Chapter 6

Xander

I was in my bedroom lying on my bed, thinking when I smelled her. She was just outside my bedroom door. She knocked, but I didn't open the door for her, thinking she would just go away, but she didn’t. Instead, I heard the knob being turned, and my door opened. Why is she here?

“It’s late,” I said, and I sat up from my bed, looked at her, and found her looking at me as well. The look in her eyes was somewhat different. She was expressing her feelings for me. And I can see that she wants me and, at the same time, she’s mad at me. A smile appeared on her lips as she walked closer, and I didn’t do anything but wait for her.

Then she started stripping. Although I was tempted to look, and I didn’t say that I was not seeing her, I didn’t leave her gaze. I chose not to because I wanted to know if she was serious about it. I want to know why she was doing this.

She reached my face with her hands shaking, and I could see that she was nervous. Why not, when it was the first time that she did this? I know, because I am the first man in her life. I want her; I can’t deny that, so I pulled her, let her sit on my lap, and kissed her.

We were looking at each other, panting, when we stopped kissing for a while, and I told her, “You’re the one who came here; don’t say that I forced you this time.” I waited for whatever she was going to say, but she kissed me instead.

I threw all my hesitations at the back of my head and did everything I wanted to do to her. I had been wanting to do this to her since I was 18, when I found out that she was mine. But what can I do? She was only 11 years old at that time. I don’t know how it happened, but it just did. Normally, I should wait for her to turn 18 before I can finally smell her scent and know that she’s my mate. It was too early for that to happen. And fu**. I felt so frustrated that I had to wait 7 years before I could claim her.

The night was so blissful. We made love endlessly. “Let me just rest, and I am going to leave and will not let anyone see me," she said. I was about to tell her not to leave and just stay with me. But because she already said that, I decided to just talk to her in the morning. I wrapped my arms around her waist so I could feel her until I dozed off and fell asleep.

“Aghhhhh…..” I screamed after I woke up. I looked beside me and found that Chassy was not there anymore. ‘Limuel, in my room, faster!' I screamed in our mind-link, calling my beta’s attention.

When he arrived, I was holding my chest because it hurt like hell! “What’s wrong?” he asked, and there came Jack, my gamma. I looked at him and said,

“Find Chassy!” I commanded him, and he nodded his head. I could see that he was worried about me, but I gave him the alpha command, so he had nothing to do but do as I said. Limuel took me to the pack hospital, and from there, I lost consciousness.

“What! You still haven't found her?” I asked angrily. It had been over two weeks since she left, and I still had no news about her whereabouts. I know that she has no place to go, so why the hell did she leave? Didn’t she know that it was too dangerous for her as a woman to be alone and become rogue?

“No news, Xander,” Jack replied with his head down. It was just the three of us, so they were allowed to call me by my name since we were friends. I know that I have been pressuring him ever since Chassy left, but I had no choice but to do that. I want him to do everything to find her.

“Besides that night, do you still feel any more pain?" Limuel asked, and I shook my head.

“I don’t believe what the doctor said; she didn’t reject me. I felt her. She loves me, and I make sure to let her feel my feelings as well.”

“Xander, when the wolves from the Raven Claw Pack arrived, they were talking about the Luna ceremony, and I think she heard them. I tried to stop them from talking because I didn’t want Luna to misunderstand,” Jack said, and I looked at him.

“Why didn’t you tell me?” I asked. Limuel was looking at him too.

“I did!” he exclaimed. “Remember, after they left, I talked to you about them, and I made sure to tell you about Luna.” He added, and I stared at him. I remember that time, but– “Wait, so it was true that sometimes you feel like you can’t hear anything?” he added, and I nodded my head.

Yes, that happens. Especially when it was about Chassy. And until now, I couldn’t find the reason. I know I could hear very well, even the tiniest noise. So I wondered what was wrong with me. “I think she rejected you right after she left the border. Because we couldn’t trace her scent anymore, and you know that in our territory, there are a lot of rogues who were lurking around, her scent must have mixed with theirs.” Limuel said.

“I understand,” I replied, leaning back on my chair. Just what am I going to do to find her?

“You should have talked to her, you know," my beta said in a low voice. “She could have understood why you can’t claim and mark her yet,” he added.

“Yes, and I can’t do anything about it.” I replied, “Or she may not believe it either. We don’t know.”

“We’re going to find her. I promise you that we will bring our Luna back to our pack.” Jack said, so I smiled at him.

“Thank you,” I told him.

The next day, I was on the training ground and was about to finish when Jack came running. “I think I saw her,” he said, as soon as he was closer. My heart suddenly stopped beating, looking forward to more news that my gamma would unfold.