Unforgettable Reflection
The first thing that I realised in the morning i was being yelled at. With half open eyes I looked at Mike who was currently throwing a fit. I took a pillow from the side and stuffed my head under it. I tried to drift into sleep again despite him screaming at me on the top of his lungs. Can't a girl get a peaceful sleep? Bold of me to assume my life was anything but peaceful. He moved further into the room and yanked my pillow. I groaned sleepily.
"GET YOUR ASS UP ISABELLA GRACE",his voice screeched in my ears. I almost fell from my bed. Finally opening my eyes i looked at a fuming Tyler and a worried Audrey by his side.
"Do you have any idea what I had to go through last night! I almost had a cardiac arrest thinking I let you escape!" He yelled again. I half listened to it trying my best to shut off his voice and go back to sleep.
"I told you not to move but when i came back you weren't there. I almost pissed my pants thinking what Toby would do if he knows I lost you. I sent out an entire search team to search for you. I stayed out all night searching for you like a lunatic, when i finally gained the guts to face Toby, he tells me that you're sleeping in your room! Seriously?" He threw his hands up in the air.
I tried to hide behind my blanket. I imagined him as a cartoon animation with smoke coming out of his nose and ears. I peaked at him slowly from behind the blanket.
"How is it my fault that you assumed i ran away?", I said innocently.
"Just tell me where did you disappear last night?",he gritted through his teeth.
Events of last night started flashing vaguely in my mind. Party, steph helping me escape, someone trying to kill me, my head at gunpoint, fighting him, crying........Toby..
I remember how I was clutching his shirt as I cried. How he was holding me. Was it all a dream? I looked down at my bandaged hand which is proof every single bit of last night was real. He was real. I wasn't imagining shit. At the very last came the most pathetic memory of me begging him to stay with me and him being the most egoistic son of a bitch walking out of my room.
I squeezed my eyes shut in self abasement. How could i be so stupid. I let myself get caught up in the bewilderment of a few moments and forgot who he was. Why did I let myself break in front of him? Why did I let him see how weak I was! How did I expect comfort from him? Why was my mind gone?
What I did last night was the most embarrassing and dumbest thing. I lined every cuss words I've known in my mind and showered them on myself. A few of them at Toby for being so cold and arrogant. Audrey stepped in and sank herself down on my bed.
"Mike can you calm down for heaven's sake. I swear I've never seen someone more dramatic than you. The girl just woke up give her some time dimwit.", she then looked at me and smiled. Aaahhh, I really missed being around someone nice.
"Yeah you're right. My brain doesn't even function for thirty minutes when i wake up in the morning.", I joked as I dragged myself up in bed. She giggled and Mike shot me a glare.
"Did I mention that i hadn't got a single drop of sleep last night because of you! Now tell me where did you go last night?", Mike asked me accusingly.
"Yeah where were you? I was worried too." Audrey asked me with a hint of concern in her eyes.
What do I tell them? Oh sorry I actually had to take my pet fish for a walk?
"I was in my bedroom.", I decided to say a white lie. Audrey frowned her eyebrows.
"Don't lie. We checked your bedroom, you weren't here.", Mike gritted. Man! Then couldn't you have checked the hallways too? I mentally rolled my eyes. Why am i feeling so inevitably ashamed of saying that i was with Toby? I don't wanna recall him. Let's throw him away from the universe of my mind.
"Does anyone care to ask me for breakfast? I am super hungry. I didn't even get to eat last night.", thinking I was too busy trying not to die last night. Mike was tired he did not push the matter any further, he went away.
"Yeah I'm bringing our breakfasts here. I'm mad at Mike so I'm not gonna be around him Audrey chirped happily.
A few minutes later Audrey brought in food and we ate our food in my bed. Ah, it was a pretty good morning, i thought. Until Audrey started spilling everything that happened last night and why she was mad at Mike.
