Chapter 3
Tara's POV
I couldn't quite register what happened after that but I felt someone lift me from the ground as I slowly lost consciousness. I hoped my child was okay as I slowly fell into total darkness.
The next thing I knew was waking up with beeping sounds in a distance. I didn't know where I am or what was happening, I just knew I felt pain in my stomach.
"Tara, can you hear me?" I heard the doctor's voice slowly coming nearer and I fully opened my eyes. "How are you feeling?" She asked and I pointed to my stomach.
"My… my… child." I managed to say and the look on her face told me everything I needed to know. I shook my head in denial as my whole world came crashing down.
"I'm sorry Tara, your fall affected the child and the child couldn't make it." She said to e and tears rolled down my eyes. This couldn't be happening. The slightest hope I had to hold on to was gone, again. "I told you about Carlos, Tara. If you've listened, maybe your child would still be alive now."
She helped me sit up before walking out of the room. I couldn't believe my life just turned out like this. I was starting to think I was cursed with a life of loss and sorrow.
I sat there crying for what felt like hours before I heard a gentle knock on the door. Stella was standing there with a small basket with her and a bothered look.
"Sweetheart." She said as she walked in, pulling me into a hug. "I heard what happened. I am so sorry. Don't worry, I'm here for you okay?"
"Why, Stella. Why?" I said as I sobbed in her arms. "Why do I have to live like this, why do I have to be the only one this is happening to? If you want to say you told me, go ahead and say so."
"Of course not sweetheart." She said, patting my back gently. "You've gone through enough already but I still think it's time to leave Carlos now. I can't keep watching him hurt you and keep quiet."
"But I have nowhere to go. I have no one to turn to." I replied and she patted my hair.
"I'm always here for you, Tara. You can come stay with me till you find a job and settle down." She offered but I couldn't say anything, I just continued sobbing. I needed a break from Carlos and his house really. "I can also get a job for you from my boss if you like. Anything that will take your mind off Carlos for now."
"I would really appreciate that." I finally said, moving away from her embrace. She wiped my tears away with a small smile.
"I brought you food and some fruits. The doctor said you can have them if you're able to eat them." She said, bringing out a bowl of food for me to eat.
"Thank you so much, Stella. What would I do without you?" I said, cleaning the rest of my tears. Although I still felt pain in my stomach, I was really hungry at the same time.
I slowly ate as my mind went all over the place. I wondered what the gender of my lost child would have been, how would my child look like? Will the child look a lot like me? As I thought about this, tears rolled down from my cheeks again and Stella sighed.
"Come on sweetheart, don't cry now. I'm sure your baby will be safe wherever it is. Your child would be very proud of you if you don't hurt yourself more." She said and I nodded my head gently.
I wanted to know what every single emotion my father told me about back then felt like with a child, but now, Carlos made that all impossible. Anger surged through my body but I calmed myself. He was never worth it in the first place.
I'm done trying to make this relationship work while all he does is try to pull it apart. "I'll be back." Stella said as she walked out of the room.
Then, the nurse walked in with some tray of medications. "When will I leave the hospital?" I asked her and she looked at the data on her clipboard before replying.
"Tomorrow ma'am, if you are okay to go." She said and I nodded.
I wanted to leave Carlos for good. Once I move in with Stella, I would prepare the divorce and send it to him. I had enough evidence of my weekly attendant in the hospital to show as proof of assault.
The annoying part was that, he didn't even come here to check how I was doing after he clearly was the cause of my child's death.
After the nurse left the room, Stella quickly rushed in and picked her bags. "I have to go, sweetheart. There's an emergency at work. I will check up on you tomorrow." She didn't allow me to say anything again, she just rushed out of the room and I let out a sigh.
I couldn't wait for tomorrow to come so I could give Carlos a piece of my mind. I sat there in bed in tears as I kept remembering the fact that I just lost a child I spent years seeking for.
Morning came, and I didn't even wait for anyone to come pick me up, I packed the drugs I've been given and headed home straight away.
The door was left open so I easily entered the house and I wondered why he didn't close the door at all. As soon as I step in, I could feel the presence of someone else. A strange perfume I've never heard of.
I walked up the stairs leading to the room and my world started to crumble when I heard cries of pleasure and moans coming from the room. I didn't want to believe that Carlos was having sex with another woman while he was still married to me.
I pushed the slightly opened door open and I blood drained from my face as I saw my husband on another woman and the other woman was no one but my own best friend.
I fell to the ground on my knees and just then, the two of them noticed me. "How could you." I said in between my tears. "I trusted you Stella, how could you do this to me."
"I did nothing to you." She rolled her eyes as she stood from the bed. "I was only doing your husband a favour and satisfying him more than you ever would have thus past one year he's been having me."
As she said that, I slapped her hard and Carlos rushed over to her to check up on her. "You witch. I would have trusted you with my life, but this is how you treat me? By betraying me?"
"Do you think I ever cared? I only wanted you man and he wanted me back so I took what should be mine. You shouldn't be the one to have everything." She screamed and I laughed.
"Everything? Of course, that's what you will say, that I have everything. You are nothing but a…"
"That's enough, Tara." Carlos yelled angrily as he walked over to the closet and flung a couple of documents at me. "Sign the papers and get the fuck out of my house this instant. Your bags are downstairs already."
"Oohhh, so this is how it will be now right? No problem." I said with tears rolling down my eyes. "All I ever did was love you with all my heart, Carlos. Despite all your abuse, I stayed with you for five years. All you lay me with is killing my child and sleeping with someone I thought was my friend."
"Do I look like I care? And that child isn't mine. I never wanted a child with you so I got vasectomy." He scoffed and hearing that, my already crashed world turned into dust.
Since all these years, I've been crying and wanting to feel loved by him, thinking I would get it by havinya child, not knowing he doesn't even want a child from me?
I nodded my head gently with a pained smile as I signed the papers. I didn't say a word and just left them to whatever they were doing and I rolled my luggage out of the house.
So I have only been a fool all these while, without knowing. I looked at my time and it was barely 5am. That even meant she slept over with him.
He has brought bothinybut bad luck to me. During my marriage to him, I became an orphan, became weak and was easily used.
I slowly walked out of the estate, not looking at where I was going. Suddenly I heard the sound of a car screeching and before I could turn my head, something hit me.