Chapter 1: The thought of him

Alan's POV

Somber music played as I glanced at the window.

The sky was tar-black and the large clouds were moving towards me.

I heard a tapping on the window and then it became a pitter-patter.

People ran for cover outside and umbrellas were opened as the clouds spat out their beads of water.

Puddles began plinking as the rainfall became heavier.

The roofs of the cars danced with spray and I could hear the murmuring of the rain through the window.

It sounded like the buzzing of angry bees.

All I could think of is him. I told him to stay away for a reason but then, why do I feel this way?

The smell of coffee hits my nose. It was his favorite, having to just sit alone and think of the memories we'd spend together.

The coffee I had prepared earlier was adjacent him, sitting on the table and perhaps wondering if i'd touch it.

I returned to the dining table across me, cold and lonely like a heavy weight was on me.

My mind was void of thoughts. My eyes travelled to the phone that laid on the table, beside the mug of coffee.

I was nervous, awaiting his calls, my heart throbs as goosebumps held me.

It was hard trying not feel interested when I anticipate to see.

The rain made the world around me feel dreary, soggy, and depressing, sapping energy and vitality.

We were never meant to be together. It hits hard but sometimes it's best to let someone go.

It wasn't love at first sight, I was the boss, he was the bodyguard. The cold and sturdy who frightens people away from me.

I only grew interest in him when he laid down his life for me, during a parade.

I almost almost hit by a hired assassin and he saved me, taking the bullet for me.

He seems as one who'd have no love interest as he look dead serious.

Sometimes, he makes me fret with that devilish gaze of his. He was handsome and anyone would fall for him.

His charisma, he was the only one that could tame me, go against my will and I got so attached to him that the emotion came crawling in.

I fell so deeply in love that I thought I was going insane.

He was the only one who made my heart fluster in a long while. His cooky smile, his husky voice.

Whenever I'd almost given up, his encouragement jolts me back to strive.

He made me realize I was special but then, it's a sheraid.

Everything about him filled my head.

Perhaps, I was just confused about my emotions too. I tried so hard to forget him but it's not working.

Loving is hard, it don't always work, I just try my best not to get hurt.

I use to close to my eyes and pray for a moment when everything would be fine between us.

However, it just has to end.

I recall peering at him from my window, with a broad smile without realizing it.

I was crazy and he made me do things I'd never imagined.

In few days, I'd be getting married and...

My thoughts were distracted when the doorbell rang. I shuddered and I cleared my throat.

They were here...

I took a long evaluation of the sitting room, if it still needed a touch and after being satisfied by the turn out, I swallowed hard.

Languorously, I stomped towards the door. I tried to stay composed so that my flaws wouldn't be detected.

Spurring it open, I found him in the rain. Water dripping off his body as his cold gaze peers at me.

He had his dark outfit as always, his body quivers in the rain as it lashes on him.

His gaze affected me in so many ways that my heart melted. I felt he'd burn me with those eyes.

He probably hates me, for ditching him. I thought that's the best way, to protect him, and not raise suspicions.

I was stunned he shouldn't be here. He breath was hazel as he part his lips, he looked piteous.

It was obvious he hadn't gotten enough sleep judging from the dark rings that circled his eyes.

My family would be coming over and it would be ridiculous finding him here, it's meant to be a private family meeting.

I couldn't leave him in the rain either, he seems tensed and I was emotionally. My body shook as we both stared at each other.

"Is this a goodbye?" He mutters and tears brewed up in my eyes.

He came back and I was hurting just as he was. This shouldn't be a goodbye yet.

I was mute, having no words to say, I didn't want him the cold. I thought pushing him away to end the emotions I had for him.

However, it made me realize that he was the one, the best thing I ever knew I needed.

"Peris..." I muttered softly, barely recognizing my voice. However, before I could flutter my eyes, he captured my lips.

He parted my lips widely as I gasp, my body lazily rubbed on him and I was weak.

His wet body soaks my shirt too and his hair trickled water on my face, his kiss grew hungrier as we exchanged breath.

His body enveloped mine, as his strong arms went around my waist. I felt he'd take the rest of my miserable soul away.

I missed his touch and pretending not to want him was killing.

I broke out the kiss and stuttered back. I took a long gasp for air, almost suffocating.

"We shouldn't be doing this peris" I said shivering and trying to grasp my breath.

"I know but I... can't stop thinking of you..." He reply and with just a step, he drew closer to me.

However, my phone beeps and the doorbell rings too. It's my family, they were here.

"Peris, you've got to leave..."

"No they've got to leave because I want you tonight" he cuts in with pain, anger and lust in his eyes.