Apparently some 'wicked witch' she said, had fed Mike bullshit about how she was going to cheat him with this other guy in the party which got Mike mad jealous.
"Can you believe it he threatened the poor guy saying he'll chop his balls off. Like who even says that! I was just talking. Just because i date Mike doesn't mean i can't have friends.", Audrey huffed dramatically.
"Definitely i agree", I said with a mouthful of food.
"And it's all because of some stupid bitch", she cursed. I almost choked on my food.
"Yeah, i wonder who that stupid bitch is." I chuckled nervously.
"Yep, me too", she nodded. We gossiped for a good hour.
Talking with her feels so good. I used to have a best friend before all this hurricane in my life. Alisa was my roommate. For some strange reason every time I see Steph i remember Alisa. They look so much alike. Their hazel eyes, blonde hair, the sassiness and attitude. But Alisa is like a less rude and kinder version of Steph, if that makes sense But i can never be friends with Steph that's for sure. I really hoped Audrey would stay here, she makes me feel a lot better unlike Steph who is always hostile towards me for some odd reasons i don't know yet.
Something clicked in my mind again, why did she help me last night. It's really hard to believe she did what she did. I hadn't expected anything from her. Hmm, maybe she is not that bad? Maybe her bad attitude is just in her nature. I mean, I can one hundred percent side with that because i myself have a resting bitch face all the time. Anyone who will see me from afar will feel like i am unapproachable and mean. But what can i say? It's just the way I prefer to stay.
I wouldn't say this is exactly bad because it has saved me from a lot of unwanted boy attention. In college there were so many boys i knew who had a crush on me but they never really had the guts to approach me because i looked like i could kill men in a hundred different ways, well Alisa said that, not my words. She says that i look alarmingly beautiful and quite intimidating, with all that i just created a dangerous demeanor. Well now i want to laugh at that because if i have a dangerous demeanor then what will she say when she meets Toby? He's a goddamn Demon.
In reality i root for having friends. Alisa is my only friend and I happen to stir clear from any groups, i don't hangout with people. Because I fear people. And for some obvious reason every aspect of my life was restricted. I was always an alone kid and a bookish type. I find that books are a lot more better than humans. Silent comfort.
But honestly meeting Audrey, Mike, Daniel has made a change. I remember how terrified i was the first day i was here. But now i think they are not bad. Audrey is almost my friend. Daniel is nice, almost brotherly. Mike is a crazy guy but him too makes me laugh and feel good in his own ways.
I stayed in my room the whole day. There was no way I was ready to see Toby. Not after how i embarrassed myself last night. I am so freaking tired that i didn't even wanna think about last night, thinking means overthinking, then self criticizing, then wanting to die of shame. I have plenty of other useless things to do. But somehow my mind went back to him again and over again.
Get out of my head Toby I am merciless and an arrogant stingy ass' Knight.
How am i supposed to act around him now? How the hell is he gonna act around me now? Is he going to act nice and caring like last night? Would that mean he pity me? If yes then would I actually want him to act nice because I sure as hell don't want pity. Or would he go back to ignoring me like before.
Or he would start jumping on my throat again? God this guy was confusing! Like so damn confusing. It's so hard to read him. He's so unpredictable. You never know what goes on in his devious mind.
A part of me wanted to hide from him. Another part of me wanted to grab him by collar and ask him why he did what he did last night. Both things you know? Being caring and being an ass. I want answers. I want to ask him to let me go. He is frustrating me. A question that you got bored of me asking but as long as i don't get answers i will keep repeating 'why did he abduct me?
I marched out of my room to find him. Well pretty much, I'm not sure because as soon as i get a look at him my knees always start to quiver and every time I forget about my feisty side. I forget about wanting to strangle him. Who wouldn't? He carries power with his presence. Just the way he walks, talks, narrows his eyes or glares. You can't blame me for melting like a jello in front of him. I mean i have no doubt he will easily pull a bullet through my skull without any second thoughts. Maybe? Maybe not? Why would he care?