Chapter 5

And to my horror, Matthew open the door for me bowing slightly. Oh wow, like a true gentleman. Fantastic! But base from the smirk in his face, I knew that he's srewing with me.

"Bastard!" I lowly hissed at him, but he just chuckled. The nerve?! But he suddenly become serious.

"Kim, be safe okay." He said with so much intensity and sincerity. I know that he is an asshole sometimes but he's still one of the nicest guy I knew.

"Yea-" but I never finished whatever I'm gonna say because he just drove away without a single glance from me. Rude.

Well, Matthew is always like that no need to think hard about it. He must be in a rush or something. Because he might be my personal body guard but he still needed to do so many things. Feeling eyes on me, I raise my head and I'm surprise that a lot of students eyeing me with so much intensity. It makes me uncomfortable and a little freak out. Ugh..

Then I felt my skin on my back prickle, turning around I've met with the most gorgeous pair of eyes I've ever seen, it belongs to a teenage boy who is older than me by a year or two base on his physique. He is so handsome, with a honey blonde short hair, a gorgeous blue eyes with a hint of green, a high cheek bones, prominent nose and a thin pinkish and sexy lips. He is tall too, probably 6'4 and a lot of muscle but not disgusting to look at. And while I am getting lost with his eyes it never occurred to me that I'm checking him out. I just realized it when someone bump him breaking our weird connection.

I felt my cheeks burned with embarrassment. God, I'm not even gay. But why I'm checking him out? Like some slut who wants to licked the guy?! Well not really licked..., maybe just a nipped.., just a little bit. Oh god, I'm sure he taste really good and with those bulging muscle I really have no doubt..yummm... The heck?!

I just don't think of him like that, right?! No friggin way... But I can't lie to my self. I'm aware of that. The attraction that I felt for him is as clear as crystal, and I would hate myself if I denied that. Ugh.. Its so messed up.

But clearly the guy is not gay. He would never feel the same way. Oh man, first person that I ended up liking is someone who can never reciprocate my feelings. How depressing..

With my mind filled with depressing thoughts, I don't realize that its my last subject already. My mind is almost numb with so much thinking that I can't even answer Matthew when he greeted me. He gave me a concerned look but I just shook my head at him. With a sigh he left me be as we drove away.

Its almost a whole week had passed but I am still pondering with my little problem. That I am likely gay and attracted to Deathon Blackwood.

Yes that's right I found out his name in the next day I saw him. I accidentally heard his name being called by a teacher and after that I become like some crazed fan and I researched all about him that's need to know.

I learned that his parents are dead. And he only have his two brothers. One of them is Trenton age 24, engage to be married and the CEO of Blackwood Manufacturing Corp. It is one of the biggest Manufacturing Company here in California and according to my source Deathon is one of the main reason in its success. Chester is his younger brother, who is the same age as me. The main vocalist of the band Burn. A local band in the town, whose been gathering a lot of fans not just here but in nearby town too.

Deathon has an interesting life and I'm wishing that I can have him, but sadly I can't because the most devastating news that I've learned about him, is that he is going out with Sarah Nelson her long time girlfriend for almost 3 years. Ugh..

I am so devastated when I first learned about it but somewhat I am doing just fine. The training that I am doing everyday with Matthew become my rock. The intense training make me forget about him. Matthew might notice my strange behavior but he never comment on it and I'm thankful of him for that.