Nightmare part 1
During the way back home, Dad and I didn't exchange a single word and I confess that I wasn't even interested in hearing his voice at that moment. I closed my eyes as I put on some music and smiled as I remembered what had happened moments ago when I met Jordan.
Arriving home, I ran up to my room without giving John the chance to explain. I didn't want to think about anything else but him, the boy with crystal clear green eyes. I undressed and went to the shower to try to relax a little and, even so, my thoughts were constant. I had confessed to him, and now I was confused, feeling so stupid for having shown myself like that to him. And I didn't even really know him. I didn't know if the moment I turned my back, he would have laughed at me and thought I was stupid for acting like that. But at the same time, when he touched my face and brought our foreheads together, it felt like he was going to kiss me, and it felt so right to give me away. Did I do it right? Wasn't I too hasty in declaring myself like that? My head was showing signs that it would hurt if I continued thinking about it, because I would only know the truth when I saw him again, and I didn't even believe it would happen. All I ask is for it to be God's will. I took out my cell phone to look at the photo I had of my mother, at least he didn't take the phone from me. I looked at her photo and smiled, feeling my eyes water and my chest tighten. If Mom were still alive, would everything be different? Would Dad be a good father? These are unanswered questions, questions that I will never know are real.
I was almost asleep when Sophie started calling me.
Active Voice Call:
"Sophie, are you okay?" I asked.
"Hi Ju, how are you?" says my friend.
"A little confused, sad that my father slapped me in the face and friend, I never imagined he would do that." she said, and I could feel my eyes burning, I was going to cry once again.
"I know friend, I was surprised too." says Sophie.
"Did you see?' I asked, confused because she wasn't with us.
"Yes, I was going to look for you, as Jordan said he went to get a drink and left it in the garden waiting for him, so I kind of saw everything." he confesses.
"It hurts a lot, you know… It's all so strange," I told her.
“Hey, don’t be like that. You know that I will always be there to help you, Julie.” She smiled upon hearing her words.
“Thank you for everything, Sophie, you are the sister I never had.” I confess to her once again.
“I know, you silly girl... Even though I already have super annoying brothers, I love you so much more.” she says, laughing.
“Not at all convinced!” I say to her, and she stays silent for a few seconds.
“Look, I have news!” she said excitedly.
"What?" I said halfheartedly.
“Wow, what a thrill, huh!” she says, and I roll my eyes “Then I’m not even going to say the message they sent…” she said, wanting to blackmail me and succeeding.
“No Sophie! Tell me what you are, for God’s sake!” I said as I got out of bed.
“He wants to see you.” my smile grew, as I knew exactly who she was talking about.
"What?" my heart started to beat quickly.
“Jordan wants to see you Julie!” says my friend, and I laugh.
“My God, but I can’t leave the house.” I speak feeling that tightness, which saddens the soul.
“I’ll find a way, I’ll help you.” I love this girl so much.
“Sophie, I love you, I really do, I really love you!” I thanked her.
"I know," she says.
“Dad said that when he arrives tomorrow morning, he will talk to me.” I told her.
“So here’s what you do. When you have this conversation, call me and tell me what happened if he banned you from going out with me for a while. Try to probe the area and discover something in this conversation. Only then will it be easier for me to help you,” she says.
“Okay, well then I’m going to sleep. I’ll call you tomorrow and tell you everything.” I said.
“Okay my friend, stay with God and look, dream with me, or better yet, with Jordan.” We laughed and ended our call.
I turned off my cell phone and went to sleep, and like Sophie said, I dreamed about Jordan. In my dream, I saw that he and I were together and happy, but suddenly my father appeared. I don't know where he came from, but with his presence around us, I noticed that Jordan started to move away from me. His face was dark, his features were hard. He was hurt, with a sad look and meanwhile I screamed, cried, called for him, but nothing from him came back to me. Those crystalline eyes moved further and further away from me, as he walked backwards, my father took me forward, took me away. I swear I tried to escape, but Dad had enormous strength in his hands and it was all in vain. When I looked for Jordan's eyes once again, I didn't find them, I only saw the shadow of his body far from me. It was so distressing that I began to despair. I screamed for help and no one helped me. That feeling was destroying me.
“Julie! Julie! Wake up child, what happened?” I looked up and saw Claire looking at me worriedly.
“I had a horrible nightmare!” She said, drying her tears.
“Child, don’t be like that, it was just a nightmare.” She said, hugging me.
“I know, but it felt so real, you know, I felt lost...” I trusted Claire, but I couldn't tell her. I know she was like a second mother to me, but I also know she would tell me. To my father at the first opportunity.
”Well, there’s no need to tell. I understand if it feels safer to keep this. I just came to ask you to go have her coffee, and let you know that her father is waiting for you in the office.” she says very seriously.
“Okay, I’ll just take a shower, brush my teeth, and I’ll be right down.” I said and remove the cover from my body and walked to the bathroom inside my room.
“Yes little one, don’t delay.” She placed a kiss on my face and left shortly after.
I went into the bathroom and did my morning hygiene. I took a quick shower and then grabbed some comfortable clothes and got dressed and went downstairs straight away. Claire made my favorite smoothie. She also made chocolate-covered waffles.