Chapter 4 Chapter 4: Family Shadows

A beam of sunlight through the curtain woke me. A little past nine — in my old life that was mid-shift — and it took me five seconds to remember where I was.

They were five happy seconds.

"The gentleman expects you at eleven in the study, south wing, Laura," Gloria said as she left breakfast for me.

I went up to the study and Manuel was waiting for me behind the desk, cane leaning against the chair. Not a trace of a smile.

"Laura. Sit."

"You say good morning."

For all their money, they lack manners. He just nodded as I sat down.

"Three things. First: today at noon Ethan is being transferred from the hospital to this house. We have a medical suite in the east wing, better equipped than most hospitals. Your job starts then."

"Good."

"Second: the marriage is not to be mentioned outside this house. Not to your friend, not to your family, not to anyone. Inside, we don't say it out loud either. The staff knows because they must. If any family member other than me or my daughter-in-law finds out, we have a problem."

"Why?"

"Because my family is not a simple family."

"Manuel, I already signed. Be specific."

He held my gaze. I didn't drop mine; you don't drop your face with old men like that, because when you drop it they note that you're useful.

"My grandson Ethan, besides being sick, is the richest man in this family. By my decision. I handed the legal businesses to my son Alonso five years ago, but there are other activities — I call them that, out of courtesy — that I didn't pass to Alonso. I passed those to Ethan. We raised him for it from the age of eighteen."

"What activities, Manuel?"

"That's not your concern yet."

"And when is it my concern?"

"When I say so."

"You just married me off to a man in a coma and you're telling me it's not my concern to know what he does. With all due respect, that's rude."

Long pause. For the first time I saw that Manuel was amused — amused in that bad way dangerous old men are amused — that someone stood up to him.

"All right. I'll give you one word, no more. Smuggling. And I stop there until Ethan wakes up and decides for himself whether to tell you the rest. Is that enough?"

"No. But it's enough for breakfast."

Half a smile. I went on.

"Continue with the list."

"If anything happens to Ethan, you inherit. You're his legal wife."

"How much?"

"More than you'll be able to count."

"And Marcelo?"

Manuel raised an eyebrow — that's where I caught him off guard, and old mafia types don't like people who ask questions.

"Who told you about Marcelo?"

"Your daughter-in-law. Between sobs the name slipped out."

He tightened his jaw.

"Marcelo is my other grandson, Ethan's older brother. He's not in the line of succession, he never was. And that, Miss Mendoza, is the third thing I have to tell you. Marcelo will show up, sooner or later. When he does — easy smile, conversational, charming — don't let yourself be fooled. Be careful with him. Very careful."

"How careful?"

"Careful enough not to be alone with him in the same room if you can help it."

"Manuel, that's not caution. That's fear."

"Call it what you want. You asked, I answered."

I took a deep breath.

"One more thing, Laura."

"Tell me."

"In this house there is a man named Derek Hayes. Ethan's head of security. He's loyal to him, right hand for eight years, my grandson's eyes when my grandson can't see. Trust him the way you trust me — which isn't much, but it's more than the rest. You'll meet him this afternoon. If anything happens in this house and I'm not here, call Derek before anyone else."

"Understood."

"And Laura."

"Yes?"

"Welcome to the family."

He said it dry, without irony, but the word "family" came out of him strange, as if it had gotten stuck. I left the study with a knot in my throat and a new certainty: the contract I had signed was much bigger than the picture Manuel had painted for me in the hospital, and the old man knew it, and he was letting it out in drops so I'd swallow it in doses that wouldn't kill me.

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At noon Ethan arrived by private ambulance. Two paramedics brought the stretcher down, Marcela behind it, holding herself upright by visible effort. They set him up in the suite in the east wing and the paramedics left.

Marcela and I were alone, her son's body between us.

She went up to the bed and took his hand. She didn't stroke his hair, didn't kiss his forehead, didn't do any of the gestures mothers do. She just took his hand and squeezed it once, hard, like someone delivering a report.

"Laura."

"Ma'am."

"Take care of him for me."

"I'll take care of him, ma'am."

"Don't let anything happen to him."

"I promise you."

She stayed quiet a while. I didn't say anything, because you could see in her face that silence wasn't empty, it was preparation. Marcela was struggling with what she was about to say.

"Ethan," she said, with her eyes on her son's face and not on mine, "since he was a boy he always tried to look tough. Since he was eight and fell off a horse and didn't cry, even with a dislocated shoulder. Since he was eleven and they told him he had a heart murmur and he didn't cry in front of me. Since he was eighteen and his grandfather handed him the business and he took it without asking what it was. This boy doesn't cry, Laura. Never. Not even as a child."

