BAB 8

"Alright." Psalm agreed and we walked out of the amusement park. I looked back at the amusement park.

I sighed. If only Psalm wouldn't scare me, I might have ridden all the rides there. Besides, I really want to try the Ferris wheel. Maybe I'll come back here next time when I don't have any problems with Saint.

We arrived at the mall and I was amazed at how many people there were. It used to be that when we went to Saint's mall, he would rent the whole place so that no one could disturb us. This is really my first time leaving the house without any restrictions.

I was surprised when Psalm suddenly grabbed my shoulder, I could feel my heart beating fast as I stared at his hand on my shoulder.

"Let's eat, I'm hungry." He said and we walked together towards an Italian Fastfood.

He ordered a lot. I blinked as I stared at what he ordered. Can we finish it? There are so many...

"Why so many?" I asked confused, he chuckled and pinched my cheeks.

"We're hungry, aren't we? That's it." He said with a smile, because of his positivity I nodded to him and started eating.

I saw him sometimes stealing glances at me from time to time so I smiled too and I couldn't help but think that maybe he likes me too. I read this in other novels I'm reading...but maybe I'm just assuming too much.

"Psalm, I just finished the book you gave me," I said, and he immediately looked up at me.

"And? Any feedback?" He asked.

"It made me cry!" I said sadly, he lowered the cutlery he was holding and looked directly at me.

"Is the book good?" He asked and I nodded.

"That's nice to hear, but why are you crying?" He asked. "I didn't know Gus was going to die."

He just laughed at me and continued eating. I just ate, I stared at Psalm for a while and realized that he was also handsome. But not as attractive as Saint, but Psalm is also handsome.

And why am I comparing Saint and Psalm's features? Why did Saint stumble here? I rolled my eyes again, it's up to him, he's also having fun with his girlfriend.

I just continued eating. When we finished I was relieved, I was full. I looked at Psalm and I also saw in his face that he was full.

"Are we going to the cinema?" He asked and I nodded.

We left the fast food and I just smiled while staring at Psalm. He's an ideal and I know it.

I just stared at the showings while Psalm waited for my decision. What is good to watch? Maybe Psalm won't be angry if I stick to the cartoons, right?

"Psalm, How To Train Your Dragon 3 only." Psalm looked at me for a bit and nodded. He paid for the tickets and we went inside together.

I watched 1 and 2 of these because Ate Mary bought me DVD's then. And this is my first time in the cinema, and I was amazed at the size of the screen in front of us.

I hope, next time Sister Mary will be with me.

I still couldn't move on until we got out of the cinema, I couldn't believe that Toothless was already having fun. Psalm even got worried when I cried in a scene, but I just smiled at him and said I was fine.

It's now 6 PM and I told Psalm that my curfew is 7 PM because that's what Saint said I should be home at. Psalm is now driving me home, he is just silent as if he is deep in thought.

I can't help but smile, today is the most memorable day of my life. Now I've experienced that it's happy to live a normal life, that I don't worry about any problems. As if everything is normal, this is the normal life that Daddy wants me to experience.

But in an accident that happened, all that ended, if only Daddy had been here, he would have seen that I am happy now and that I am living a normal life as he wants. I suddenly felt sadness, but it immediately disappeared when I remembered the fun things Psalm and I did today.

"Danica? We're here." I looked outside his car and saw Saint's mansion. I took a deep breath and smiled at him.

"Can you not call me Danica?" I asked with a smile, Saint wouldn't be mad if I'll say my real name right?

"Why? Did I do something wrong? Didn't I make you happy-"I cut him off?

"No, no, you made me the happiest human alive this day. But it's like you're not talking about me when you call me Danica." I said smiling, his eyebrows met because of what I said.

"Wait, what? I'm confused." Confused, he said, right. He won't understand. I just gasped.

"Just call me, Sabrina or Sab okay?" I said. His eyes were still confused.

"Alright, Sabrina." That's it. Now I feel that I am really with Psalm and not someone else.

"I'll go now, bye Psalm," I said and got out of his car. I waved to him before closing it.

And when I entered the gate, I heard his car leaving, and just as I was facing the mansion, Saint's girlfriend came out. I couldn't believe what I saw, she was now wearing one of Saint's coats.

I also saw Saint coming out as if he was going to take the girl out of the gate. I just ignored them and walked straight towards the mansion.

I saw how Saint's eyes went on me for a while and returned it to his girlfriend. I was about to enter the mansion when Saint's girlfriend suddenly spoke.

"Hey, you!" I immediately looked at her, she was Saint's girlfriend. He was the one who called on the phone yesterday.

"Saint? Who is he?" The woman asked while still clinging to Saint's arm. I looked at Saint's face and it went blank as usual.

"Ah, she's my sister's friend." The woman nodded at what Saint said, I felt a little pain in my chest because of what Saint said.

Am I just a friend of Ate Mary? Is that really all he thinks of me? "Don't come near him, hubby? He might snatch you from me."

"Don't be ridiculous, Audrey. That will never happen okay? Just stay on my side, I'll never live without you." I couldn't do anything but go inside the house but before I could get away from her completely, I heard what I shouldn't have heard.

"Don't worry about her Audrey, okay? She's not important in my life." And with that, I felt my tears fall because of what Saint said.

For the first time, after my father died. I cried. This is the first time I cried, since the death of my Daddy I have not shown that I am weak. I never cried since that day.

But how did Saint manage to take away all the happiness I was feeling just now, just because of his simple words? Maybe because my period is near and I'm getting emotional.

It was the first time I cried not because of a book, but because of a person who I thought was very important to him. He even said sorry one day.

He even told me that he can't lose me in his life, and I hope I don't leave him. Then, he'll just say now that I'm not important in his life?

I hurried into my room and leaned on the door. I cried and cried just because of the words Saint said. How can he say that word? How could he let go of those words without thinking about how I would feel?

I just lay on my bed and thought about the fun things Psalm and I did earlier. Psalm is really nice, and Saint is so rude. Why am I taking so long with Saint?

If it wasn't because of our enemies, Saint would have driven me away a long time ago. And that thought just hit me hard.

What if, Saint is just keeping me here because I am his responsibility?