Chapter 9
ERICA'S POV
I woke up and the first thing I felt was pains down there, I cried bitterly as memories of what happened started flooding in my head. I cried the more when I realized how battered and unkempt I was looking and how dirty the bed was. I looked at my right hand side and saw the napkin with which he stuffed my mouth with and couldn't help but feel sorrowful.
With tear filled eyes and wobbly legs, I stood up from the bed and entered the bathroom to freshen up. On entering the bathroom, the first thing I noticed was my face. It was swollen and still had his five fingers mark glued to it like a leech. I felt disgusted with myself and with him as I quickly freshen up and await his arrival.
Soon after, he entered smiling victoriously and probably happy with himself. “Who do we have here?” “My beautiful Luna of course!.” He answered himself the same way he had asked the question. I acted like I didn't noticed his presence and snubbed him. He moved closer to me and I screamed at him: “don't touch me!” “ju-just leave me alone.!” I said with tear filled eyes. His voice then turned gentle as he stopped making attempts to touch me.
“My beautiful Luna, I know you are very annoyed with me at the moment and I really won't blame you, but I had no choice than to do it, I was annoyed and acted out of anger, moreover, I noticed that you preferred alpha Dante over me, I couldn't stand that and just had to do what I did maybe, just maybe… well.. to punish and make you want me no matter what.” I said with a calm voice.
I looked at him and was dumbstruck. Why did a cruel and proud Alpha like him start explaining himself to people. What dirty game is he trying to play now. A voice whispered at the back of my head. I prefer Alpha Dante over you and would continue choosing him over you! He's better than you in every way possible, he doesn't abuse me. In any case, he respects my decision and treats me like a queen. But you? All I have ever received from you is abuse, different sorts of abuses and you want me to be head over heels in love with you? No I can't. I said in anger and he left the room without speaking a word which left me worried because it's unlike him.
I was still shocked about his action earlier but decided not to think about it. He has a selfish reason for doing that I'm sure, he's too cruel to be genuinely sober. I sat down and thought about Alpha Dante as I reminisced about our sweet moments together. I made up my mind right there and then to leave the bluemoon pack. I don't know how to go about it but I know I would do it, somehow,anyhow.
I thought about the first time we met,too. How he had discovered that I was his mate but I wasn't able to recognize him as my mate, no sign, nothing at all. I can't help but think about it right now because it is actually a thing of concern. I thanked the moon goddess for giving me a second chance after my woeful rejection with my first mate, Alpha Carl. I also can't help but feel a bit stupid about how I took his rejection and how I shamelessly begged him despite the public humiliation he made of me that day.
I justified my stupid actions by telling myself it was because of how I was then, naive, lonely, isolated, and abandoned. That was why I didn't take it well. I thought about the strange hooded woman and couldn't help but wonder who she is, where she came from and how she got to know about all the things she told me. My curiosity stirred up immediately as I vowed to find out who she is.
Alpha Arnold's thought came to mind again and I couldn't help but feel the disappointment and betrayal once again. What could have made him sell her out like that? What happened? Is there some kind of business or deal between them? Did Alpha Arnold know about Alpha Logan's plans before selling her out? My mind was clouded with these numerous questions twirling in my mind and just then, Alpha Logan entered the room. I wondered where he had gone earlier though.
He entered the room, smiled at me for the first time ever and moved closer to me. “I would lift the restriction order I placed on you only on one condition, you would pretend to be in love with me, just for today, and would cooperate and accept anything I do or try to do to you without complaining or crying.. deal?” He asked with a smirk while I just continued staring at him trying to figure out why he was suddenly being nice.
“Wha-what if you try to kill me?” I asked and saw a flash of anger cross his face for a second. “What do you mean by that?” “I would have had you killed the moment I got to know about your affairs with my son but I choose not to, so why would I do that now?” He asked and smiled, showing two elongated teeth. I looked at his teeth,surprised. While growing up, an Alpha's teeth elongating by itself signifies lust and obsession to their partner's bodies.
Right there and then I realized that he was just obsessed with my body and nothing more, nothing less. I accepted the deal and we had a slow, sensual and the most wonderful sex we've ever had together. And although I enjoyed it, I still prefer every moment with Alpha Dante. The feeling is totally different every single time and can't be compared with Alpha Logan's at all. Every moment with Alpha Dante is magical.
He got up from the bed, smiling. He dressed up ,went outside and said some things I couldn't hear to his guards and came back in saying:”see? I have lifted the restriction order.” he said, smiling.