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BAB 3

How do I say goodbye to Saint?

Until I got home, all I could think about was how to tell Saint. Because if I say I'm with someone else, he'll definitely come too. It's not that I don't want to be with him, but it's awkward, isn't it?

Saint is really overprotective. I know that her Daddy bought me from her, but maybe this is too much right? I will not be destroyed because of my association with Psalm. He is a nice guy. He is harmless.

I just lay on my bed and stared at the ceiling. Tomorrow is Wednesday, but maybe it would be better if I let Saint know early.

I mustered up my courage and stood up from the bed. Maybe he won't be angry. This is just a simple hang out, Daddy wants me to have a normal life and wandering is part of normal life.

I walked toward Saint's room and I could feel the nervousness enveloping my whole body. I know how scary Saint is when he's mad. He isn't the Mafia Boss for nothing.

I took a deep breath and knocked softly.

"Who are you?" I heard him ask.

"It's Saturday," I said. He opened the door and his cold gaze immediately went down my spine. Be calm, Sat.

This is just simple, just ask him what you need.

"Yes? What do you need?" He asks while still looking at me.

I straightened up and grabbed the door. "W-what k-because, will you p-allow me to go around n-today S-Saturday?"

His eyes narrowed. "Where are you going? Who are you with?"

"S-si P-Psalm, b-planning k-because he's going to take a-me for a walk a-me k- because I can't n-get out of the mansion." His face suddenly darkened and he went back inside his room.

"No." Did I say, he won't agree? "And who's Psalm? Did I already tell you about making friends?" He asked while looking at me.

He was now sitting on a couch in his room. I took a small step so that I could see his expression better and hear what he had to say.

"Psalm is a good friend. He is nice to me, he didn't do anything to me." Finally. I didn't stutter. I saw how his eyebrows shot up.

"Oh, really? Humans are never nice to anyone Klea. You know that, they just come and go. Meet you and hurt you. Just like what your mother did." He said firmly.

"No! My mother did that because Daddy does bad things! And Mommy was furious that time she doesn't know-"

"Are you dumb, Klea? What kind of mother would destroy her own child? Your Mom did that just to get away from the crime she did. And trust me, she won't be back like how she promised you. People come and go but they never come back." Saint said with full authority. Like all the words coming out of his mouth is the truth, the only truth.

"No. Mommy said she'll be back. She promised, and she never broke a promise." I struck back.

"Whatever, Klea. Continue being dumb and let's see what the world will give you." I looked at him with the deadliest look I could ever have. He was stunned a bit but immediately got his cool back.

"Daddy wants me to have a normal life, Granpa Santino wants me to be protected by you so that I could have the life that I want. But, you're doing it wrong. You're not protecting me, you are caging me like an animal. Like I am your property. This isn't the normal life that I wanted. This isn't the normal life Daddy pictured out for me, and this is not the protection your Dad wants you to do. You disappoint me, Saint. You disappoint everyone, including your own Dad." I said and I could clearly see in his eyes how surprised he was because of my answer.

I know it hurts when your parents are disappointed in you. Now, take that Saint. Grandpa Santino loves me as how he loves his children. Grandpa Santino treats me as his own, and I know how he wants Saint to be a good man in the future. And I know how disappointed Grandpa is right now.

"Take that back.." Saint said in a low tone.

"No! That's the truth Saint! And there's nothing you can do because you're wrong in the way you protect me!" I exclaimed. He clenched his fist and let out a deep sigh.

"Take that back, Klea. Dad was never disappointed in me. Never." I flinched when I heard how dark his voice was. It's like he can destroy my life with that voice.

"No. Saint, you need to hear the truth that Grandpa Santino is disappointed in you- Aray!" I stopped speaking when he suddenly grabbed both of my shoulders firmly.

His grip is so tight that it might crush my bone but it didn't anyway, but I'm sure it'll leave a mark.

"Take that back!" He shouted in front of me. I'm afraid of him, when he's angry he's like Daddy and I don't want anyone to be angry with me, I can't handle it if someone gets angry with me.

"I never disappoint my Dad, Klea. You don't know that because you don't really have a role in our lives!" He shouted again, I closed my eyes and I could feel the strength of my heartbeat and the nervousness I was feeling.

"You are not important in our lives, you are a burden!" He said again before letting me go, I took a deep breath. He just said that because he was angry, I know that.

He was about to speak when his phone rang. He eyed me and shot me a death glare. "Go out. And if you want to join the Psalm this Saturday, it's up to you. As long as I don't pick you up, you can do it yourself."

I immediately nodded and hurried out of his room. Saint can become a devil when he is really mad. His name may sound like an angel but his attitude is ruthless. He kills, he gambles, and he does bad things.

I held my shoulder and noticed the swelling. I knew it. His grip will make my skin swollen. I can clearly see the violet color on my skin. I sighed.

I went straight to the kitchen to get ointment from the first aid kit. I immediately entered your room and put ointment on my swollen skin.

I bit my lower lip because of the pain when I touch it. It will also disappear after three days.

The next day, Saint and I were silent. He never said a thing, it's a good thing my sleeve covers my swollen skin. I know Sister Mary will be angry with Saint if that happens.

When I got to our classroom, everyone was quiet. They kept looking at me as if I had done something wrong. I took a deep breath and sat in my chair.

But I stopped when I saw what was on my table. A sticky note that says: 'meet me at the rooftop'-psalm.

I smiled. Psalm is really nice. So I couldn't stay away from him because he was kind to me. I never had a friend like him.

I immediately followed what he wanted and went to the rooftop. I saw him leaning against one of the broken bookshelves, I approached him and waved.

"I was allowed Psalm!" I said smiling.

"Really? It's fine. I'll pick you up at your house, where do you live?" He asked with a smile. I was speechless, if I tell Saint's address he will know that we live under the same roof.

"Ah, never mind, just dm me where we will meet and at what time. My parents will be angry if they see a man outside our house." I lied. Psalm nodded at what I said.

"Why did you send me here?" I asked.

"Because I came from the national bookstore yesterday and you mentioned you love reading books, right?" My eyes immediately went wide because of what he said, don't tell me.

"I bought you a book. It's The Fault In Our Stars." I smiled and immediately accepted from him the book he gave me. It's hardbound. I love it!

"Thank you!" I smiled at him.

"Always, welcome. Come on, we might be late for class." I nodded at him.

Sister Mary would be happy if she found out about this. But I can't help but think...

Do I really have a crush on Psalm?

When I had lunch, after I bought food at the canteen, I was about to return to the classroom when someone suddenly called me.

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