Fleeing Shadows, Seeking Light

Ashina

“Just check if my baby is fine, that is all I ask of you, it shouldn't be that hard '' said Lobo, I had just gained consciousness, and his voice was the first sound to cast me into severe depression.

Everything about him made me sick to my stomach. I could feel his plan on my face, gently pushing my hair to the side like he gave a damn if I was alive and well.

At least he cared for something that concerned me. For years now, all he cared about was himself and his urges, this leadership and the people's end of the bargain. He fed on their praises, and he bred him into an egotistical man.

He leaned forward, placing a kiss on my forehead. I could feel my wolf wining in disgust, but I held a straight face, not wanting to pay attention to myself. The last thing I wanted was his fake attention, the fake affection he wouldn't dare show me when we were alone together.

“Get well my love” he said, placing a kiss on my lips, my barrier almost broke as I forced the warm puke down my throat before he noticed the strains on my face, in no time, he was facing the door, and after a few words with the physician, he left the room.

Once again, I was left alone to wallow in my sadness.

“When are you going to free yourself from this torture”, Nala whispered.

“Maybe—”

“Keep making excuses, until his premise becomes an allergy, which i can already tell is not far. Go back home, you don't have to be his wife to be a healer, you can still heal and choose your path, Ashina,” she said, totally frustrated about my reluctance to hear what she had to say.

My mind was filled with the last scene before I blacked out. I was about saving Zeeb, and he went to join the border wolves and, because of my park, he had suffered so much pain.

“Ashina, you need to tell Lobo you need to go home, he will protect your park and protect his child. What's the guarantee he won't beat you up and your child too? Is this the life you prayed for? Do you want your first son or daughter to hate their father or do you want them to like who their father is?”

My heartfelt heart was heavy inside my chest, but I remained calm, unable to let out a scream, totally immobilized by the sedating drugs. I could only stare at the blurry ceiling as I fought to stay awake, but then I felt another presence in the room.

My instinct felt it was lobo, so I closed my eyes as though I wasn't awake All while.

But soon i felt his presence even stronger as he pulled closer. It was Zeeb.

His pheromones always had a way of making me nervous, his aura was uncanny and as he came even closer to me, I needed to add more effort into keeping calm than pretending to be asleep.

“I know you are not asleep, you can't pretend to be Ashina” he said in the most baritone voice. My eyes flew open. As he said those words, In mere seconds, I was gawking at him.

“Ze—Zeeb” I stuttered

Before he came in, I was already crying and seeing him I had to clean the tears dry.

“Hey, you look well. I am sorry for making you save waterstone. We are forever in your debt.”

His eyes grew even darker and more fierce, as he walked closer to me, I adjusted. on my bed, not wanting him to know how much he affected me, but it was all useless as he stepped closer to my bed.

His pupils dilated as he stated at the sore on my face, he had seen lobo beat me, and in those times he was quiet, he never said anything but now laying beside him, I couldn't help but see the utmost concern in his eyes when he said.

“Get well soon, Luna “

He pinched my cheek slightly then moved backward, my hopes fell right through as I watched him go outside, and just then my wolf took over my mind again.

I had frustrated her enough, and she wasn't having it.

We stayed in bed a little bit longer than expected, but I began to feel the familiar stiffness in my heart again, followed by the howling sound of my wolf within me.

Lobo was having sex again, he was ramming into another lady.

My world came to a freezing spot as the pain was only increasing. The higher the pain, the more passionate and intimate lobo got with the person he was having sex with.

All the time I was married to him, I never asked him who he chose to have sex with, or why.

But seeing he went back to having sex, the moment he was out of the room weakened my wolf.

He didn't care that I was with his child and my baby was in danger of being emotionally inclined and might not be as strong as a wolf his age.

He did not care that I was weaker, and I fainted from losing blood, but he chose to please himself, and I was supposed to pull through like I have always done.

“Keep making excuses for him till you die, and you are replaced by any lady in the park,” Nala said about this and went about quietly. Now I was left with a wet eye, a broken heart and a baby for a man's whore.

I stood on the bed, my room was lonely and everything with a sharp end looked like my redeemer to be among the stars that very evening, but I ignored it then took a short walk down the hallway.

Just a few steps away from my room I began to hear moaning noises. It was that of lobo and the woman he was banging on with all his might.

My heart began to rise even faster as I took to my feet, running away as fast as I could.

“Run, you coward.”