Life of a Human Nurse
The hospital was a place of organized chaos, a delicate dance of life and death that the nurse had grown used to after a few years on the job. It buzzed with the usual hum of activity. The faint beeping of monitors, the shuffle of nurses' shoes on waxed floors, and the low murmur of patients filled the air. Leandra moved through it all with practiced ease, her hands swiftly adjusting IV drips, medication administered, wound dressing changed, documentation completed, med cart disinfected and stocked, and all narcotics accounted for and charts checked. Her mind was on autopilot, her steps automatic, as she was preoccupied with this sense that something about today was different. Something felt different, and she couldn't tell what it was, but it was like the air was charged with tension that she couldn't quite shake off. This shift had been particularly draining, and all she wanted was to get home, take a long shower, and collapse into bed.
This was her life, fast-paced shifts and long hours, predictable for the most part with the occasional surprise but nothing she hadn't dealt with before or couldn't handle. Overall, most days were exhausting but fulfilling.
Yet, something gnawed at the edges of her thoughts today. Like a persistent itch at the back of her mind that she just couldn't reach.
It wasn't the patients today—though there had been plenty of them, from the cute elderly couple with pneumonia to the young child recovering from a tracheotomy surgery. No, it was something else. Something she couldn't quite name but had felt creeping up on her for weeks now. Small, unexplainable things. Things that made her question her own sanity at times.
Her natural dark curls, usually soft and full of life, pulled back into a loose bun, stray baby hairs frizzing out from her edges against her smooth, ebony skin. She smoothed down the front of her baby blue fig scrubs that hugged her curves. Her ID was attached to the right pocket of her top, and her pants, which had multiple pockets, held all her pens, thermometer, little sticky notes, and other little necessities she needed throughout the shift. As she paused to adjust the stethoscope around her neck, she took a moment at the end of this shift to go gaze out of one of the windows of the breakroom that overlooked the parking lot.
The sun was just beginning to set, casting long shadows and beautiful red and blue hues across the parking lot below. This was one of her favorite views from the hospital, especially after a particularly long shift. It gave her a moment to decompress and bring her back down from the high of having to be quick on her feet all day. It gave her a semblance of peace in a place that didn't allow for any, with never-ending work.
As she gazed at the sun beginning to set, Marie, one of her closest colleagues and also her nursing supervisor, came to stand beside her, nursing a cup of coffee.
Marie was taller than her, with tan skin and striking hazel eyes that always seemed to gleam with mischief. Her dark brown hair was pulled into a neat ponytail on top of her head, and despite the late hour, she looked remarkably put together, as if the chaos of the hospital never entirely managed to touch her. She was one of those people who always thrived under pressure, always cracking jokes and making light of stressful situations. She was always able to keep her calm and be in control of any situation. That's what made her such a good supervisor and friend.
"You look like you need one of these; it's been a bit of a busy and rough day, "Marie said, offering to pour her a cup of coffee.
Leandra smiled gratefully, declining the coffee but requesting a cup of hot tea instead. She had never been much of a coffee drinker but an avid tea drinker. She'd pretty much drink any flavored tea, but her favorite was Butterfly pea flower tea; she loved the vibrant blue and violet color the tea would turn, the earthy taste it held, and how it helped relieve stress and enhance mood—something she needed especially after a particularly long work week.
Marie obliged and poured her a cup of tea. After accepting the drink, Leandra added four packets of sugar and two packets of creamer, adjusting it to her liking. "Just long," she replied, rubbing the back of her neck. "Feels like time is moving slower today, and the constant ringing and buzzing that seems never-ending from the call bells are starting to bring on a migraine ."
Marie chuckled. "It always feels like that when you're nearing the end of a sixteen-hour shift. You know, sometimes I feel like I can hear the call bells in my dreams."
Leandra laughed and nodded absently, her eyes still drifting out the window as she sipped her tea. "Yeah, that's probably it." But even as she said it, she couldn't shake the sensation that something was off—not with the hospital, but with her. For as long as she could remember, there had been moments where she felt out of place as if she didn't fully belong in her world. It wasn't a strong feeling; it was more like a subtle feeling, just always bubbling beneath the surface, waiting for the right moment and biding its time before it finally bubbled over the surface.