She stopped. Took a breath.

"And look at him now. So still. So quiet. He looks eight years old again."

Her voice cracked. She didn't cry, but something more uncomfortable than a tear came through her eyes: dignity breaking for the first time in front of another woman.

I put my hand on her shoulder. She didn't push it away.

"He's half my heart, Laura."

She said nothing more. She pressed my hand against her shoulder for a second and walked out of the room.

I stayed with my now husband, wondering what kind of boy had grown up in this house forcing himself not to cry. I went up to the bed. I looked at Ethan for the first time since I'd signed the marriage papers.

Blond. Handsome, I already knew that — a man of thirty whose grandfather had handed him a smuggling business, whose mother was begging his pretend wife to take care of him in a trembling voice, with a borrowed heart that had been beating for only six hours.

"Nice to meet you, Ethan," I said quietly. "I'm Laura. The fool who signed."

He didn't move, and I smiled at the thought that he might.

I walked to the bathroom for supplies — he was due for a post-op cleaning — so I took equipment from the dresser, filled the basin, put on gloves. I started with the arms. When I got to the torso, turning him to clean his back, a sponge too heavy with water soaked the side of my uniform blouse.

"Shit."

I looked at my sleeve stuck to my arm. I couldn't keep going like that. The medical suite opened onto the east wing hallway, my room was three doors down; five minutes, change of uniform, come back.

I smoothed the sheet on Ethan, closed the door behind me, and walked fast to my room. I changed the blouse for a dry one, dried off with a hand towel, and came back.

I pushed the suite door open.

There was a man standing by the bed.

Tall. Tailored gray suit. His back to me, leaning slightly over my husband, watching him with an intensity that wasn't the intensity of a family member looking at a patient — it was the intensity of a man studying a problem he's still trying to solve.

I stayed still in the doorway.

"Do you need something, sir?"

He straightened without a flinch. Turned around slowly. Tall — over six feet — dark-skinned, dark hair well cut, green eyes. He didn't look like Ethan in anything except the mouth; the mouth was the same, and that mouth was stretched into a welcoming smile that didn't reach the eyes.

"You must be the new nurse."

"Laura Mendoza."

I didn't give him the married name. If this was who I thought it was, he could find out from someone else.

"Marcelo Cavalier. The brother."

"Pleased to meet you, sir."

"Marcelo."

"Marcelo."

He took two steps toward me. He held out his hand. I gave him mine because I couldn't refuse, and he held it half a second longer than he should have, the exact half second men like him use to remind you they control time.

"How long have you been working with my brother?"

"Starting today."

"Ah. The grandfather's recommendation, I assume."

"From the hospital where he was admitted, sir."

"Marcelo."

"Marcelo."

He smiled a little more, with the mouth only. He studied me. He looked me up and down with the same intensity he'd been watching his brother with a minute earlier, and for a second I understood what Manuel had been trying to tell me that morning: this man, if he stayed alone in a room with someone, it wasn't because he was interested in conversation.

"Nurse. One question, if I may."

"Go ahead."

"How long does it take someone in my brother's condition to die if respiratory support is withdrawn?"

I blinked. He said it the way someone asks the time.

"It depends on the patient, sir. Between minutes and hours."

"Ah. Thank you."

"Why do you ask?"

"Medical curiosity. My brother is an important man, nurse. This family, this house, this entire city depends more than you think on that monitor continuing to beep. Do you understand me?"

"No, I don't understand you."

"You understand me. Take care of him. He's very valuable to this family."

He said it looking me in the eyes. The smile was gone. The phrase had two layers, and I read them both: the top one was take care of the patient, please, and the bottom one was take care of him, because if anything happens to him, you're the one who'll be called to account.

"I'll take care of him, Mr. Marcelo. It's my job."

"I hope so."

He looked at me one more second. He looked at Ethan. He came back to me.

"Nice perfume you're wearing."

"I don't wear perfume, sir."

"Even nicer, then."

He left. The door closed behind him with the soft click.

I stayed standing in the middle of the room, my hands cold, my heart climbing into my throat. I looked at Ethan.

"Ethan. Your brother just asked me how long it takes you to die if I disconnect you."

He didn't answer. I didn't expect him to.

But this time — and I know what I saw — his right eyelid twitched. Twice. One after the other.

I walked up to the bed slowly. I looked at his face. Nothing. I took his wrist over the glove. I pressed a thumb onto the back of his hand.

"Ethan. If you can hear me, once. Squeeze my hand once."

Nothing.

I waited. I counted to thirty. Nothing.

I let go of his hand. I sat down in the armchair next to the bed. I ran both hands down my face.

I was seeing things.