Chapter 2

You understand that after everything I have experienced so far I have not had the calm mind to think about having a child even by accident, I have always taken my precautions, for me my family comes first and despite what we are experiencing I would not want to, it would be irresponsible for me to bring back another burden and even my little sister I tell her all the time. She is a beautiful little girl of 20 years very intelligent she has just started university and is studying finance, I know that one day she will take over she will become a great lady. The departure of our mother affected her a lot, she cried sometimes of her absence I could not do anything I did not know where she was until the day her sister my aunt let us know that she lives with a white man, eh ah a white man of whatever. My mother is a bad woman I hate her you will think that I am harsh too bad it is my feeling, I do not want to see her neither today nor tomorrow...

She had come into contact with my little sister I will never prevent her from seeing her mother but me she crosses her path. I will never be like her, abandon my children because I saw a white man who has more money, a kid this woman Stuippp. I hope she is happy wherever she is.It was time for me to take responsibility as a big sister. I started looking for work, I also did any kind of work as long as it brought me something, with what I earned and what my father brought home we could manage and continue to pay for Lydie's studies. Until the day my father fell, it was a second shock for us he had stopped working and I was the only one bringing in money, how much? For how many people? not to mention her medication, her care and medical visits, with all this we could no longer manage the rent and had accepted the proposal of her big brother, our uncle to live with him.

We are there until today. You understand that after everything I have experienced so far I have not had the calm mind to think about having a child even by accident, I have always taken my precautions, for me my family comes first and despite what we are experiencing I would not want to, it would be irresponsible for me to bring back another burden and even my little sister I tell her all the time. She is a beautiful little girl of 20 years very intelligent she has just started university and is studying finance, I know that one day she will take over she will become a great lady. The departure of our mother affected her a lot, she cried sometimes of her absence I could not do anything I did not know where she was until the day her sister my aunt let us know that she lives with a white man, eh ah a white man of whatever. My mother is a bad woman I hate her you will think that I am harsh too bad it is my feeling, I do not want to see her neither today nor tomorrow... She had come into contact with my little sister I will never prevent her from seeing her mother but me she crosses her path. I will never be like her, abandon my children because I saw a white man who has more money, a kid this woman Stuippp. I hope she is happy wherever she is.

I have always taken precautions, for me my family comes first and despite what we are going through I would not want to, it would be irresponsible for me to bring back another burden and even my little sister I tell her all the time. She is a beautiful little girl of 20 years very intelligent she has just started university and is studying finance, I know that one day she will take over she will become a great lady. The departure of our mother affected her a lot, she cried sometimes of her absence I could not do anything I did not know where she was until the day her sister my aunt let us know that she lives with a white man, eh ah a white man of whatever. My mother is a bad woman I hate her you will think that I am hard too bad it is my feeling, I do not want to see her neither today nor tomorrow...

She had come into contact with my little sister I will never prevent her from seeing her mother but me that she crosses her path. I'm never gonna be like her, abandon my kids because I saw a white guy with more money, a kid that Stuippp woman. I hope she's happy wherever she is.I have always taken precautions, for me my family comes first and despite what we are going through I would not want to, it would be irresponsible for me to bring back another burden and even my little sister I tell her all the time. She is a beautiful little girl of 20 years very intelligent she has just started university and is studying finance, I know that one day she will take over she will become a great lady. The departure of our mother affected her a lot, she cried sometimes of her absence I could not do anything I did not know where she was until the day her sister my aunt let us know that she lives with a white man, eh ah a white man of whatever. My mother is a bad woman I hate her you will think that I am hard too bad it is my feeling, I do not want to see her neither today nor tomorrow... She had come into contact with my little sister I will never prevent her from seeing her mother but me that she crosses her path. I'm never gonna be like her, abandon my kids because I saw a white guy with more money, a kid that Stuippp woman. I hope she's happy wherever she is.

Now let's get into my little life, as you go along you'll know more about me. I'm 1m70 for 60 kilos, yes I'm a model, or it's starvation or it's really my weight ohh I don't know lol. But I like it, I feel good in my skin. I have a black complexion, very black that I assume, I'm not ashamed like some who will spoil their skin because they want to shine after they become ugly, I have confidence in myself and I feel beautiful, it's the complexion of glory. I don't have girlfriends unless you call friends and acquaintances girlfriends. I don't like to burden myself with people who don't bring me anything more in my life, I hate wasting my time with interested hypocritical girlfriends and all, my sister and my father are enough if I want to confide I talk to them that's all. They say about me that I feel, it amuses me they did not understand my vision of things I do not blame them, others say that I am insolent, impulsive and I have a big mouth, hahahaha I can still accept that I have a big mouth, I do not like to be walked all over, I am strong-willed and always on the defensive it is perhaps a fault I do not know.