Chapter 1.

Chapter 1.

I close my eyes focusing hard on my magic, she’s about fifty feet in front of me, I can see her hiding behind the bushes. Screaming howls fill the air aggressively as the smell of blood turns my stomach, my eyes flash open and I begin to see my path appear in front of me taking off to find my mother, the woman who killed my mate.

Two months earlier

Sitting in my chair in our room I inhale the intoxicating scent of my mate, my mind flash’s through the last images I have of him. My mother standing over me holding his heart in her hands as it feels like she’s torn out mine, the searing pain that radiates through me as I watched my beloved take his last breath. My mind sinks in to a sorrow filled darkness while I stare out the window, my body and mind both numb.

It’s been a month since it happened and haven’t been able to feel anything since that day, it’s like my emotions turned off, no pain or hate. No love or passion just a numbing feeling that consumes me each and every day. I know I should feel sad but I feel nothing, I don’t think I could ever properly feel anything again. Parker was my mate, my other half, the love of my life and she took him from me. I feel a wet tear roll down my face as my expression doesn’t change.

My only goal now is to avenge my mates death and kill my mother. I hear a small knock on the door as I continue to stare off, the door opens and Alison walks in quietly.

“Do you need anything?” Her voice is faint and muffled, I barely move to her question. I feel her walk up next to my chair before she takes a seat facing the window with me.

“Im so sorry this happened Valerie, I couldn’t imagine how you must feel.” Her small voice seeps with sorrow, I slowly turn to her and her eyes snap up to look at me.

“I don’t feel anything.” I say coldly as I see her hand on my knee, I struggle to feel the pressure of her touch and my body fails me. Nothing.

“Oh Valerie I’m so sorry, Evan and I are here if you do need anything.” She says softly while she sits in silence with me a little longer.

“I need Evan to help me kill her.” I say, my voice just above a whisper.

“Evan is preparing the warriors now, he was thinking of using the girls to cloak us, we just need to find out where she’s hiding to plan our attack.” She states and I nod softly returning my view to the window.

“Would you like to come have dinner with us?” Her small voice breaks the silence once again.

“No, I think I’m just going to stay here for now.” I say as she nods before leaving my room closing the door gently behind her. I feel bad for being so cold to everyone but I really don’t know how to feel and I’m just doing the best I can to keep myself together without half of my being.

I guess I zoned out because when I finally come to mentally again I see that it’s pitch black outside, I look at the clock. 1 am, everyone’s probably asleep by now and I want to go for a run, getting outside I feel the harsh cold night hit my skin like needles. I try to take a deep breath as my body fails me again not allowing air in to my lungs, I shift quickly under the moon light as my bones snap and agonizing pain spreads through me.

It feels like forever, I roll in pain as my body reforms in to my wolf and the pain slowly subsides, shifting hasn’t hurt me like that since I first started turning. I struggle to pull myself up, my paws shake while I hold my huge body up forcefully, I feel my wolf howl in pain at the loss of our mate. My wailing cry’s fill the night sky as my body takes in the strength and power from the moon goddess.

I take off in to the night feeling the wind rush along my fur and the dirt beneath my paws, at least I can still feel in my wolf form.

Anna? Anna are you there? I ask softly, my wolf hasn’t spoken since Parker’s death.

I’m here darling, I’m sorry I’ve been so absent. She says softly as sorrow rushes over me once again.

it’s ok, I understand. I answer as we come to a clearing near the crystal pond.

I brought Parker here just after he joined the pack, this is the place we first mated, the place where he marked me to be his forever. I feel Anna’s heart sink as a gut wrenching howl comes from her once again. I lay down on the cold wet grass looking up to the moon, why would she do this to me? Give me a mate just to take him away at the hands of my mother? My heart sinks and I think about the future I could have had that has now been ripped away.

“Everything happens for a reason my darling.” A voice says making me jump, my ears pin back as my eyes dart and I look around frantically, the only person who can answer my mind link right now is Anna.

“Who are you?” I ask softly still looking around as the moon shimmers brighter and I suddenly get lost in a trance, a gorgeous hollow woman appears in front of me as my heart pounds rapidly in my ears.

“Well I’m the one who chose Parker for you dear.” Her soft voice calms me filling me with a sense of purpose and hope.

“You’re the moon goddess?” I ask stunned, I’ve never heard of anyone seeing the moon goddess let alone having them answer your questions.

“There is a great darkness coming, I gave you Parker with the intention of him helping you complete the coming battle. But seeing as your mother has taken him too soon the loss of him will fuel your drive to seek revenge.” Her hands grasp mine as the loose lace flows from her body dancing in the wind.

“What final battle?” I ask in confusion.

“You are very special Valerie, you are able to shift like my children but hold the power of magic from your mother. The coming battle will be left in your hands.” She explains as my mind races.

“Your mother plays a big part in this battle, the sake of my children depends on you.” She finishes.

“I just learned about my powers, how am I supposed to take down my mother and fight this battle you speak of?” I ask softly as her hands swim through my fur making my nerves come alive.

“I will be here to help you but you will need to develop your magic and prepare yourself for the fight, it will not be easy but it comes with great reward.” With this final statement she dissipates back in to the dark night as the moons shimmer dims and I sit in silence alone in the woods once again.

My mind spins while I think about what just happened, the moon goddess just came to me in the middle of the night.

it’s a great honour to be chosen for this task. Anna says in the back of my mind as I nod slowly knowing she’s right.

I guess we need to train for the next meeting with my mother. I say as she agrees.

I decide it’s time to get back home before the sun begins to rise, I take the long way back running as fast as I can letting my paws pound in to the wet ground hard making loud thumping sounds as I go. I push my body harder feeling myself fly through the air with each stride till I finally reach the pack house.

Going in to my room I strip down tossing my clothes in the basket an head to my shower, I turn it on hot as I stand in the mirror brushing my teeth. I put my toothbrush back as it sits in the cup next to Parker’s and I feel my heart brake while a cold feeling overcomes me, I shake my head turning to step in the shower. Letting the hot water cover over my body I notice Parker’s shampoo sitting on the shelf and I allow myself to collapse to the floor in a puddle of tears.

Sitting in the bathtub I continue crying as the heat consumes me, the water burns in to my skin and everything I’ve pushed down rush’s forward consuming me. I sob deeply as the pain and anguish fill my chest and I can’t control my wretched cry’s echoing off the walls. Tears rush down my face as every nerve in my body feels like it’s on fire.

My chest tightens and my breath escapes me and my cry’s go silent and I lay in the bath like a mess, I stay like this for what seems like forever until all my tears are gone and I have nothing else to cry out. I guess getting in touch with my wolf again triggered all my emotions too, I get out standing to dry myself off as I exhale a deep breath feeling pieces of myself leave with it.

I walk in to my bedroom and take in the intense smell of my mate, I go to his closet pulling out one of his oversized t shirts pulling it on. I inhale deeply taking in all I can of my fallen beloved while crawling in to bed laying on his side I finally start to drift off to the thoughts of him.