Chapter 5

Tears began to slide down my cheeks,I wiped my tears and took a deep breath. I can't cry, not here, not now. I have to be strong. I walked to the bathroom and freshened up. Looking at the mirror I saw myself. A broken shell of myself. I turned on the tap and wash my face, the warm water streaming down my face. I grabbed a towel to dry my face, breathing in and out trying to compose myself.

Declan was waiting outside the room door. "Let's go" he ordered and led me out of Lorenzo's house. The drive back to the hostel was a calm one. Declan sang quietly along to the song playing on the radio while I was thinking of Lorenzo and what had happened. He used me, toyed with my feelings and when he was done, he dumped me. I was a fool for thinking otherwise.

"Mariana, where were you? You made me worried sick!" Janet exclaimed as she saw me walk through the door. I looked at her and smiled weakly. I didn't know how to tell her about Lorenzo. She sighed and looked at me in an understanding manner. She sat beside me on my bed and placed her arm over my shoulder. "You okay?" Janet asks with concern evident in her voice.

I needed this kind of comfort even though she probably thinks I spent the night with some asshole from the club. Tears were threatening to fall again but I closed my eyes pushing it back in. "I'm fine really" I said, with a forced smile. "You know how everything is, it's no big deal".

"Mariana," She says in a serious tone. "If something is bothering you, you can tell me. I hope you know that". I tried to shake off the sadness I'm feeling, but it was hard.

"It's nothing, I'm just tired," I said, trying to keep my smile in place. But Janet saw right through me. Maybe because she has been here for long, she knew what it felt like. "Mariana, you can tell me anything. I'm here for you," she said, placing a hand on my shoulder. I knew I could trust Janet, so I took a deep breath and told her about what happened at Lorenzo's house. As I finished telling her, my eyes welled with tears.

She wrapped her arm around me and I cried into her shoulder "It's okay." She whispered, stroking my hair. I felt a sense of relief as I finally let out all I have been holding in all morning. After a few minutes I pulled away from Janet and wiped away my tears.

"I'm sorry for falling apart like that, I'm usually not like that" I murmured with embarrassment.

"Don't be. It's okay to feel things. Especially in a place like this, you can't keep all your feelings bottled up, it hurts a whole lot more when you do" Janet said, smiling at me. "Buuut...." She began, smiling mischievously at me. "How did you manage to get the great Lorenzo McLaren in your arms for a night?"

"What?" I replied giggling. She just had to go there.

"I mean it, Mariana" She said, moving closer to me. "You've only been here for how many months and you've already had him. I've been here for years and all I could ever do was stare and daydream" She sighed dramatically, lying down on my bed. I let out a laugh when she dragged me down with her.

"Tell me your secret,you little witch" She started to tickle me. I began to laugh uncontrollably.

"I.... don't.... know!!!!, Janet!!!" I screamed, trying to hold back my tears while laughing really hard .

The room was filled with our laughter as we rolled around the bed, breathless from all the tickling. Finally, we both collapsed on the bed, catching our breath. "Wow, I haven't had this much fun in a while," Janet said with a big smile on her face.

"Me too, it feels good to let loose and have some fun." I said, smiling back at her.

We laid there for a few minutes in silence,basking in the afterglow of our laughter. My mind drifted back to Lorenzo, My thoughts drifted back to his warm embrace and soft lips, but I shook myself out of my reverie. I couldn't get attached to Lorenzo, it was just a fling, nothing more, nothing less. But I couldn't get rid of the nagging feeling in my chest. I couldn't let my heart get involved, but I also couldn't deny the attraction I felt towards him. I felt so conflicted, caught between my head and my heart.

I was snapped back to reality by Janet's voice. "Hey, get up. Don't forget we're on cleaning duty today, we have to head to the club."

"Oh no! I totally forgot about that," I groaned, sitting up quickly. "We better get a move on, we don't want to get into trouble with Margot." Janet said, standing up and stretching. I followed suit, feeling a little disoriented. We grabbed our cleaning supplies and headed out to the bar.

At work, my thoughts kept drifting back to Lorenzo, no matter how hard I tried to focus.My mind kept wandering back to the night before. The feel of his lips on mine, the way his arms wrapped around me, the way he made me feel like the only person in the world. I couldn't shake what I felt for him no matter how much I tried. My thoughts were distracted by Margot who snuck up to me.

"Where's your head at? She asks me.

"Huh, I didn't hear you clearly."I replied gloomily.

"I said!" She yelled in my face. "Where's your head at, you've been on this same spot for the past thirty minutes."

I took a deep breath, trying to regain my composure. "I'm sorry, I was just lost in thought," I apologized, not wanting to reveal the real reason I was so distracted.

"Well, stop being such a daydreamer and get back to work," Margot sneered, turning on her heel and walking away. I sighed, knowing that the rest of my shift was going to be long and hard. I shook off thoughts of Lorenzo and tried to focus on the task at hand.

Night came and the club was packed as usual. I hardly had time to catch my breath because I was running around.

"Mariana, we have an order for table 12 upstairs, they'd like two glasses of champagne, a bottle of merlot and an order of calamari," I heard Samantha yell over the crowd. I grabbed the order pad and scribbled down the details, my mind racing as I tried to keep track of everything. I head towards the bartender.

"Hey, you got an order for table 12?" I asked, waving the order pad at him. "Yup, let me just grab the wine," he said, rushing over to the fridge. I watched him as he grabbed the champagne and the merlot, his movements quick and efficient.

He handed me the bottles and I headed upstairs, navigating through the crowd, balancing the drinks carefully. I could feel the adrenaline rushing through me, I tried to stay calm and focused. I made it to table 12, and took a deep breath before I approached the table. I placed the tray down and served the drinks. Just as I was about to leave I spotted Lorenzo, staring at me.

My heart stopped as our eyes met. I felt frozen in place, my breath caught in my throat. I couldn't look away from him, no matter how hard I tried.

I reminded myself about what happened between us and forced myself to snap out of it. Lorenzo breaks away from the gaze first and focuses his attention on the woman beside him.

The woman was beautiful, her skin perfect and her hair glossy. She was laughing at something Lorenzo said, and he was smiling at her. I felt a pang of jealousy as I watched them. I cleared my throat and headed back downstairs in anger.

The rest of the night went on the same. Once my shift was over I went back to the hostel to try to get some sleep before tomorrow but I couldn't. I tossed and turned, unable to get the image of Lorenzo and that woman out of my mind. But no matter how much I tried it was no use. I sighed and sat up on the bed staring out the little window in my room wondering if Lorenzo would spend the night with the lady from the bar.