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Chapter 6

The room seemed to shrink even more as I stood in the corner, watching the two figures who hated each other argue. Jade, with his glowing white wings, looked so majestic and powerful. On the other hand, Junigo, with his black wings that seemed to glitter in the dim light, had a deadly charm. The two stood face to face, like two poles that could never come together, ready to finish each other off.

I don't know what worried me more than the fact that I was in the middle of their fight, or the fact that they both claimed me as their own. It was Dean and it wasn't me, it was because now I was trapped inside that man's body.

It's so similar because even though I'm being fought over by them, what they're really fighting over is Dean, and since my looks or whatever it is that they want, it must be Dean's and not mine.

Jade gave Junigo a hateful look. "A pathetic creature like you doesn't deserve a human as noble as Dean," he said, his voice low but sharp. "He'll never want you and you'll never deserve him."

Junigo just snorted, crossing his arms over his chest. The sardonic smile on his face made my hair stand on end. "How confident you are, Jade," he said. "Are you too stupid to think that my kiss with Dean just now is one more proof that Dean wants me as his 'owner'? You stupid, old-fashioned angel."

I was stunned at his words. As if that kiss was proof that I or rather, Dean had chosen Junigo. But it wasn't a choice. It was more like a trap, a temptation that I couldn't rid myself of. Yet, somehow, Junigo's words made me feel... dirty.

Yeah, doesn't that make me look like a bitch thirsting for touch? It's ridiculous even though it's fun.

Jade clearly couldn't stand hearing those words. His face was flushed with anger, and the aura around him heated up with an almost unbearable intensity. "Filthy demon!" He exclaimed, his voice echoing in the room. "You better realise your mistake before I stab you with the sacred weapons of the celestial palace of Aetheris. I have twelve spears if you want to taste everything."

Junigo's eyes narrowed, but the smile on his face only widened. "It'll be fun," he said in a mocking tone, "just don't make me laugh at the little touch of that thing you call a spear. In fact, it's no more powerful than my dinner fork in the palace of Abyssaroth."

Jade paused for a moment, his face turning even angrier. His wings flapped violently, beating the air around him. "You're really brave, Junigo. You think that by flirting with a human, you can win his heart? Dean isn't a puppet you can play with at will!"

Junigo chuckled, a low-sounding but hateful laugh. "Who said I was playing with him? Dean chose me consciously, you're just jealous because you can't compete with me."

I could feel both of their emotions getting the better of them. The temperature in the room seemed to change, the air was getting tense, full of energy ready to explode at any moment. I wanted to scream, wanted to stop them, but the voice in my throat seemed to be choked by the fear I felt. They were talking about me or rather Dean as if I wasn't a human with free will. They were fighting over me, without really thinking about how I felt.

Jade leaned closer, his hands raised as if ready to strike Junigo. "Dean is a pure soul, he doesn't deserve to be by the side of a demon like you. I will protect him, even if it means destroying you."

"Protect him?" Junigo taunted, his voice getting louder. "You're no better than me, Jade. You want to 'protect' him by imprisoning him under your stupid rules. At least I offer freedom. I offer a life of passion and adventure, not the solitude you call 'protection'."

I stared at them in horror. They didn't hear me, didn't think about what I was really thinking or feeling. I was just an object in the centre of their ego battle. I, who wasn't Dean, who wasn't supposed to be here, felt trapped in this body, in this world, with two beings who hated each other for something I didn't even fully understand.

"Your so-called freedom is just a front to manipulate and control!" Jade retorted, his voice now filled with deep anger. "Dean deserves genuine love, not lust wrapped in dirty magic!"

Junigo smiled coldly. "And you think angel love is better? A boring, colourless, rule-filled love? You really don't know what Dean wants, Jade. You don't even know what he needs. That human has great passion, and it suits us demons perfectly."

I couldn't stand hearing them talk like this anymore. Their words pierced my ears, making my heart heavier and heavier. Their every sentence distanced me more and more from reality, making me feel more and more helpless. As they continue to argue about who deserves me more, or rather Dean more. No one cared about who I really was. No one really listened to me.

I couldn't help the feelings that were building up inside my chest. Their arguments, the anger that kept overflowing, it all made me feel more and more trapped. I could no longer hear my own inner voice, let alone find a way out of this situation.

Unconsciously, tears began to flow from my eyes. Suddenly, unable to hold back any longer, I stood up from my spot and shouted, my voice filled with despair. "Will you guys stop?!"

The two creatures instantly fell silent. Their eyes turned to me, surprised at the tears that were now streaming down my face. I bit my lip, trying to hold back a sob, but couldn't. "If you're just here to argue about useless things... you'd better leave!"

My voice was trembling, barely recognisable as my own. The words just came out, fuelled by a feeling of frustration that I could no longer contain. I didn't belong to anyone. But they kept treating me as if I was a doll that they could fight over. And now, I could no longer hold back the anger and sadness raging inside my heart.

It's actually quite strange when viewed logically, but I also don't understand why I'm like this.

Junigo was silent, his sharp red eyes suddenly softening at the sight of the tears streaming down my face. Jade didn't say anything either. His face that was usually full of firmness and strength now seemed to recede, as if he had just realised how painful this situation was for me.

They both looked so guilty. Even Junigo, who was usually always full of arrogance and mockery, looked confused. He stepped back, looking at me as if he had just realised that I wasn't just the object of their struggle.

"Dean... I...," Junigo began, but his voice no longer sounded arrogant. There was a sense of regret there. "I didn't mean to hurt you."

Jade, who was usually so full of sense of righteousness, also bowed his head. "I'm sorry, Dean. I just wanted to protect you."

I didn't answer them. My heart was too heavy, and I was too tired to deal with their feelings. All I wanted was calm-a place where I could think, could understand who I was and what was really going on. I couldn't keep being in the middle of this fight, couldn't keep being treated like a toy.

Seeing my expression filled with sadness and exhaustion, Junigo finally withdrew completely. "We... will leave," he said quietly. "We don't want to cause you more harm."

Jade looked at me once more, before finally nodding. "We'll give you some time."

Without another word, the two disappeared from the room, leaving me in silence. I stood there, alone, with tears still streaming down my face, feeling as if the whole world was getting further away from me.

I took a deep breath, trying to calm myself down. But the feeling of emptiness and confusion still filled my mind. I had to find a way out of all this. I had to go back to being myself as Jou Porska.

It's strange, whereas in my life in the human world I was so happy with sensual things and fought over by others as if they were obsessed with me, but here I've turned 180 degrees. Is this because of the innate nature of the body owner? It could be Dean's true nature.

This really makes me suffer even more.

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