Chapter 1

Thud!

That was the sound of my dancing heels hitting against the floor as I dropped them. I was rendered wordless at the papers before me. My hands drew slowly to the edge of the paper that was placed on the table. I swallowed a mould of fluid that got stuck In my throat before picking up the papers hastily.

"But why? I asked looking at the weary face of my mother. She stood across the table, her hands folded to rest on her chest. A way of bracing herself from the emotional war that was going on within her.

"Scott has been cheating on me."

The moment the words fell of her lips, I paused like a statue. My breath seized for some seconds and my mind went blank but began flooding with several guilty questions just immediately. I wondered if she knew already. My throat was getting dry and at that moment I couldn't bring myself to say a thing to her.

"Why the lies?" She said and stared at me like she was asking a question aware of the answer.

This was hard for me to do, I couldn't lie to myself that it felt good being with my step dad but each time we soaked in each other's warmth and enjoyed the torrent of pleasure that flowed from our body's rhythmic movements, a pinch of our conscience always said that it was wrong but I couldn't resist my sexual attraction to him. So I slept with him every chance I got to.

"I-I don't know what to say mum. I'm so sorry." My voice was getting cracky and I could feel my tears logging at the corners of my eyes. I felt a surge of guilt within me, I betrayed her and now she knew. My mum was my everything, how could I face her after this.

"You don't need to say anything Thea, I've made a decision." She said firmly, I hoped it wasn't what i was thinking, I'm her only child, she can't push me away. I couldn't live with that guilt for what I did to her.

"Mum I'm so sorry." I said taking daring steps towards her. I held her hands in mine, this time my tears were flowing endlessly and like it purged the tears she was trying so hard to hold in, tears began to stream down her cheeks slowly. She shut her eyes tightly revealing just how hurt she was. I was never going to forgive myself for this, seeing how much I hurt her was tearing me apart.

I knelt down, not letting go of her hand, I was glad that at least she wasn't pushing me away after knowing the wicked thing I had done to her which was now destroying her marriage.

"Get up Thea..."

"No!" I cried. I needed her to hear me out before deciding to throw me out of her life.

"Thea."

"Mum please.... Please listen to me" My voice was shaky and my hands trembling from my tears and fears.

"There's nothing you can say or do that can change anything." She tried freeing herself from my hold but I held her legs tightly, now crying bitterly, fearing what she was going to say to me. "Why are you doing this to me Thea?"

I tried to stand up and dare a look at her. I could see how hurt she was through her eyes, She loved Scott so much and he loved her too but what we did was evil. She didn't deserve this.

"Don't do this mum, please. I'm begging."

" I know you like Scott a lot but I just can't bring myself to forgive. I love you Thea you know that but I just can't. It's too much to bear."

" I hate myself for doing it. I swear it was never my intention. I never wanted to hurt you like this. Please believe me mum."

" What?"

What was that? The question and the tone it was said in. I could sense shock. Was I misunderstanding things all along?

"Are you... are you saying you knew all along?" I could sense the dissapiontment in her words. If I had my initial guess right, she wouldn't be so calm with me. She seemed to have known whom Scott had been cheating on her with but then it probably wasn't me. My heart skipped few beats scared that I had almost exposed myself when I had not been caught.

"Mum." I called silently staring at her with guilt filled eyes.

"Don't ... Don't Thea! She raised a finger, her head tilted signifying she didn't want me any close to her.

"I ..."

"You knew all this while and left me in the dark while Scott and Jane had an affair behind my back Thea! You let them mock me and you are supposed to be on my side always. I am your mother!"

Her sad emotions were now turned to anger towards me but then Jane? Her best friend. No way! Jane had been my mum's bestfriend for quite sometime, how could she betray her? I paused in my thoughts realizing how much of a hypocrite I was saying that. Even I her daughter could not resist her hot and sexy husband, no one should be a surprise to me.

My lips were parted in shock still but I regained myself just immediately before she could suspect that the news was new to me as well.

"I ... I didn't know how to say it. I didn't want to hurt you."

" Well you did, now that I found out the hard way."

" You caught them in bed." I asked lowering my gaze.

"How else was I supposed to find out." I sighed a bit relieved knowing that it could have been me in bed with Scott.

"I could have saved you from such horrible experience. If only I had the courage to say it but I was too scared of hurting you. I hope you can understand and forgive me." This was a lot better and easier. Pretending to know about an affair I never imagined could exist. This was much bearable. Now all I had to do was stay away from Scott no matter what. That was the right thing to do.

"Leave Thea." Her voice came low but grieved.

" Mum?"

"Just leave! I just want to be alone."

I understood completely so I simply nodded and made my way through the door but suddenly I felt my head bump into a familiar hard surface. I drew my eyes slowly, tracing it from the well fitted blue shirt that held within it the biceps of a man whose mere presence could arouse me. Then I gulped sensually as my eyes fell on his lips that was merciless whenever it grabbed mine and now I was looking at his face and he was staring down at mine a deep hunger surging inside of me. I was before him the man I swore to stay away from few seconds ago but now he was everything my body wanted at this point.