he doesn’t know that and he’s upset… that’s also making me think that he’s jealous aside from the fact that I once saw him making out with Leah at the back of the school which was disgusting and I hope to never see that again.

When I get down from my room something else caught my attention… Marie and dad talking to each other while my mom is busy mandating the maids what’s still need to be done while Ezra’s dad is busy with a phone call in the corner while Ezra just got inside the house and landed his eyes to me but immediately look away as he make a beeline to the living room… everything seems so normal if you look at it but I noticed the small touches from dad and Aunt Marie that made me disgusted.

I went down from the stairs and immediately head to the living room where Ezra is and now I regret that because he seems busy with his phone as he keep smiling and didn’t even notice that I was sitting across him.

I can’t help but think how Ezra has this power over my emotions, when he’s sweet and spending time with me I get really happy and excited but when he treat me like this, it makes me feel weak and I don’t want to do anything and I just want to disappear and cry myself to bed… and I know I shouldn’t be dependent on him…. because there will be a time that we will have our own family and I will have to forget those feelings that I have for him… and learn to love the person I will marry in the future, the thought makes me sad but at the same time it makes me want to be better and work on myself… because as my mom always say, I shouldn’t be dependent on any man and I should build my own name.

“Are you not going to talk to me?”

That caught Ezra’s attention but before he could say anything mom called us over from the dinning room and that’s when I notice that they were waiting for us.

Instead of waiting for him I immediately turn my back and walking fast towards the dinning room. We’re seated next to each other and I can feel him hovering over my shoulder as our parents talk but I purposely ignore him but in the process that’s when I notice that something is off… my dad is trying to include Aunt Marie in the conversation but she would just smile and respond a little but I notice the sadness from her eyes and she looks like she’s preoccupied with something.

The dinner was fine and Ezra and I still haven’t talk and it’s safe to say that I’m avoiding him right now. Our parents are in the study discussing something and I’m here in the backyard wandering around when I heard someone crying from a distance. I was actually scared at first but once I got near that’s when I realize who it was… it was Aunt Marie.

“Kate.” She immediately wipe her tears upon noticing me.

“Is there something wrong?” I asked in a whispered despite knowing that it could be related to dad.

She shake her head and smile at me but her tears continue to fall and I sigh as I rub her back. “I-I don’t know what I’m doing right now… I just feel messed up.” She whispered and before she could say anything more I stopped her… I don’t want her confession… I can’t handle it.

“Whatever it might be, I know it will be fine… that’s what mom always tell me. Hardship is inevitable but it’s how we handle it that makes it a little better.” She smile sadly and she hugged me tight as she continue to cry on my shoulder and right now I can’t think of anything other than my family… what will happen to us know?

I still haven’t seen any baby bump on Aunt Marie but I can see the changes from her body and her moods… it will be a matter of time when everyone will know… I don’t know what’s their plan but as time goes by I can’t help but feel anxious… I want to tell Ezra and Mom but Ezra and I are not even speaking to each other and I know it’s partly my fault and I’m scared to tell mom, I will hurt her feelings but at the same time I don’t want to hide it from her any longer… I want to share this feelings inside of me.. I’m scared and I need someone to tell me that it’s going to work out just fine… or else I will break the longer I keep this to myself.

“Thank you, Kate. You shouldn’t have seen me like this… grown up should be strong… but you know that’s a lie. Grown up can be sad and be hurt, we just hide it… because our kids are depending on us.”

“There’s no shame on that… we’re all human after all.” We smile sadly to each other, I can see from her eyes that she wants to tell me the truth but I know if she start talking I would cut her off and would tell her to stop, I don’t approve them of course I don’t want to be a part of their schemes… I love her but I hate her for having an affair with my dad.